Thinking of you and all the things I had to say
Your face comes to mind and all the memories I've tried to keep at bay
Come crashing down
Trying not to drawn
But when I surface your everywhere
Your face is always there
Looming in the darkest corner of my mind where I've tried to keep you hidden
I've banished every memory and made it forbidden
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
Trying to get out of this endless black pit of misery
Trying to get this pain to set me free
Maybe if I smile it'll be come real
Maybe if I laugh it'll hide what I truly feel
It all seemed so perfect
I guess I just wasn't worth it
Time goes by and I'm still stuck in this moment of wanting you here
Trying to breathe through my tears
Will this pain get better in time?
Or will you always be waiting in my subconscious mind?
I'm tired of feeling suffocated
Now I just feel plain jaded
Louder the voices in my head
Whispers taunting me with all the things you said
Trapped in a world of my own making
As I grasp the fact that you were only faking
Part of me still believes we can find a way to work through this
The other part knows it was only momentary bliss
I cringe as I see you coming closer with those taunting eyes
I hate that a part of me still believes your lies
You broke my heart what more can I say
I close my eyes tight and will it all away
I scream at the top of my lungs hoping it will stop the pain
My eyes flutter open as I realize I was dreaming again
I try to stop my heart from beating so fast
I try not to think of the memories of the past
Swirling thoughts swim around in my head
As I push the covers off and get out of bed
I turn on the light and my heart twists in pain once more
As I see your pictures on the floor
I sink to the ground as I realize I can't take it anymore