Summary-Four years ago Axel Sinclair came home to see his boyfriend Roxas in bed with Namine. Heartbroken he left his home and friends to start a new life. Four years after he left Axel comes home only to learn that Roxas is still in love with him. Can the blond singer win back his ex-lover or has he lost Axel to the warm heart of Demyx Aquaria? Maybe with a little help from a purple haired schemer Roxas may have a chance to win Axel back.
Chapter One
No Longer Dreaming
Of all the days he wanted Roxas to make an effort to be on time it was their anniversary. Axel Sinclair scowled as he checked his watch for the sixth time that evening as he silently wished for his boyfriend to turn up. Axel had made Roxas promise to turn up at the Liquid Mirage restaurant for their fourth year anniversary.
The red head had been sitting here for over an hour, always telling himself that Roxas was just a little late from recording a new song. Roxas Leonhart was a popular singer and his fans were demanding more from the little blond artist. Axel was happy for his lover, he really was, but he wished that Roxas would take just one night off to be with him. He could've at least made an effort on their anniversary.
Finally Axel admitted that Roxas had forgotten and, deciding that he had been humiliated enough for one night, the red head left. Once outside he pulled out his cell phone and dialled Sora's number. He had tried phoning Roxas but his cell had been switched off. Once Sora picked up Axel questioned him about Roxas but the brunet said that he hadn't seen his twin all night. Frowning Axel walked to his car with a heavy heart.
He loved Roxas more than anything in this shitty world but it seemed like the blond just took him for granted these days. Four years ago when he met the beautiful blond Axel had experienced that talked about sensation of love at first sight. He had always scoffed at the notion of falling in love with a single glance but after staring into those baby blues one time he had lost his heart.
For the first two years of their relationship Roxas had devoted his time to being with Axel. They went to the movies, hung out with their friends, went to the beach and had fun on their dates. Axel had been overjoyed when someone from Silver Stone Records had signed Roxas to the label. Axel knew how much his lover wanted to sing and he had supported him all this time.
But lately Roxas had been working later than usual and he had blown Axel off on their last few dates. This was the final straw for the red head. He needed to know where this relationship stood with Roxas. He needed to know if he still had his lover. Choking back a sob Axel got into his car and started the engine.
He sped home, his heart hammering as he got closer to the house they shared. He thought about calling Riku and asking for advice but he would bet that his best friend was currently fucking Sora into next year. He was happy for Riku. Before meeting Sora the silver haired teen was always involved in the unhealthiest relationships.
When his last boyfriend put him in the hospital with a skull fraction, broken ribs and a fractured wrist Axel had had enough. A year after that Riku met Sora through Axel and the two had hit it off. They had been together almost as long as Axel and Roxas. Sora had helped to cure the wounds in Riku's heart and for that Axel owed him so much.
"Dammit Roxas..." Axel frowned as he pulled into the driveway. He could see the light shining through the curtains.
So his lover was home after all. Axel got out of the car and patted the box in his jacket pocket. He had missed his chance to do this at Liquid Mirage but maybe he could summon up the courage to ask Roxas here. Taking a deep breath the red head used his key to unlock the door and he entered the warm house.
He could hear romantic music playing softly and when he entered the kitchen he saw a table laid out with candles, wine and the remains of food on two plates. He suddenly got a sick feeling in the pit of his stomach. Shaking his head Axel tried to rationalise this. Roxas had been waiting for him and he got hungry, ate the dinner and went to bed. That had to be the explanation right?
He felt his blood run cold when he heard a thumping sound coming from upstairs. Swallowing the lump that had clogged up his throat Axel went slowly up the stairs and stopped when he reached the second floor landing. He heard another thump followed by a moan.
His brain was screaming at him about what was behind the door to his and Roxas' bedroom but his heart flat out refused to believe it. There had to be a proper explanation for all this. Axel swallowed the bile in his throat when he reached the bedroom door and slowly pushed it open. What he saw shattered his heart into a million glass shards. There was Roxas on their bed and he was fucking Namine from behind.
The blond girl was on her hands and knees and she was now moaning Roxas' name as he pulled her long hair with one hand. The singer gasped out her name in utter ecstasy as he reached orgasm inside her. They collapsed onto the bed and Roxas pulled out of the girl who happened to be Axel's sister. She turned over in Roxas' arms and smiled as he gently kissed her. Axel wanted to scream. He wanted to tear his eyes away but he just couldn't. When Roxas pulled Namine onto his chest he began to stroke her golden hair and kiss the top of her head. She was drawing patterns on his sweaty chest just like Axel used to do.
"Roxas...you know I love you right?" Namine whispered. Axel felt his heart shatter.
"I love you too." Roxas said with such tenderness. Axel felt his heart die.
"But when are you going to tell Axel? You've blown him off a few times now." Namine murmured. "Didn't you have that date with him tonight?"
"Yeah but he'll be fine. He'll be upset that I forgot it but he won't be back till midnight. He always goes to the office to do some late night work when I miss a date." Roxas said.
"But you will tell him about us right? We've been together for a year Roxas. I don't wanna hide anymore." Namine pouted.
"I know. I'll tell him Namine I promise." Roxas whispered softly.
"I know he's my brother but I still feel bad Roxas." The blond girl titled her head up.
"You shouldn't. I just don't feel what I once did for him." Roxas shrugged. Axel felt hot tears coursing down his cheeks at the words. His whole world was falling to pieces around him.
"It'll break his heart. He loves you." Namine sighed.
"He'll move on. Axel's always been strong." Roxas replied with finality.
"And I'll have you all to myself." Namine grinned as she leaned up and kissed him again.
Axel backed away from the door, one hand clutching his chest as he struggled to breathe. Roxas and Namine were together, they were having an affair. Roxas was in love with Namine. They had been fucking each other for a year. Axel turned and slumped down the stairs to the front door.
He felt like he was trapped in his own body as it moved on its own accord. He was having a nightmare. He was just getting jitters from asking Roxas that question that was all. He would wake up any minutes now. His feet took him out of the house and towards the car. He hadn't noticed when he dropped the diamond engagement ring outside the bedroom.
Axel drove but his mind was a blank. He had no idea where to go and the other thing he could understand was that Roxas and his sister had been seeing each other for a year. His lover didn't care about him anymore. His fucking heart had just been taken out of his chest and shredded apart.
He pressed his foot down onto the gas and the car sped onwards towards is final destination. This was a nightmare, Axel was sure of it. Roxas still loved him. Hr said he loved him this afternoon. That couldn't have been a lie. It just couldn't be a lie. Axel felt his head aching and his throat was raw from the crying. He couldn't see very well because of the tears that would not stop.
His car stopped outside a small house. The lights were on. Axel stepped out of his car and walked to the front door. He felt out of place with everything. All he could see were Roxas and Namine in the bed, making love and whispering words that Axel had not heard from Roxas for a long time.
Now that he thought about it he and Roxas had not made love in a while but Axel always blamed Roxas' busy schedule. The little blond only ever said I love you after Axel said it first. Even when Roxas did say it his eyes held no warmth or that sparkle. The red head felt even more pieces of his heart break apart. He raised his hand and knocked on the door.
"Axel?" Squall Leonhart asked when he opened the door to the house he shared with his husband Cloud.
"Axel, what's wrong?" Cloud asked when he came to the door.
"Roxas..." Axel said hoarsely.
"What about Roxas? Did something happen to him Axel?" Squall questioned with an icy tone.
"He...Roxas...he." Axel tried to speak.
"What happened Axel?" Cloud asked.
"HE'S FUCKING MY SISTER!!!" the red head screamed. The last things he saw were Cloud's and Squall's shocked faces before he passed out.
Atlantica City
Four Years Later
Axel bolted up in bed, sweat dripped from his shaking body as his heart hammered relentlessly in his rib cage. He had been having these dreams lately, memories of the night he left Radiant Garden after learning that his boyfriend was screwing his sister. After waking up in Squall's home he had explained to the stoic brunet about finding Roxas and Namine together.
At first Squall denied it because Roxas was still his little brother. It had taken Cloud two hours to get Axel to stop crying and screaming. When he was done he told Cloud that he was going to leave to clear his head. When he left the city he never came back. Axel sighed as he sat up in the bed. He still kept in touch with Squall and the others.
He had told Riku and Sora over the phone about Roxas. Sora had been devastated while Riku screamed that he would kill the blond bastard. It took a lot of persuasion but the silver haired teen promised to leave Roxas alone. Riku and Sora had gotten married two years ago. Axel couldn't come to the wedding though, it was just far too painful to be within a hundred miles of Roxas. Sora and Riku understood and they sent the red head pictures of the ceremony. Axel was shaken from his thoughts by a whisper of his name from the beautiful boy beside him.
"Baby, are you ok?" Demyx asked softly.
"Yeah...I'm fine Demy. Go back to sleep." Axel smiled at the blond.
"Don't lie. You've had another dream again." Demyx sat up. He wrapped his arms around Axel's thin waist.
"It's nothing..." the red head waved off his lover. Demyx wouldn't buy it though.
"You know I worry about you." Demyx whispered as he licked the shell of Axel's ear.
"I know." He sighed then he turned around to face the blond. "If it weren't for you I'd be dead by now."
"Don't say things like that." Demyx murmured. "I told you we don't have to go to Radiant Garden. My manager only wants me to promote my songs there."
"I've gotta go back someday." Axel replied. "Don't change your plans Demy."
"I don't want to see you go through that again baby." Demyx kissed the red head softly.
"I'll be ok Demyx. Besides I miss my friends." Axel smiled.
"Ok but if you don't wanna be there anymore..." Demyx glanced into bright green eyes.
"Come on, let's go back to sleep." Axel pulled Demyx against his chest and the blond snuggled against his boyfriend.
"You know I love you right Axel?" Demyx whispered.
"I know. You saved me Demy. I owe you my life. Go to sleep." Axel whispered gently and after a few moments the blond was asleep. "I wish I could say I love you too."
Axel wanted to open his heart fully to the beautiful boy that had healed him. He wanted to love Demyx but there was a part of him that still loved Roxas.
And he hated that he still felt that way for the boy who broke his heart four years ago.