Whom do i really love?
Prologue: The third floor
When he covered her body with kisses, she felt once more a feeling of freeing. This sensation for which she had longed already so long and by which she can be made happy now already for over 4 weeks. He was so different. His hair smelled always heavenly and his hands were incredibly soft. His eyes shone from wonderful, hazel color and were reflected softly in the light of the candles. His athletic body slowly slipped down in her and gave her a feeling of excitement.
She had thought from the outset that it had been a unique gaffe, however, this "gaffe" lately unusually often piled up. She enjoyed it profoundly with him to be. It gave her to become the feeling another person. And this became they actual. In his nearness it was exchanged like. She was not the dutiful wife and mother who always tried hard to make everything right, no, with him she felt sure and unfathomable strong and this made them drop themselves completely.
He simply gave to her everything what she did not have, otherwise. The time with him was so intensive, releasing thus. She could dedicate herself to him completely, as well as in this chill evening 3rd November. The open fire burned and, in addition, several candles spread a pleasant atmosphere. At the moments at which he caressed her her thighs tender-feeling to upper thighs it was as if tickled, ants about her skin run and her softly. This broken out her desire the more.
„ I love you about everything. ", he groaned. Suddenly the nice moments were extinguished and she became unsafe. These words released such pangs of conscience in her which it could not suppress.
„ Now I must go – go ", she stuttered and escaped from his hard clutch. Quick she caught her red cashmere coat and ran from his apartment. It lay on the third floor and thus she started sweating again easily when she had reached her car, in the end.
What have I only done there? Over and over again the same feelings of guilt came up in her. They left her alone no free minute. Strictly speaking they were entitled. What did she imagine only, besides? She was married. And exactly this was the point – she did not think. It was done by her feelings suppressed for years which they made her family endlessly be disappointing and cheat her husband with whom she was happy for over 2 years. From she would never expect something bad person. Indeed in the beginning anticipated that he was deceived. And idly had to watch. Over and over again she caught the same thought: This must have an end as fast as possible!
However, it did not go. She loved both about everything, her man and her lover. And she could renounce none of both.
Her man gave to her what she had always wished: infinite love to her, a house, a family and nice conversations and discussions which she had incredibly come to appreciate. Really they were also not virgin, however, her lover gave her something new, undiscovered, something mysterious which she irritated so much in him.
With him she had every time unbelievable fun, he knew to maintain it simply them every time anew. Both – her husband and lover carried her on hands and spoiled her after line and thread, nevertheless, she used them cold-hearted. The favour of two men given the impression to her to be something special, even if she exactly knew that she was this also. She was always liked the princess on the pea and with all. Her whole life long. However, it made her so happy to can be with both. Still she knew that it was in the time to decide, even if it is so hard, as nothing fell before it...