Disclaimer: I do not own the characters, no copy write infringement intended –I did write the plot for this story from my pure imagination. Lost Girl, FYI I love Doccubus...

Synopsis:

Bo has Lauren's heart, but it might not be enough to keep her.

'I Loved You Then'

By Rachel JW (Calisky3)

Chapter 1

Lauren's eyes were avoiding the path straight in front of her. Her gaze fell to the wooden door that was closed.

Moments went by with Lauren standing in silence staring at the door. A quick flashback played in her mind when she told Bo that she loved her. Hearing, "I love you" was one of the happiest moments in her life and also one of the hardest.

Somewhere, with the tender kissing and the tears that only came from her eyes, she needed to realize a few things. A few truths that she didn't want to admit. Lauren couldn't live without Bo, but as time passed she was finding it hard to stay. She kept telling herself that she was fine.

For so many years Lauren had been selfless. Lauren's whole life was dedicated to others. Not only, because she was a doctor, but also because she had been a slave to a tyrant Ash. Her love for Nadia, for Nadia's sake, kept her life stagnant for many years.

Lauren's love for Bo was the one thing that set her free. She knew that. What Lauren also knew was she was in the habit of saving everyone else, healing everyone else. When were her wounds, her hurts going to be mended? She did not get the glitz and glamour that came with being a hero. No, Lauren was the hero in the background with a stethoscope that never got recognized for her brilliance, but then again, she never expected anyone to notice her.

She had been content with this existence. Until one day, a beautiful brunette Succubus walked into her lab and into her life. Lauren's life before Bo had been so lonely. She had lived her life alone for so long, that was all there was.

Bo was the one person to recognize Lauren for something more. Bo loved her.

Lauren's love for Bo was one of the only true and honest things she finally allowed herself to feel. A tear came streaming down her face as she stood in the hallway outside of the Ash's Office.

Lauren had come so far. She knew this. She was better then this. Lauren's heart beat heavy in her chest as she stopped at the Ash's office door. Footsteps were heard as Hale came out from behind door with a smile. He had not expecting to see Lauren and she was also taken back, even though she had planned this.

"Lauren, what can I do for you doc?"

Lauren stumbled with her words as she often did when she was sure, but unsure of herself.

"Ash, may I have a word with you… sir?" Lauren said.

"Sir? This must be serious. Come in."

Lauren stepped in the door with her head still down. Hale took a seat behind his desk. "What's up?"

She took a deep breath before she started; this was not going to be easy. "Ash, Hale, I mean Ash..."

Hale put his hand up, "Hey doc, just talk to me." Trick was hiding in a dark corner of the room, from a passage door.

She took another deep breath. "Ash... I here to ask for my leave of the Light-Fae." Lauren looked Hale in the eyes. "I no longer want to be in your service." Lauren breathed out. She wanted to keep it short, keep the conversation simple unlike her usual science-self. She did not want questions.

Hale studied her for a moment, "You know you're an asset." Lauren did not speak. "Is it because I'm the new Ash? I know it's been bumpy, but I've just started and…"

Lauren looked up at the ceiling laughing uncomfortably shaking her head as she sometimes did. "No, Hale. This has nothing to do with you." She stopped. "I came back into service for the wrong reasons and now I've seen my error."

"Bo." Hale said simply.

Lauren looked at the ground, "I never planned for this; for it to be this hard." Tears fell from her eyes.

Hale stood from his chair and came around to where Lauren was standing. "How can I make this better?"

"I can't do this anymore," Lauren confessed through soft sobs. "I'm not one of you and I will never be." Lauren took the necklace off her neck and held her hand out to Hale. "This is yours."

Hale kept his hands at his side. "No, that's yours." Lauren looked at Hale waiting for his next thought. "I respect you Lauren. I may not know you as well as I should, but what makes you think I'd let you go?"

Lauren kept her hand extended with the necklace. "Out of respect," Lauren finished.

Hale grinned, "I would never keep you against you will Lauren. I hope you'd know that, but that necklace is yours." Lauren looked at the silver hanging from her hand. "Even if you choose not to serve the Light-Fae, I want you to know that you still have our protection doc."

Lauren stared at Hale confused. "I… don't understand."

Hale smiled, "Well doc, you are the best and will be hard to replace. The Light-Fae may have you on speed dial we're ever in a pinch?" He added half asking.

Lauren thought for a moment, "Alright, that's fair. But know I plan on being far away…"

Lauren stepped out of the room and back into the hall closing the door behind her. She let out a shaky breath. The hardest was not over.