Standing alone- a staroline fanfiction
Summary:
Elena chose Damon, scared that Stefan might turn her into a ripper like himself, while training her to control her blood lust. Stefan is distraught and decides to take action and end his misery. But left his closest friend a note. Can she change his mind? Multi chapter Rated T for now but will become an M later
A/N: this story started actually started as a stelena story but after the note to Caroline I changed it to a staroline.
Enjoy.
(Stefan P.O.V)
Chapter 1:
He sat on a cold bench in the local park-he and Elena used to come here a lot when they were still together, when he was happy-no matter what he thought about to keep his mind off it, he couldn't. Elena had gathered him and Damon in the living room and delivered the news:
*FLASHBACK*
'Please, sit down' she gestured to us both. I tried to look her in the eye, but she refused to meet my gaze. She was looking at her feet and fidgeting nervously.
'So…..?' Damon was saying, but the words lacked there usual confidence and sarcasm 'you made the decision?' he said a bit quieter.
'Yes. I have.'
'And?'
'You. I chose you.' She said with her eyes still cast down
'Who?' Damon and I both said simultaneously, sounding more alike than ever.
'Damon' she said so quietly, that if I did not have my enhanced vampire hearing I wouldn't have heard her at all. I managed to hold back my tears, but I was temporarily (I hope) frozen. My brother was acting as if I had left the room and made his way to Elena and took her in a long kiss, it was odd though, she looked hesitant. Probably just my mind trying to ease the pain this was causing me. I finally regained the power of my legs, if nothing else, and ran as fast as I could to one of my favourite places. The special bench in the park.
*END OF FLACHBACK*
I was still crying, still pinning over something long lost. And certainly no longer mine anymore. Yet I couldn't bring myself to be mad at Damon if I was him right now I would be doing exactly what he was right now, loving, caring for and just being with Elena. He and his brother in love with the same girl. History repeating itself. Only this time the most beloved doppelganger didn't chose me.
I decided it was time to take action. Either live on this earth alone and worthless for the rest of eternity, or die now and save myself all of that pain. Ok, number two, easy peasy. Should I tell anyone?
I decided to leave a note for Caroline, his only friend at the moment. He vamp sped to her house and jumped through her window. She wasn't home probably because she was at the grill or something, so I grabbed some paper off of her dresser and wrote a quick note telling her what I was going to do:
Dear Caroline,
As you are my only current friend, and as I have to tell somebody, it shall be you. I have decided to end my pitiful excuse of a life, as it no longer has meaning. So, at sun rise I will be waiting by the creek, where I will take off my daylight ring and let the sun burn me to death. I only ask that you do not tell anyone what I have done until it is over. Thank you. Wish Elena and Damon a happy life for me.
Goodbye Caroline. Ill miss you.
Stefan x
After he finished writing he set the note carefully on her dresser for her to find later on. He wasn't lying when he said he would miss her. She was just like Lexi, so supportive and bubbly. He doesn't know what he would have done without her. When he was trying to get himself together so Elena and he could be together, she was the only one to keep faith in him and try to help him with the blood lust. She did it though he was back to drinking bunny blood. Yeah, she was just like Lexi.
Odd. That was probably the first time he had thought about anything but Elena in days.
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I had made it to the creek now but night had fallen and if i took his ring off now it wouldn't do anything, so I would have to wait until morning to carry out my plan.
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It was morning and I was still half asleep against a tree. I remembered why I was at the creek and then stood up and walked over to my backpack and pulled out the bottle of vervan water that I took everywhere as of late. I choose a sunny spot of grass and lay down on my back. Taking my bottle and chugging it all at once and feeling as if I was drinking battery acid, and simultaneously ripping my lapsis lazuli, daylight ring and exposing myself to the sunlight's UV rays. It burned like hell and felt like I was on fire - I might've been, I don't really care anymore – I hissed from the pain. Trying to be quiet and not draw attention to myself in case somebody was around.
Ok. Screw it. I screamed.
Then all of a sudden everything went black. Was I dead? I didn't feel dead.
I opened my eyes to look around but only saw black. After studying it closely I came to the conclusion that it was a blanket. So I wasn't dead. I felt someone touch my ring less ring hand, and place something on my middle finger. Putting my ring back on? But who? Not Elena. Defiantly not Damon.
'Caroline?' it was meant to sound threatening but came out as more of a cry. The black blanket was pulled from my burnt, but healing, body.
'Who else?' she said, she sounded a mixture of sad, angry and annoyed. She looked very beautiful from this angle, the sun shining a golden outline of her body and glowing through her wavy blond hair. When I didn't reply it looked like she was getting annoyed.
'Stefan Salvatore you answer me right this minute or so help me god I will ri-'
'Ok, ok calm down….. I take it you got the note?'
'Yes I got your note. How dare you do this to me? How dare you do this you? What were you thinking?'
By now I was propped up awkwardly on my elbows, and looking down ashamedly.
'What do you mean?' I asked sleepily and weakly.
'WHAT DO I MEA- you're too weak to argue, we WILL talk about this later, Stefan. Do not think you're off the hook.'
'Thanks' I muttered weakly
'Now I am going to take you home, you will go to sleep then when you wake up you will explain this' -she gestured to me and the empty vervain bottle- 'to me. Agreed?'
'Ummm' I murmured almost silently, exhausted
'Good, now let's get you back to the boarding house' her words woke me up a little.
'No, please, Please don't' I begged.
'What? Why not?… oh, yeah. Kay. My moms at work so you can come to my house.'
'Thank you' I croaked. I was almost completely healed now but I was still incredibly weak, and so, so tired. Guess that's what attempted suicide does to people-well vampires.
'Come on' she helped me to my feet and steadied me.
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When we got to her house I was practically dead on my feet. I stumbled inside and she led me to the spare bedroom and sat me down, took off my shoes and leather jacket. She lay me down and pulled the covers up to my chin. I felt like a little child. She disappeared off downstairs, repapering a few minutes later with a mug of heated up blood that she handed to me, I accepted it eagerly and drank it all
'Thanks Care.'
'Your welcome, Stef. Now, go to sleep. We can talk when you wake up.'
She walked to the door, turned the light off and then shut the door tightly.
Oh god. What was he going to tell her?
It doesn't really matter though because when (if) she lets me out of her sight again i will just try again. but for now I am just to tired to deal with it. For now I will go to sleep.
A/N: I'm sorry next chapter will be more staroliney, but the story line had to be built. So please don't give up on this story yet.
Pops x