First Time Feelings

Here is my new story First Times. It will contain a few chapters with important first times of Carlos and Logan. If you have some ideas for chapter review or PM me. I am open for suggestions. Enjoy it!

Carlos' POV

Do you know how it feels when you and your three best friends are living in L.A. being a popular boy band? Yeah, you're right. It feels great. And do you know how it feels when you're head over heels in love with your best buddy who is practically you're brother and who has an on-off-relationship with a girl? Feels not good, right? If you haven't figured it out yet: I am in love with my best friend for 13 years and roommate Logan Mitchell.

The day I first noticed my feelings was in our first month in Los Angeles. Surprisingly Gustavo gave us a day off, because he had to adjust one of our songs for the demo track. I sat alone in our apartment. I was bored and hungry so I decided to get some corndogs from the stand in the Palmwoods Park. When I was on my way back I walked through the lobby chewing satisfied on a corndog and then I saw him. Logan climbed out of the pool, the water running down his body, his white skin shining in the sun and water drops fell down from his raven hair. I saw him and immediately my body reacted. Well not my whole body, my lower regions reacted, if you know what I mean. Logan saw me as well. He grabbed a towel and came to me. My heart skipped a beat when he smirked at me.

»Hey, Litos. «

»H-hi, Logan. «

»Are you going upstairs? «

I nodded.

»I am coming with you. Wanna watch a movie? «

I nodded.

We walked to the elevator. Logan was a few steps ahead and he rubbed his hair dry. And I- well I was busy with staring at his butt. His wet swim trunks were tight-fitting so I had a really good view and little Carlos enjoyed it a well. In the apartment Logan got dressed, while I was in the bathroom getting rid of little Carlos who still was excited because of Logan. When I finished I sat don on the orange couch next to Logan.

»Are you okay, Litos? «

»Y-yeah. Why? «

»You spent a really long time in the bathroom. «

I blushed.

»Did you pick out a movie, yet? «, I asked changing the subject.

Logan nodded.

»I picked Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, 'cause you like it so much. «

I smiled.

»That's true. «

We started the movie, but I didn't pay attention. I thought about Logan. I always knew I am bi, because back in school I was physical attracted to guys and I told everyone that I am bi. My family as well as my three brothers James, Kendall and Logan was really supportive. That didn't bother me. It bothered me that I was attracted to Logan. First, because he was my brother. I shouldn't get a boner, because of my brother. Second, because I did not just reacted physically. When I saw Logan I felt like butterflies are dancing rumba in my stomach.

'No I haven't a crush on Logie. It can't be. '

After a few minutes I heard him laugh his angelic, beautiful laugh and in this moment I knew I fell for him.

The next days I wasn't really comfortable around Logan. I had never a problem with me being bi, but I wasn't sure how to act when Logan was there. I didn't want to ruin our friendship.

I always needed someone to talk when I had problems. So after a month when I couldn't bear it anymore I talked to James. Normally I would go and talk with Logan when something is bothering me, but I figured it out it wouldn't be the best decision in this case. I also talked to Kendall. Surprisingly both of them weren't surprised.

»I know Carlos. I've seen the way you look at him. «, James said.

~First Time~

A year later I had still my crush. In fact my feelings for Logan had deepened. Every time I saw him with Camille being a happy couple or every time I saw them making out I felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest. I tried to hate Camille, but I couldn't. I was never good at hating someone. And Camille was such a wonderful, nice person plus she made Logan happy.

One day I had one of our usual talks about my feelings with James.

»James, I don't think I can handle it anymore. Every time when I see Logan I want to hug him and kiss him. «

James sighed.

»I know. «

»What should I do? Please help me Jamie! «, I whined.

»You have a crush on our little Logie-nerd? Okay. Then make a move and ask him out. «

»Don't be so mean! Don't call him nerd! «

James sighed again.

»I am sorry Carlos. I just don't like it when you are unhappy. And I have to admit I am a little bit annoyed. I mean one year and you haven't done anything yet. «

»I am afraid that he will hate me. «

»He won't. Logan could never hate you. «

I thought about it a moment.

»You know what? I will ask Logan out when he and Camille break up the next time. Then I have some time to prepare me for that. «

Later that day I walked in the bedroom I was sharing with Logan. He was sitting on his bed reading. But I could see that something was bothering him.

»What's wrong, Logie? «

»Camille and I broke up. «

I froze. That was earlier than I expected. I wasn't ready to make a move, yet.

»I am sorry, Logie. «

»You don't have to. I broke up with her. «

»Why? «

He looked at me.

»I like someone else. «

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