"Love is acceptance. When you love someone you take them into your heart, and that is surely why it hurts so much when we lose someone we love, because we lose a part of ourselves." ~Unknown

Chapter 1 -"when love dies"-

"It will be all right Edward" Alice reassured me, but I couldn't hear her words. I tried to think of bella and how much I love her, and how much it would hurt her if I broke up with her. Not just break up, but divorce her.

We have been married 40 years, not only that, but we had a child. I turned her into a vampire to save her from death, of having that child. We love each other, I would do anything for her, she would do anything for me, and we told each other everything. Well, all but one thing and when I say thing, I mean a girl. A girl I was absolute in love with who died a year before I even became a vampire myself.

Anna was perfection, she had beautiful, long flowing blonde hair to her lower back and darkest blue eyes you have ever seen. In our neighborhood, everyone new each other, most even, were related, through marriage. There was two main families, Fairaway and the James. My family, though would come in a close third.

She was in an arrange marriage with the eldest son of the James at 16. She was a twin, but her being the eldest, she had no choice. Me, being the friend that I was, at that time, stood by her and watched the pain, fully clear in her ocean eyes. I couldn't bare it, it broke my heart. Not only was the one I loved, not marring me, but I had to stand and watch her stuffer.

But then the day came. My dad and I where in the pallor at the Fairaway household, when we heard a commotion upstairs. I was always in tuned to Anna and I knew this one commotion was centered around her. I ran up the stairs, living my dad behind me confused. I ran to her room, but I stopped short of her door, I heard voices asking 'anna, sweetheart, are you all right?' and 'what should we do?, should we take her to the infirmary?' That did it, I opened the door to find her, her mom, and her maids in the bathroom. As I moved to come closer, I noticed what all the commotion was about. Anna was at the sink, hand on her mouth, but I could clearly see the blood.

A week later she was diagnosed with a rare heart condition. The doctors didn't expect her to make it to her seventeenth birthday, let alone even a month. I barely saw her anymore, she was constantly supervised and never did she leave her room. There was no treatment, just pain killers, but they seemed to make it worse. At least that's what her mom told me.

Two weeks had past and I needed to see her, one last time. Every one I talked to about her, said she was only getting worse. Even to the point of them saying 'I don't think she'll make it tell morning.' I stood in the backyard of her house, looking up, surprised to see the lights off in her room. It seemed like everyday I came to see her, god was putting us apart, with people with her in her room, that I knew would banish me away. I scaled the back of her house to her balcony, but what I saw when I opened the french doors, stopped my heart.

In the moonlight I could clearly see her usually so full of color, pale face, and instead of a peaceful expression on her sleeping face, she had a pained expression. I saw the raged up and down motion, of her breathing and I truly understood why every time I talked to someone about her they would get a far away look in their eyes. I looked away from her pained figure and surveyed her room, it held furniture, but her usual clutter filled room was no more. Now, it was almost completely empty, except for medicine bottles on her vanity and flowers in vases on her dressers. What surprised me most, was the absents of the pictures, I so clearly remember to have been in her room. She loved her family, she loved having them next to her as she slept, but no where did I see one picture.

It dawned on me, fast and unstoppable, they were giving up on her. I realized how must she feel having to watch them take out all she had precious to her heart. A voice startled me "Its just material objects" she said. I turned, and her blue eyes, I come to know so well, looked back at me. She was always attuned to me, as well. "Yes" I said and I wondered if she heard me. "Why didn't you come sooner?" she asked her voice weak. "They wouldn't allow me to" I answered. She nodded once. "Im going to miss you Edward" she said and closed her eyes. Me, thinking she was merely was tired and going to sleep, didn't really register the thought of those were her finally words in tell the next day she was pronounced died.

Now, almost a hundred and fifty years latter, I was coming back to the place where so many memories existed. Behind me on the plane I heard Nessie asked bella if I was alright, she answered with something Nessie already knew, that I grew up in the place we were now landing. "Don't worry Edward, everything is going to be alright." Alice said once again, but she, nor did anyone else knew about Anna and me and what happened weeks before she was diagnosed. Something that would tear my family apart.

I knew it was wrong, she was engaged for crying out loud, but even though it was against the way I was raised, they gave us no choice! I loved her and even tell this day, half of me still belong to her, but I would never tell bella that, nor will she ever know of Anna or the night I gave into Anna completely.

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