Disclaimer: Don't own Alex Eames unfortunately, I love you Dick Wolf! Certainly don't own the song 'Forgive Me,' just borrowing it from Evanescence

A/N: Hey there. This is a post ep of ITWSH of course. My first song fic so please forgive me if it's crap.

Forgive Me

All I know is I didn't mean to hurt you like that. Never in my life had I never known how much words can hurt someone. Someone has sensitive as you; you can make me see how much our friendship means to you.

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
but I didn't mean to hurt you

I didn't mean to say those things on that letter, you know that I didn't mean to. It was five years ago and now I know you better than anyone. I know you so well I can tell when you need a break or need someone with you to figure out the last clue.

It was horrible mistake that I would take back for anything, if I had another chance I would burn the horrible words on that piece of paper and it will never see daylight again.

I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you

When I saw that laminated paper in the attorney's hand I knew it was the letter. I never thought it would be brought up again. My heart stopped, I couldn't believe they found it. I felt like the weight of the world was pressing on me, with the letters staring back at me as I read the highlighted passage. Every word I read I knew it would hurt you; I never meant it to happen.

Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken

I felt ashamed as I saw the look in your eyes. I could feel you shouting inside yourself, I could feel the anger of the letter that gave you.

I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you

I'd go back in time to throw that letter away; away from the hands it should've not been in. Those hands of the evil and away from the ones who want to destroy us.

Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.

I don't what this partnership to end like this, and I have a feeling you will understand but I know that I will never forgive myself for it. I never wanted you to find out about the letter. In the past five years I have learnt so much about myself and about you, and I know I should've told you.


'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me

The only reason why I withdrew the request is because I realized we were right together. With each other, we were like peanut butter and jelly. They mixed together perfectly; we accepted each other flaws and strengths and mend them together into one great weapon.


I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

I need you to see that I need you by my side. You make me feel better about myself and make me understand the world in a different way.

So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry; I never wanted it to happen like this. Never in my life had I've been so sorry. All those things I said in that letter are a mistake, a mistake that I will have to live with forever.

And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you

I never meant to hurt you. I promise to you that I will never do anything like that again. Please… forgive me?