I stared into his eyes and he stared into mine. It felt like we were the only ones standing there in the dark, cold forest. But I know we weren't. I knew that my school, my home, my sisterhood was only a mile or so away.
He sighed and put his hands deep in his jacket pockets, his gaze never wavering. I wanted to reach out. To touch his arm but I didn't dare, because he seemed on guard. Like he was going to get attacked any minute. So I just stood there, hands clasped together to keep them warm.
He shifted his weight and I knew that he was about to talk. He was going to explain why he had me out here in the cold whilst my friends sat in the warm dining hall.
His gaze went to the floor but I just kept looking at him. He seemed to compose himself as he looked back up. No emotion was on his face.
"I know your feelings, Gallagher girl." He as if it was a fact and he were just reading from a textbook. "I kissed you. But that doesn't mean anything. You're just another person on another mission"
I felt sick. I felt like someone had just punched my gut with all their might. My body language never portrayed that though. Zach just stood there watching me. What he would have seen was my mouth open slightly and blink, slowly. I must not have moved for a while because he just turned and walked away.
I felt numb. I knew that because I would have noticed the snow falling around me.
~XxX~
I didn't pay attention in class. I didn't pay attention to my friends. I didn't pay attention to anything. As much as I tried to forget it, I couldn't. It was too hard. When my mind did get distracted it always wondered back to Zach. My heart ached every time.
For a Gallagher girl this was not acceptable
For a spy this was dangerous.
For a girl this was much worse.
I didn't like this. This feeling. I didn't want it. I wanted to be anything but me right now. I hadn't cried. I hadn't spoken. I hadn't done anything.
~XxX~
Christmas came around the school quickly. That's what everyone was saying anyway. I didn't really notice. I didn't really care. I was sat in our room staring out the window at nothing in particular. Perhaps the snow falling.
"Cam," my best friend said. "We had mail today. This came for you." Bex placed the small box on top off a blanket that covered my lap. I didn't look at her but I knew she left the room after that. My friends had insisted that they stay with me in the mansion over the Christmas period when they knew that I wasn't leaving. I loved my friend really, I did. But these days I didn't have the heart to talk.
After a while I noticed that I had been tapping the box gently with my index finger. I looked at it. The box was small, square, wrapped in white paper with my name written on it. I felt under the box to undo the paper and felt the leather box. A jeweller's box. I wanted to open it but I had a feeling who I knew it was off. The Z on the back on the paper didn't help that fact either. So I placed it on the table, tucked myself in under my covers and fell asleep. And for the first time for what felt like forever I had a pleasant dream.
Authors note: Thank you for reading this is my first Gallagher girls fan fiction. I know it's short. I know it sad but I wanted to do it like that. But I don't know if I should continue or just leave it as a one-shot as it is. Tell me in a review please? (Wow… that sounds greedy... sorry ^_^)