Have you ever wonder what is your sexual preference? (Bi, Gay, Hetero)

We live in an open world. So I am gladly saying it here.

Congratulations to those who has already known what they want.

I am still searching here and I am a girl. Am I hetero, homo, or bi?

What do you call a girl who can imagine sleeping with man but also imagine kissing a girl? Help me! Ahahahaha.

Enjoy!

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"Maybe we should just hook up together."

Tezuka stared hard at Fuji following the comment that make his (Tezuka's) heart leaped a beat. They were studying beside the library window pane. The exam is next week, and they were together on the pretext of group studying. Fuji was still smiling, despite his shocking statement.

Outside the window was a view from 4th floor, a windy day of summer. The wind blew the leaves away from the tree, which made it looked like it will be bald soon. Autumn was coming. People were going home, laughter and voices filled the air. But the library, where silence reigns, kept its nature. There were only some other students left, those bookworms and nerds who actually run from reality and hide behind the stack of textbooks.

Sitting in peace were Fuji Syuusuke, the tensai and Tezuka Kunimitsu, the stoic buchou. It was unusual for Fuji to stay behind the library. He usually will be on the ground, either joking with Eiji or going home with Takashi. Fuji is almost always is the centre of life; be it in class or court. It was their second year of junior high school; they were aiming for the best. Seishun Gakuen Tennis Club has started to get popular since they now have formidable cards such as the almost pro—Tezuka and the tensai Fuji. They have new members coming in, and two particularly caught their attention.

Come back to Fuji. Fuji was bored. He was the one who suggested going to the library on study pretext. It was unusual, and actually not needed. Fuji Syuusuke is the tensai, both in tennis and study. He only needs to spend a night on the materials to get the perfect marks. Study is neither his hobby nor his habit. It was just today… was special.

He saw Tezuka rejected by Oishi just now, in their class.

Fuji could sense the feeling their buchou had for his best friend. Oishi Suichiro is the gentle, kind and respectable boy. He smiles like a mother. People looked up to him as he always takes good care of any relationship he had. Tezuka is no exception. Blessed with no communication ability, Tezuka only can excel in court. Outside it, he was just an introvert, scary and moody boy. Oishi made the first move and most of their relationship somehow worked out. Oishi could bring the friendly and loyal self of the bespectacled guy. That was what made their relationship lasted so good and long. No wonder the innocent guy fell in love. Maybe it was a crush, since they are still young, but Tezuka has finally said to himself that it is love and gathered his courage to confess. But well, he was rejected. Oishi has already set his heart for the acrobatic cat, Eiji Kikumaru.

Fuji was also having the same bad day. He was going out with Takashi Kawamura, the gentle Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde of Kawamura Sushi until the hour before. It has been a year since Kawamura confessed to him. And they had been going out for 8 months. It was fun; Fuji liked the feeling of being spoiled by the older and bigger guy, while Kawamura enjoyed having a very lovely little cat in his arms. Both started to feel like that was the real love you see on TV. It was a secret, of course, but most of their circle of friend (the second years of Seishun Gakuen Tennis Club) know and recognize them. It seemed like Fuji and Kawamura will spend the rest of the high school as a couple.

But again, the reality is always unpredictable. Kawamura's father found out, and instead of hitting his son like a normal traditional family, he broke down.

"I know this is hard, Takashi." He said, "But please… be normal. We need someone to take over the family business. It has been ours for generations and it is a shame to end it in my time… at least please be a gay after I die."

Kawamura Takashi is a gentle boy. He wouldn't want to hurt anybody, especially his parent. He already broke his parent's hearts when he said he loves tennis better than making sushi. He was very grateful when they made an exemption for him every school day to practice tennis in Seishun Gakuen. His gentle dad was crying in front of him, how he could let that be? As a filial child, he is a failure. In the end, he told Fuji that he wanted a break up, an hour before.

The smiling Fuji turned sour. He slapped Takashi and went out of the class, just to see Tezuka being rejected by Oishi. He suddenly felt like he wasn't as bad as Tezuka, who was being rejected even before he had received the mutual feeling. So, out of sympathy and pity, Fuji invited Tezuka to brood together in the library.

That was how the two of them hooked up together. Well, kinda.

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On the pretext of study for the exam, Fuji visited Tezuka's house that Sunday. Fuji was smiling, thinking of how should he attack Tezuka today. They haven't done anything other than kissing since they hooked up (kinda) three days ago. Well, of course it maybe too fast, but both are boys in the highest libido state; so no wonder if Fuji was hoping something will happened that day.

"Welcome in, Fuji-kun." Tezuka's mother opened the door. Fuji smiled, bottling the laughter inside. He could see where Tezuka inherits the stoic face of his; his mother looked like him but female one. Tezuka was standing by the hall, looking at his mother, then Fuji. When he saw Fuji, he blushed.

"A…A…You come."

"Yes, I come. Weren't we supposed to study together, Tezuka-kun?" Fuji smiled sweetly. Tezuka's mother nodded and ushered them into her son's room and said she will be back with tea and snack.

Fuji sat down by the small table.

"What a clean and tidy room." he smiled. Fuji said to himself that the room was almost as boring as Tezuka. It is impolite to say or even think about that, but Fuji, being Fuji, who could do everything perfectly since small, has developed a habit on looking down on people. But Fuji knows how to control himself, so most people couldn't read his true thinking.

"We can get started."

Tezuka sat down furthest away from Fuji, grabbing his book as far as possible from Fuji's reach. Fuji stared suspiciously.

"Are you avoiding me?"

"N..No."

"We are going out. What are you shying about?"

"No… I mean…"

He was saved from explaining by his mother's entrance. After she left them with enough snack (healthy kind) and green tea, she left the room. everything was done in a formal way, and Fuji started to think that maybe upbringing did bring something to Tezuka's personality.

"So?" Fuji moved closer to Tezuka's side. "What were you trying to say?"

"…Maybe… are we really going out?"

"What? We are! Well, we hooked up three days ago, remember? You said yes to my statement."

"then… maybe I was wrong. Maybe I wasn't myself. Because I just couldn't… imagine you, Fuji."

"Wha…what do you mean?" Fuji was startled.

"I… honestly, I can imagine Oishi in my arms. But I just can't imagine you, Fuji. I know I like Oishi because I know his personality and I like it from him. But you.. We are not really close, you see… and I don't think I am a gay after all."

"…Are you joking with me?"

"I am serious. And I think it's improper for you too. Kawamura san was almost crying when you hold my hand in front of the club yesterday. Wasn't it too fast? Didn't you just break up with him?"

"… What do you understand? And why you suddenly decide that you are not gay?" Fuji pierced the other boy with his blue eyes.

Tezuka blushed.

"I… just couldn't… imagine you in my imagination."

Fuji froze. Many reasons for that, mainly: 1. he didn't know that Tezuka is a pervert. 2. He didn't expect Tezuka to be a masturbation slave. 3. Tezuka said he couldn't imagine him. 4. Is he not sexy enough? 5. He didn't know that Tezuka is a romanticist who determines his masturbation images based on love.

"Then... what decide that you are gay, Fuji?"

Fuji was silenced for a minute before answered, ".. it's my secret. I am going home." Fuji stood up, taking all his belongings and out of the room. He shouted before he slammed the door, "You are a jerk, Tezuka Kunimitsu!"

TBC.

written on a night when insecurities and uncertainity kicked me on my ass.

Thank you for reading.