JUSTUFF: Hey everyone! Zazeendot here.

I've been really itching to write ever since I've been starting to care more and getting back on the right track with people, myself, my feelings and my life, and I came up with a great idea for Seddie! I was going to wait for Valentine's Day, but I finished the chapter and I'm impatient, so let's jump right in!

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Disclaimer: I do not claim right to iCarly. Or Nickelodeon. Or Cupid.

Sam's POV

I woke up to see my clock read 1:30. I groggily pushed my covers off of me to be blinded by the strips of light coming through my window. I instinctively close my eyes shut and try to find the off button without my sight. After I do, I sit up, rub my eyes, and force myself to try to adjust them to the light.

As I start to wake up, I remember what day it was and immediately let my body flop back on to my bed with a groan.

Today was Saturday, which meant that today was iCarly. The show was usually what I looked forward to doing, but I wasn't particularly anxious today, and I had a good reason: it was Valentine's Day. I had given in to Carly's wish to do a Valentine's Day-themed episode, complete with a Gibby-filled diaper and some cheesy heart-shaped decorations.

Ugh.

I hated Valentine's Day. It was one of those days designed to celebrate the couples and highlight the singles. It was one of those days that encouraged couples to be all mushy in front of me and single me out when I wasn't carrying a gigantic bear or something.

Carly, however, was all for the holiday, especially this year: she had a boyfriend.

Lucas Weaver was an old friend of ours who'd moved away suddenly, before either of us really got a chance to say bye. Recently, he'd moved back to Seattle and reconnected with Carly, and they'd been inseparable ever since.

I pulled myself back up and pushed myself out of my bed, knowing I had to get ready to go over to Carly's apartment because rehearsal was at 2. I yawned one more time and took a deep breath, trying to brace myself for the day to come.

I made it past Lewbert without him yelling at me to not track rain into his building because he had been too busy yelling at the lady who'd been unfortunate enough to get there before me.

I had to admit: it was kind of refreshing. I'd only walked 3 blocks, but yet had seen around 5 sickeningly sweet couples walk by me already and pretend not to notice my empty hands.

I walked into Carly's apartment, and was bombarded with red and pink balloons, cookies, you name it. Sure enough Lucas was there, laughing with her on the couch, his arm around her.

"Hi Sam!" She exclaimed, practically jumping off the couch giving me a hug.

Well…someone was in a good mood.

"Hey, you're coming to the party tonight, right?"

"Uh…" I hesitated.

Carly rolled her eyes. "Come on, it'll be fun! A lot of people are coming…a lot of FOOD is coming…"

Lucas added, "Yeah. You'll be missing out."

"I don't think I'm up to it."

Carly looked me up and down. "You know, Freddie told me you seemed off, but I told him that he was just looking too deep into something and that you were alright…was I wrong?"

"No." I replied, a little too quickly.

Carly eyed me suspiciously and asked, "So you'll come?"

And I knew then that my answer is her determining factor as to whether I was lying or not.

I rolled my eyes before looking back up at her and sighed. "You promise there won't just be couples?"

"Of course not! It's a party like any other party we have, it's not like we had an exclusive couples requirement on the invitations."

"OK, OK." I finally agreed. Usually, I wouldn't have given in. But I needed to prove something to Freddie, myself, and now to Carly…

I. WAS. ALRIGHT.

"Cool." She replied. Then, she seemed to remember something. She showed me her wrist enthusiastically. "Look at what Lucas got me!"

I looked at the beautiful diamond-covered bracelet on her wrist, and, though it'd probably shock others at how expensive it seemed, it didn't shock me. Lucas has been loaded for as far back as I could remember. "It's really nice."

"I know!" Carly squealed, and he came over and picked her up bridal style.

"Only the best for you." He said, as she cuddled up against his chest. I immediately stood there feeling awkward. I think Carly noticed, so she motioned for him to put her down. "Oh, by the way," she said, landing, "I know that since the whole Jonah thing we've kind of promised to never let guys we date watch us rehearse or do the show, but I don't want to send him away, especially on a day like…"

I knew what she was getting at. "I get it, Carls. It's OK with me."

She grinned, and looked up at Lucas with loving eyes. I'd never seen her so head over heels before, and, even though it was irritating, it almost made me smile.

Almost.

"Hey, guys," Freddie walked in, and shut the door. He shut the door, and his expression fell when he noticed Lucas.

"Hey, Lucas." He said, plastering on a smile.

Freddie and I shared awkward eye contact before looking away quickly without a word. It was still awkward because of what happened yesterday.

Fine. His voice repeated that word in my head over and over last night, keeping me up so late that I woke up to my alarm clock reading 1:30. My heart beat a little faster, remembering. With each pulse, a little bit of hurt was sent throughout me. The way he said it is what really stuck, and painfully so. Because the way he said it made me afraid that he had truly given up on me.

And THAT made me afraid, because I've had so many people give up on me before, so it shouldn't matter if he did…but it did.

I felt trapped and suffocated, awkwardness all around me. Carly, Lucas…

Freddie…

I looked back up at Lucas and Carly, being sure to not even catch a glimpse at Freddie. "Well, um, let's rehearse!" I exclaimed, already starting up the stairs. I wanted to get out of all of it and wished for us to just be able focus on having a great show that night.

SAYING OF THE CHAPTER: Forever alone ha ha! :D

So, that's it! Please tell me what you think so far!

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