Silhouettes and Sadness

I closed my eyes.

And when I did, I saw her smile and the sparkle in her eyes. I smiled.

"I can't."

My eyes flashed open.

She's gone.

"I'm so sorry, Soda."

Her words rang in my ears.

I closed my eyes again.

And there she stood.

To touch her. To hold her. To kiss her. Just one more time. I would do anything for that chance. But all I have left is her Silhouette and Sadness.

The pain was too much.

"It wasn't supposed to be this way."

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At night, I cried myself to sleep.

I envied how Pony slept so peacefully. Well, until he had a nightmare. I don't think he knew that I cried right next to him.

I loved her so much. She was different. She was special.

"I just… I didn't think…" She was choking on her own words.

She made a mistake but I couldn't let her go.

As I closed my eyes to sleep, tears spilled out and ran down my face. I wiped them away and tried to sleep.

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Dear Sandy,

I know you think I'm upset with you but I'm willing to give you a second chance. I'll help you take care of the baby. I will forget the past and start over with you. I still love you and I really hope you feel the same way. Please don't let your past ruin what we can have now. So come back and forgive yourself. If you didn't hurt me you couldn't hurt yourself. I can wait to marry you. I'll let you finish school and I'll get a better job. We can go away together, just the two of us. Please come back. I love you Sandy. I'll wait for you. I'll be there for you.

Sodapop Curtis

I meant it. Every word.

"I don't think I can love you anymore."

Those words hurt more than what she actually did to me.

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I made dinner to attempt to forget about her. But she loved my cooking. How could I forget? Darry was yelling at Pony about his grades and I just about wanted to explode.

"…Well, it's not that easy, is it, Soda?"

And at that, I had had it. I ran out. It was all too much for me and I couldn't take it anymore.

If I could touch her. Hold her. Kiss her. Just one more time. I might be okay. I might make it through. But for now, all I had was her Silhouette and Sadness.

Author Note: Well, what'd you think? I know it's nothing special but I felt like writing something about how Soda felt about Sandy. It's just a one-shot; just for fun. Let me know what you think because I'm not sure I'm crazy about it.