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Ugh! Will this time pass any more boringly? How in the hell did people live without television or internet? Hell, I'd give my right arm just for a decent conversation right now. My mind keeps wandering to who set me up and why? Yeah, I didn't like Tatiana, but I didn't want her dead either! Everyone knew the queen and I didn't get along- at all. But recently things just spiraled out of control. I really set my own self up,- after yelling and calling her a sanctimonious bitch and telling her she would regret this - the day when they announced the new age decree. Graduating kids at 16 and sending them out into the world to fight undead creatures of the night -was just absurd. Well nothing to be done about it now. What ever fucking uptight royal prick they are going to put on the throne, won't do a damn thing about it. Their to chicken-shit to learn how to defend their self! The Moroi just want to hide behind their guardian's- if their lucky enough to get one. Maybe luck don't have anything to do with it., it depends on high up in the food chain you are, or how royal your blood is.
"Rose?" Mikhail was speaking to me, or rather at me. I don't know for how long however, cause I had been in my own little world for most of the day. He had a weird array of expressions etched across his features. But his face betrayed none of his emotions on it. Yet, something had told me I totally spaced for a while.
"Um… yeah? What's up.? I replied
"You have a visitor."
I really didn't want to see anyone. I mean, can you blame. How would you feel if you were locked up like some animal in a cage? Its degrading and embarrassing! However I didn't have a choice. I hadn't expected to see anyone so soon. Everyone already came by earlier, well everyone I thought I would see. But yet, I had a funny feeling I knew who it was. The only one I haven't see since I have been locked up.
Before I saw him I could smell him. The smell only he had. God, he was the most stunningly gorgeous man I have ever laid my eyes on. Dimitri. My love. My reason to breath. The other half of my soul.
"Roza…..how are you doing? I mean other than the obvious. You look tired." He said these words as if his voice was made out of some rare and exotic, that only he possessed.
I looked down at the ratty old mattress I was sitting on and said " Yeah, well the accommodation's aren't all that great in here. You kinda cant sleep on these." I made a sweeping motion over the mattress of the bed. "How's the outside world coming along? Has the panic stopped, are they still worried their ass is next when I make my great escape?" I was trying to make a joke. But Dimitri just shook his head at me.
"You know you really shouldn't say stuff like that. People are al-"
"Yeah yeah I know. Lissa gives me the same speech. Save your breath. So what brings you down here? Miss my stunning good looks or my amazing charm."
His eyes portrayed all his emotions. He couldn't lie to me and he knew it. I guess that's why he said what he said next. "Actually both. I know this isn't the time or the place for this talk, but I just cant have you going to your trial without me telling you the truth."
Speaking of my trial it's in four hours-damn. "Roza.." he put his head down for a few seconds and then turned to Mikhail. "Guardian Tanner, could you give us a few minutes of privacy please. I mean you can stay in the corridor but I just need to talk to her for a few moments"
Mikhail nodded and replied "I need to go check on…um.. something anyway. I will be back in a few minutes" I knew he was lying, he just wanted to give us some space. Mikhail knew how much I loved Dimitri. He himself was in love with a woman he couldn't have. He turned and gave me a knowing look. I saw something flash in his eyes. I couldn't tell if it was jealousy or -relief? What was that about?
I turned my attention back to Dimitri. His gaze seemed to burn through me. His eyes pierced my soul. He put his head down again for just a moment and when he looked back at me I saw his eyes welling up with tears. I rushed to the bars of the cell and he cringed at my sudden movement.
"What's wrong?" I demanded "Is something wrong with Lissa?"
He looked shocked. Well, I guess I would have to, because he knew that I knew that he knew that I have the bond with her so I would have already known if something had been wrong. Wow, that's kind of confusing come to think of it.
"No, nothings wrong with her. The princess is fine." He put his head back down again. And when he spoke his voice was racked with pain. "Roza…..I..I-I lied to you. I'm sorry. I don't know-I just don't know."
Okay, now I was confused. What did he lie about? Lissa?
He continued. Voice barely above a whisper, but we were so close. So, so close. Not close enough for me though.
"I don't know if you can forgive me. What I told you that day in the church." He looked up at me, meeting my eyes. Holding my gaze he moved closer to the cell till he was close enough to grab my hand. He had tears falling now in a steady stream. "I told you I didn't love you. That my love faded. Roza…. It has never left me. Oh god, how I love you. I love you so much it hurts. I ache for you. I want to hold you in my arms. Feel your touch. Is there anyway you can forgive me for what I put you through?" He fell to his knees in front of me. I bent down and reached through the bars and lifted his chin so I could look into his eyes.
I reached out to him and gently wiped his tears away with my thumb. I cupped the side of his face with my hand and said. "Dimitri, I love you more than my own life. I would give my life for you if I had to. I knew you still loved me. Oh, you were forgiven along time ago. I could never hold anything against you, ever!"
He moved his head closer to the bars. Sweeping his hands through them, he entwined my hair with his fingers and pressed his lips to mine. I didn't want to ever break apart from that kiss. It was passionate and fierce all at once. I loved his warm full lips. I cou- I broke the kiss and pulled back slightly.
"Wait…..did you come down here and tell me this because you think I am going to die?" I asked. Fully aware that I might just do that.
"No." he replied firmly. " I just couldn't let you walk into that courtroom thinking that I don't love you. Roza I need you. I don't know if you still want me after all I put you through but-" He let his words trail off, but I knew what he was refering to.
"Dimitri, I would move heaven and earth for you if I had to. So don't ever think I don't want you. I love you! There's nothing we cant get through together. I mean if I live-"
I let my words trail off not wanting to think about what might happen. A shiver ran through me.
Dimitri as astute as he was, noticed. "Roza, you will live through this and will get out of here. One way or another I will make sure of it." He had a hard look in his eyes and wore a determined face. He turned away from me and when he looked back at me there was nothing but love in his eyes. Love for me. Finally, I have my love back. The love I went half way around the world for. The one I thought I would have to kill. The one I almost did kill.
"Dimitri" I said. I had to get this out while I was strong enough to. "If…if something does go wrong, and..and they do convict me." He cut me off before I could finish.
"Don't talk like that. Don't even think like that! Nothing is going to happen to you. I can promise you that!" he growled.
"Would you just let me finish."
He looked at me and started to say something so I pushed forward before he could go on.
"Promise me you will take care of Lissa. I know she will take it hard. Hell, it might kill her. I mean really kill her. Literally. We have heard stories of those who have lost their bond mate. Let me just say they are not bedtime stories either. Don't let her do something stupid or let anything happen to her." Now I was the one crying. He nodded. "You have to promise me"
He looked at me dead serious-no pun intended- and gave me the answer I was looking for.
"I promise. Vasilisa will be taken care of. You have my word"
He wrapped my hair in his hands and brought his lips to mine once again. This time there was only love in this kiss. The tenderness was sweet and longing.
Mikhail must have gotten lost. We were there talking and kissing for a long time before he came back. He told Dimitri he had to leave cause I had to get ready for my trial. While I showered, I thought about him and what could have been if I hadn't been set up for this damn murder. I thought about Adrian and how I would have to break this to him. I dien't want to hurt him, but I don't love him the way I love Dimitri. I think he knows that. I think he also knows that he would always be my second choice. I will admit, a small part of me doesn't want to let him go. But that's only a small part, on the other hand all of me wants and yearns for Dimitri. But on the other hand, I may not have to tell him, my death might just do the job for me.
On the way out of the jail Abe was waiting for me along with my mother. Janine Hathaway.
"Mom,-I didn't know you would be here?"
She gave me a puzzled look. " You didn't honestly think I would let you face this by yourself did you?"
Did I? I really didn't know. I mean she takes her guardian duties very seriously. So serious she handed me over to be raised by a Moroi family when I was born and then let the academy raise me from there on out. Hardly ever visiting or calling for that matter. Yes, motherly love at it's finest people!
"I don't know. I'm glad you came though." She gave me a hug and told me she had to go take her seat.
We got to the courtroom door and Abe-my father and lawyer- told me to let him do all the talking this time. I laughed at him, not a funny laugh, a nervous one. He knew that of course. They don't call him Zmey- the snake- for nothing. Then he did the most surprising thing that has ever and I mean ever, ever happen to me- he pulled me into a hug!
We walked through the double doors of the coutroom. The first person I saw was Dimitri. We have this weird thing- its like we can sense one another when we are close. The next person I saw was Lissa. I felt her nervous vibe coming through the bond loud and clear. I also sensed she was blocking something from me. Oh. My. God. What is she up to? Christian was sitting on one side and Adrian was on the other. Huh, I thought for sure Tasha would be with Christian. Dimitri sat directly behind Lissa and was giving me a reassuring smile. He nodded at me and I saw him mouth 'I love you'.
I looked around and sighed, Well time to get this party started.
Okay, is this a really crappy story? Honesty is the best policy!