Look over here

Sometimes, he would just do as if he wasn't there, in front of him. Oh, yes. He didn't know exactly why he did that. But that really upset him. Yes, when it happened, he just wanted to... he just wanted... He didn't know what he wanted to do. But that was something approaching either "slap him in the face" or "kick him in the nuts". Or even "tackle him against a wall and kiss him until both of them can't breathe any more". But that was out of question, and it embarrassed him a lot anyway.

What nobody knew was, that every time he deigned to glance at him, he just melted. He melted, and he felt stronger at the same time. And when he wasn't by his side, he felt like a lost puppy, or something in that way. He just needed him to feel alive. He needed him to feel complete. Because, without him, he just felt he was nothing.

So, when he ignored him, it just destroyed him.

He sighed as he looked at him, far away from everyone. Drinking his usual coffee. Smoking his usual cigarette. Look at me. Look over here. Just glance at me. Because when you do as I didn't exist, it hurts so bad. But you'll never know, do you.

So he told himself, if he didn't look at him in the next seconds, he hated him. And if he glanced at him... Then, it meant that he actually liked him. He held his breath for a few second, staring at him.

And then, he lifted his head as he breathed out some smoke. And he actually looked at him for a long time, nearly stared at him. Maybe he was just wondering he was staring at him like that. Maybe he was just wondering why his smile suddenly became so wide. Maybe he was wondering why he got up, and coming over him.

Gareth walked towards Rob, and rubbed gently his hand on his neck. Rob shivered lightly. But he shivered more heavily when Gareth kissed him quickly, but tenderly, on his cheek. And then, he just went away. Rob turned back to him, with a puzzled, and slightly amused, face.

- That was the gayest thing you ever did to me!

Gareth turned round, with that same wide smile he had.

- I know right.

And then, he just went away. Leaving him alone with himself.

- What was that...