I ran through the front door, lungs burning, eyes streaming.
Things that seemed impossible are becoming a possibility
"Nobody loves you", I chant in my head
A pill for every thought
I feel a peace consume me,
a peace that could last for eternity.
Body numb, I lay down, stomach churning
I drift away, slowly, slowly, slowly.
A bolt runs through my body as I think of my loved one,
He whom I am leaving behind
I'm dying to tell you i'm sorry,
I type the simple text.
There is panic in your response, asking what i have done
I tell you I'm scared.
"Why?" You ask. "Sam?"
Its not going to work, I can feel myself being pulled out of my faint state
I tell you.
I'm ordered to the hospital, you told me to.
I lied, I said i would get in the car and that i would go
Just so you wouldn't worry.
I wanted to say sorry one last time before I'd no longer have the chance.