A/N Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight and I never will it belongs to Stephenie Meyer.
This is my first fanfic ever but don't go easy on me in reviews that is if anyone bothers to read this tough. This idea came to me a half hour ago so here I am 12 am writing a fanfic I hope you like it. HAPPY READING
Dear Dairy,
He's gone, he just left me and after all that we've been through, I just don't know what to do anymore. We were growing apart; I know that- I really do I guess it started when he stopped talking to me when they all stopped not even spearing me a glance- well except Alice every once in a while she'd look at me with wide eyes and a sad smile full of what? Pity maybe, but I didn't understand why she would feel sorry for me there wasn't anything wrong.
I didn't expect this, together forever, I was banking on that, Edward and I, what we had was special almost magical, pure bliss, something so incredibly amazing that words couldn't even begin to explain its depth of our overwhelming passion.
Thinking back at that, was it my fault, did I do something wrong? Could it be because I'm human, plain little Bella shy all and awkward. Yes ordinary AVERAGE Isabella. Wasn't this to be expected diary? Why would a being as marvelous and so exceedingly brilliant want with a Plain Jane. The answer, nothing. He must have realized that, that has to be why he left. There can't be another reason.
What really got me was when he said it; the words that made my heart break into a million tiny pieces: I don't want you anymore. Thanks Ed, you really know how to make a girl feel special! But this is no time for joking! I gave him my heart and soul all on a silver platter and he just left so easily, so quickly…. In the forest…alone…with no clue how to get back. Dammit I'm doing it again.
That's just it though; they all left without saying goodbye even Alice, my best friend. Was that why she looked at me with pity; because she knew? But why didn't she say anything or help me make things better.
Maybe that's not the reason, yeah she knew but maybe she wanted it maybe she agreed with Rosalie that a human with their Edward jus was not right.
I don't know exactly what it is but if there's one thing I'm sure about it's that I love you Edward with my every being and I will wait for you forever if I have to. I'm yours, ALWAYS.
Sincerely,
Isabella Marie Swan
THIS is basically the first thing that ran through Isabella's mind before she became a emotionally wreck. In the fanfic Bells is gonna go
down memory lane in some of her diary entries and most likely i;m going to finish it at the end of New Moon but with a DIFFERENT ENDING!