Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I do not own Supernatural TT
After all this time he still missed her. He missed her laugh and the way she would look at him as if to tell him that everything would be alright. He could still vividly remember the way she would look up at him while she carried little Sammy and when she used to sing lullabies to Dean.
Then those other memories would come along and taunt him. He didn't think anything could ruin this perfect life that he shared with the love of his life. He painfully recalled those memories as if they had just happened yesterday. The way her face was frozen in a terrified expression, the way her eyes looked at him accusingly. He had tried to save her, but in the end all that was left of his perfect life were his two sons.
He knows how she would react if she were to see what he has converted their sons into, and it pains him greatly. Hopefully, someday she will be able to understand and forgive him. For now, all he can do is live the best he can with the choices he's made, and try to push all of those memories aside.
I hope that wasn't too awful, this is my first fanfic, so please be nice- I'll take any reviews good or bad! (Hopefully Good )