TMNT: Lullaby for Leo
Ch.1~ True loves plight
I ran after Mikey, we were playing tag and Mikey was really fast today. Don was being pushed by Mikey, even with Don slowing him down, I still couldn't catch him. Jumping I tagged him on the shoulder before falling onto the floor.
"Okay, Leo you got me," Mikey called, I got up and brushed myself off.
"Hey, Mikey where's Raphie? I wanna see if he'll play with us," I asked.
"I think he went down the west tunnel, he said he was going for a walk," Mikey replied, nodding I walked towards the west tunnel.
"I'm gonna see if he'll play with us," I said, walking down the tunnel. I wonder what Raphie was doing, maybe he was listening to the human world again. He always did have a fascination for humans and anything topside.
"Lullaby for you and for all, may we all fall asleep tonight, if I fall someone will catch me and I will never fall again. Sleeping soundly under the stars, making wishes for a brighter start. Under the moon, we sing a lullaby for you and for all. Dancing quietly to your own beat, making moves that flow through all time. Singing softly, singing loud don't wake the child that sleeps so sound." Sang a mysterious voice, I stuck to the tunnel wall listening for the singing to start again.
"Lullaby for dear leader, fall asleep and don't wake up till the morrow, I shall stay awake in the night. Under the moon and sing a lullaby for my leader. Lullaby for my Leader, don't worry when the night is here, I'll sing softly as you sleep and no harm shall befall us. Lullaby please close your eyes I shall sing this till you fall asleep, so lullaby please close your eyes and I wish you great nights sleep. Lullaby my leader, my leader Leonardo. Lullaby for Leo, close your eyes till the morrow." the voice continued, was that Raphie?
Prying myself from the wall I began to head down the tunnel till I reached a turn, peeking around the corner I saw Raph sitting beside a ladder from the sewer up to the human world. He was humming the tune to the song I had heard. He must have been the one singing it. But I never knew Raphie could sing!
"That was a pretty song you were singing Raphie," I said shyly, walking up to him. His face flushed and he looked away, I walked up to him and kneeled in front of him. Leaning towards him I gave him a small kiss on the cheek. "Thank you Raphie."
"No prob Leo and will ya stop looking at me like that, I swear sometimes I could mistake you for a girl." Raph groaned, his face still flushed I giggled and kissed his cheek again. "And will you stop doing that!"
"Your funny Raphie, come on let's go play tag with the others," I giggled getting to my feet, extending my hand towards Raphie. Raphie groaned and grabbed my hand, I helped him to his feet.
"Don't tell anyone okay, I don't wanna look like a sissy," he muttered.
"Your secret is safe with me Raphie, just I wanna hear you sing that again, you have a really great voice. When we get bigger your voice will get even better and you'll look handsome too." I stated Raph's face flushed completely.
"What are you getting at Leo, are you saying you like me?" he mumbled.
"Yeah, I mean I think your great and I like being around you and..."
Raph pinned me to the wall of the tunnel, I could feel his breath on my lips. Was he going to kiss me? Wait, I want him to kiss me, maybe I do like him more than I though.
"If I kissed you on the lips right now would you fight it or kiss me back?" he asked, my face flushed.
"I would... I..." I stuttered, blushing, even more, I leaned in and kissed him, closing my eyes. He kissed back, I felt him cup my cheek with his hand.
"Oh, Raphie and Leo are kissing! K-I-S-S-I-N-G!" Mikey yelled, I though Raphie would stop kissing me but he didn't he just kissed me even deeper. I opened my eyes in surprise, why wasn't he going after Mikey for teasing us! He broke our kiss just as I was about to lose my breath. We stood there our foreheads pressed against each other gasping for breath.
"So are you two in love?" Don asked. I flushed, hiding my face in Raph's chest.
"Only time will tell Don, but you and Mikey don't tell Splinter or I'll beat the living snot out of you two!" Raph answered, patting my back and stood me up again. He leaned towards me and whispered. " I'll sing you that song whenever you ask me to Leo."
"Thank you Raphie," I breathed, as I put my hand to my lips still in a bit of shock.
(A few weeks later)
I heard a loud coughing sound, slowly I opened my eyes to see Raphie sitting up coughing into his hands. He was a bit flushed, was he sick? I rubbed my eyes, Raph was still coughing his head off.
"Raphie, are you okay?" I asked, sitting up I put my forehead on his to check for a fever. Well he definitely had a fever, he leaned down into my chest, he was still coughing a bit.
"Leo," he wheezed, "I think I'm sick."
"Okay Raphie," I hushed, laying Raphie back down in bed. "Now Raphie try not to cough, I'll go get a wet cloth for your fever."
I slipped out of bed and glanced at the clock, it was 1:00 am. Racing down the hallway I ran into the washroom, standing on my tippy toes I grabbed a face cloth. Turning on the cold water I soaked the cloth then ringed it out. Then I rushed back to me and Raphie's room, jumping onto our bed I set the cloth on Raphie's forehead. His breath was ragged, he coughed again closing his eyes.
"Leo, can you talk to me till I fall asleep," he breathed, I flushed.
"Of course but what do you want me to talk about?"
"Anything..."
"Raphie, umm..." I started, laying down beside him. "Raphie, I.. um.. I.. I love you, please feel better. Please go to sleep, I love you!" I cried, Raphie held me close humming that lullaby he sang.
Then he started coughing, my eyes widened, and I wiggled out of his arms. He sat up almost hacking up a lung, I let tears fall down my cheeks as I rubbed his back. Rubbing his back, I snuggled up to his body and pushed him onto his back.
"Please lay down on the bed," I instructed, He laid down and I put the cold cloth on his forehead. I laid down beside Raphie. "Go to sleep Raphie."
"Okay, night Leo," he mumbled, quickly falling into a sleepy daze.
(Splinter's POV)
I walked down the hall, I had heard some coughing coming from Leonardo and Raphael's room. Peering into their room I saw the two boys snuggled close, walking in I saw a wet cloth on Raphael's head, Leonardo seemed to have tears stains on his cheek. I should come in and check on Raphael in the morning. But it seems Leonardo has taken care of the matter for now.
(Mikey's POV)
Leo and Raph were pretty close now, they didn't fight anymore, but Splinter seemed to suspect something. If he found out Raphie and Leo were in love he would break them apart Daddy had made it clear, he would not accept such behavior. But Leo and Raph disobeyed him, not that I could blame them, I loved Donnie like that too. Donnie was just too shy to kiss me or let me kiss him, unlike Raph and Leo who kissed whenever they could.
"MichealAngelo could you please focus on the lesson, you can daydream later my son." Splinter said I snapped out of my thoughts. "Now can you please show us the move we have been practicing while you were daydreaming."
Frowning I looked at Leo for help, but he looked at me like he always did. I know we were learning the split kick, I hope I can do it on my first try. Jumping up I kicked out my legs perfectly straight then landed gently on my feet, I am so lucky I'm a natural at this kind of stuff.
"You're lucky you have talent or you wouldn't get anywhere cuz you're lacking in the brain department." Raph teased, I stuck my tongue out at him.
"Raphael it's your turn show us how far you got with the move," Splinter ordered, Raph frowned.
Raph jumped up kicked out at an almost split form and landed down with the grace of an elephant on skates. He looked at me angrily, he always hated my natural talent, but I guess he was trying to impress Leo. Which was a nearly impossible task, since Leo had pretty high standards, I don't even get how Raph can handle it.
"Now the lesson is over you all are free to do as you like till lunch." Splinter stated, smiling I fled out the dojo doors.
Freedom at last, lessons always felt like they lasted forever, still some days I got so bored during my free time I actually practiced. I shuddered at the thought moving toward the couch, a felt a hand grab my shoulder, turning I saw Don behind me.
"Mikey do you want to go for a walk?" Don asked he looked so handsome.
"Of course Donnie, can you give me a piggyback ride?" I asked, he chuckled and kneeled down.
Wrapping my arms around his neck he grabbed my thighs and carried me toward the front door. Donnie was so sweet, nobody else would listen to my imaginational rants except him. We loved the same shows and had a similar sense of humor. Even if I was dumb and he was a nerd he still loved me and could explain things to me that other people didn't have the patience to explain.
"Mikey, do you ever wish Splinter wouldn't mind if we fell in love with each other?" Don said I leaned my cheek on his shoulder.
"Uhuh, how come Daddy doesn't want us to fall in love with each other, I mean I love you, how can that be wrong," I replied.
"He thinks it's wrong because we're siblings, maybe not be by blood but still he see's it as wrong, actually most humans do too. It's called incest, in some places I heard it's illegal, which is ridiculous, I certainly don't see anything wrong with it."
"How come you never kiss me like Raphie kisses Leo?"
"Sensei told me if he found out any of us were kissing each other he'd send them to Japan to live with the Ancient One. I don't want to be away from you, I would rather get to see you every day then kiss you and be taken away."
"That's mean, does that mean he might send Leo or Raphie away, cuz they kiss a lot."
"I tried to tell Leo but Raph kept distracting him, I don't want to see one of us be sent away."
(Leo's POV)
Raph carried me down the tunnels, giggling I snuggled into the crook of his neck. He held me tighter, I bet he was blushing just like he did whenever I snuggled up to him. He loved to kiss me but whenever I snuggle up to him he would turn red as a tomato.
"Leo, we're gonna be together like this forever, right?" Raph asked I knew if Splinter found out we wouldn't be together anymore.
"I want to be with you forever, cuz I love you so much, but Raph what if Sensei finds out and tries to pull us apart," I replied.
"I would fight, and beg to be able to stay with you like this, cuz I don't ever wanna leave you."
"Raph..."
He set me down gently turning to me he kissed me passionately, pulling me into a nice gentle embrace. Submitting to his kiss, I let him explore my mouth, but I also felt his hands traveling across my body. Pulling apart I saw his passionate red eyes stare into my eyes, it sent a tingle of pleasure up my spine.
"I love you Leo, and I swear I will never, ever stop loving you, I will love you till I die."
"Raph... I... I love you too!"
Flinging myself into his chest I sobbed, I wanted us to be able to stay like this forever. Splinter had told me a long time ago that he wouldn't accept a relationship like this, but I was willing to go behind his back just to be able to be like this with Raph.
"Stop crying Leo, I'm here and I'm not gonna go, well at least not without you."
"Raphie, why do you love me so much?"
"I love you because you mean everything to me and I just love to be with you."
"Can you hold me closer?"
"Of course Leo."
I stood there in his warm embrace, he began to sing to me, my legs felt like jello. Picking me up bridal style he sat down and sat me on his lap, leaning into his shoulder I listened to his beautiful voice sing another verse.
"Raphie..."
"Leo, I love you."
"I-I love you too."
(Raph's POV)
Punching the bag again I swung my foot around to kick the punching bag into the wall. My body was sweaty and I knew I must smell but somehow every time I did this I could feel Leo gaze at me. Maybe that was why I spent an hour every day outside of practice to beat the heck out of this thing. I loved the attention and just to show off how strong I was to him.
Him watching me do this kinda gives me a feeling of closeness to him, and it kinda makes me feel manly. But I highly doubt that Leo will ever come and be horny after me doing this, but a boy can dream. I felt someone grab my arm as I went in to punch the bag, it was Leo and he was crying? What happened, I wrapped my arms around him shushing him, trying to form a lullaby in my head to sing.
"Raphie Splinter saw us..." he sobbed, curling into me more sobbing crazily.
"Saw us what, kissing?" I asked, hugging him worriedly.
"Uhuh, he said if we didn't stop he would send you away, I don't want you to go!"
"I ain't going nowhere, stay here I'm gonna have a talk with Splinter."
Sitting him against the wall I kissed his wet cheeks lightly before storming into father's room. He turned to me and frowned, I glared at him, making Leo cry was something that was unforgivable! My hands were in tight fists, Splinter stood up and glared back at me.
"My son what is the meaning of this anger?" he questioned, my blood was beginning to boil over.
"You said that if you ever caught me and Leo kissing again that you'd send me away, and that made him cry! Why should it matter if Leo and I are brothers or that we're both boys I love him, and I will never ever stop loving him! I swore to him I would fight for us and would never give up no matter what! Leave us alone, cuz we ain't doin' nothin' wrong!" I screamed, trying not to cry myself.
"Raphael you are too young to understand the meaning of those..."
"I understand what it means father, I love Leo and I will never ever hurt him! If I ever needed to I would give my life up for him without even hesitating, he means more to me than anything or anyone! I'm not a little kid anymore, please father I would rather die than be torn away from him!"
"My son you are too young, I am demanding you stop this relationship with your brother or I will send you away!"
"I'll kill myself before I would end this or leave him!"
(Leo's POV)
Raph said he'd kill himself before he would leave me, I ran out of the dojo and jumped over to him gripping him tightly. I don't want you to leave or kill yourself, I would rather us be here together but not like this than him being sent away or he actually killing himself. I don't want him to die!
"Raph please stop this you can't kill yourself you can't!" I sobbed, I saw tears fall down Raphie's cheeks.
"Calm down Leonardo he doesn't mean it, he just hoped he could fool me into changing my decision, but I will not!" Splinter stated, Raph turned to me and fell down.
Hugging him I heard him whispering I love you's into my chest, would Raph really kill himself. My eyes shut, and I sobbed loudly he pulled me into his own chest, unable to stop his own crying to comfort me. Splinter pulled us apart, pulling Raphael away I reached toward him weakly, but Splinter held me back.
"Leonardo stay right there, do you understand, if you move I will send Raphael away." Splinter growled I let my head hang low as I sobbed.
"Leo, what's going on are you alright?" Mikey asked he sounded scared.
"Mikey, go stay with Don, Splinter will be mad if you stay, i-it'll be alright." I soothed, I could hear him run off.
Sitting up I tried to regain my composure only to fail miserably, cursing my weakness I kneeled and gripped my hands onto my thighs my head hung low. I let myself continue to cry onto my own legs, I could hear a door slam and lock. Splinters footsteps entered the room, I kept my head low as he kneeled down in front of me.
"Leonardo if I ever find out that you and Raphael have been kissing or anything like that I will send him away, this is my warning. I want you to regain your composure and play with your siblings Raphael will be grounded. Tomorrow I will be giving you all separate rooms." he lectured, I nodded and sniffled.
"F-father please can't I go in and calm down Raph, please I swear I won't kiss him or let him kiss me, please I just wanna make him stop crying," I begged, looking into father's cold eyes.
"You may, only because I trust you." he replied, bowing I ran toward our room and unlocked the outside lock and walked in.
"Raphie?" I said, searching the black room for him.
Turning around I flicked the switch, I saw Raph lying on the ground but there was blood around him. I screamed and ran to his side crying, removing my mask I tied up his wrist which he had sliced with his sai. putting pressure on the wound I stared sadly at Raph's out-cold body. The door swung open and I saw Splinter knelt down beside Raph.
"Go away, it's your fault, it's your fault if he dies!" I screamed, holding Raph's wrist tighter hoping to stop the blood flow.
"Leo!" Don called, he ran over to me and stared at Raph. "Keep applying pressure I'll get some gauze bandages to wrap it up in."
Don frantically searched in his first aid for the desired item as Mikey lead Splinter out of the room crying the whole time. Don removed my hands from Raph's wrist and quickly rewrapped the wound tightly and heavily. Once he had finished he helped me lift him on the bed, crawling up beside Raph I covered him up and laid down next to him touching his wrist.
"Please don't let Splinter in here..." I pleaded, Don checked Raph's pulse.
"I won't, Raph's heart beat in slowing down to a normal rate, but he'll probably be out for a few days. Do you want me to bring you some supper later?" he explained.
"No, I don't wanna eat till Raphie wakes up," I said, he nodded and left the room shutting the door behind him. "Please Raphie don't die, I don't wanna be without you."
(Mikey's POV)
Leo refused to eat supper again tonight even though he had no breakfast or lunch; how long was he going to keep this up. I don't understand what's happening one-minute everything's all fine and dandy then Leo's crying and then Raph tries to kill himself. How the hell am I supposed to cheer everyone up when my own brother tried to kill himself and the guy who loves him refuses to eat.
"Mikey are you alright?" Don asked, sitting down beside me.
"Well, I have a brother who refuses to eat because another brother tried to kill himself and I don't even know why Leo won't talk to Splinter or let him near Raph. Other than that though, I'm peachy." I growled, Don hugged me gently.
"Splinter found out that Leo and Raph were kissing so he told them to break up or he'd send Raphie away. Raphie said he would rather die than leave or break up with Leo, so when Sensei locked him in his room he wanted to kill himself for not being able to fight off Sensei and stay with Leo. Or at least that's why I think he tried to kill himself, it was the logical reason."
"So, it's all Daddy's fault just like Leo said if Raphie dies."
"Yeah, can't he see that he made a mistake and that maybe we should be allowed to fall in love with each other."
(Leo's POV)
"I'll sing for you Raphie," I stated, gently touching his face. "I miss you and I miss that smile, please don't leave me now cuz I've cried all the tears I can, why did try to leave, cuz I'm not going nowhere, no matter the distance or the way the path go's, if it leads to you, I'll be there, I'll be there."
Gently I traced his face, moving in I placed my beak rough against his; our lips touched, and I kissed him softly. A pit formed in my heart as he made no effort to kiss me back, was he ever going to wake up it's been three days. Gently I traced his muscular arms, they didn't try to pull me into his chest either, frowning I laid down and closed my eyes. I let myself drift to sleep my hand gripping his.