Oh what a night! The lights, music, singing, dancing, spinning, twirling, danger, excitement, passion and more importantly love. Every Jellicle gets swept up in the heat of the moment of these balls. We all feel the intense rush of emotion that fills every inch of our bodies as we dance by the light of the Jellicle moon. Even as I sit in the background and watch the others and their joy and love, I feel the emotion too. Perhaps not as intensely, but I feel it.
Sometimes I feel I should not have come to the Jellicles. I am one of course, as is my cousin Cassandra, but for some reason, I've never been noticed. Some people or cats rather would be worried that I'm being left out of all the action, but you know, I've realised now that I like it. It's not too bad. I never really felt comfortable with them all anyway. Well, some of them feel comfortable with. I feel particularly comfortable with Miss Jennyanydots. She's such a funny creature and makes me feel at home.
"You're looking thin!" She says to me every time she sees me.
"Only because my fur is black, it's a slimming colour you know." I always reply.
"Well, I might just have to paint myself black. Perhaps I can lose a few pounds!" She laughs and rubs cheeks with me.
Apart from Cassandra she's the only one who rubs cheeks with me. Apart from Cassandra when she greets me. But that's it. I don't like it that much. I'm not the kind of queen who gets close to people easily. But Miss Jenny is always so nice. She lives near me too and sometimes brings mice or some cat food biscuits. In return I look after her mice and cockroaches when she goes away with her mate Skimbleshanks on the train.
This Ball was so different to all the others. No, I didn't dance that much, but I sung more than I have sung before and I was noticed. Not by Tugger or Bombalurina. I don't care about them. I don't get why the Rum Tum Tugger is such an idol for the rest of the tribe. Don't they see he's a self absorbed git who loves his reflection and the attention that is lavished on him. Heaven forbid his mane get out of place! Now that would be a true tragedy. I would like to take my claw and puncture is abnormally large ego. That would be fun. And Bombalurina, well she is gorgeous even I will admit, but, she's absorbed in herself too. Honestly I don't know how Demeter puts up with her. But I was noticed. My singing was noticed. No one would ever guess by though because he's not noticed so much either, so I'll just say.
Coricopat.
It's strange how even I had never noticed him. My eyes are always drawn to Admetus or Mungojerrie. Not your usual toms I guess, but they have something different about him. Mungojerrie is roguish and daring and Admetus is kind and caring. Funny how that rhymes isn't it? But anyway, although I had never noticed Coricopat before, it seems that he had noticed me. Why? I don't know. But I'm glad he did. It made me feel somewhat special. Although I played it cool and collected and slightly hard to get with him but inside I was squirming with anticipation. Now that I got a good look at him, he was quite cute, in a mysterious kind of way.
However it's no use pining over a tom anymore I have found. I see them once a year so what's the point? I know I shouldn't say that, and my body clock is running out. Oh, who am I kidding? I'm likely to continue pining over a tom until the day I got to the Heaviside layer. Depressing thought, even for me.
I suppose I could live in hope. A bit of romance would be nice. I think I could even take the first step towards changing my destiny.
But I'll take a nap first!