She counted the days again. "Do really two months passed already? No…I must be wrong…I should count again…."After the fourth time she gave up. She groaned and she buried her head into her hands knowing that she must stop acting like a fool and admit to herself that what she was afraid of and made her count for the first time the days since her last period, must be true. "Oh God…" she mumbled but she knew that not God, but no one could save her from the mess she landed herself into.

The signs where there, almost two weeks now, but Olivia just told herself that it was a flu and nothing else. But she knew very well that a flu can explain the vomiting and the nausea, but not the period that was late or the mood changes or the weird appetites. So now she knew she had to do something she has been avoiding the past two weeks.

She got up from the couch, put her coat on and left her apartment only to return half an hour later with five, not one, but five different pregnancy tests with her. On the way back she had drunk tons of water and now she was ready for a bathroom marathon. She laughed on this thought but stopped immediately when she remembered what would maybe be the consequencies of this "marathon"

An hour and many trips to the bathroom later Olivia was sitting again on her couch staring blankly on the five tests staring back at her from the coffe table, all screaming to her the same thing: "Pregnant…pregnant…pregnant…pregnant…PREGNANT"

She stand on her feet, only to sit back fast feeling dizzy. She forced herself to think clear but the only thing she could think of was "Oh my…how am I gonna do this? How am I gonna tell HIM?"

She exhailed loudly and stared at the wall in front of her. This was so overwhelming. God knows how bad she wanted a child, but this way? Sure, no situation is perfect she thought but it takes two to tango and what if the feelings weren't mutual ? It was a one night thing after all, no promises, no commitment, nothing. Nothing? "Oh who are you kidding Liv, you sure as hell want more than nothing….but this? This is for sure not a small but a lifetime commitment, a lifetime decision."

She tried to put her thoughts on order. She would tell him…but not right know. She just wasn't ready yet. She needed to know first of all where she was standing on this, get her head straight that she was doing the right thing. And then…when she would be a hundred per cent sure about her decision, then, she would tell him.

"Olivia? Olivia?...Liv?"

Olivia jumped the third time Cragen called her." I am sorry captain I was a bit distracted."

Cragen looked at her. God she hated that look." I can see that. Now listen, Fin and Munch brought in a suspect for the Drane case. Elliot's on his way to the interrogation room, I want you to come with me and watch"

Olivia nodded and stand up "Yes…yes I'm coming" she said and followed Cragen trying to ignore him staring at her

"So what do we have on him?" Olivia asked while they were watching behind the glass Elliot interrogating the suspect.

"He was stalking Liza Drane about a month before her rape. A neighbor saw him around her house the night she was raped."

"Good…" she said distracted. She was dizzy again for what she felt it was the hundredth time this day. She rested her shoulder on the glass trying to stay focused.

"Any progress?" Casey's arrival made Olivia jump something that didn't went unnoticed from both Cragen and Casey.

"Everything alright Olivia? She asked as she saw the detective holding her head as if she was making an effort not to collapse

"Yeah….yeah….just tired" She replied

"Olivia if you are not ok, call it a day, go back to your place and rest. This case is going to bother us for the rest of the week for sure and I need you focused." Cragen told her.

"Ok captain you're right…I'll see you tomorrow" Olivia said and walk away try not to look at Casey who was staring at her. She managed to get to the nearest bathroom and dig into a toilet to throw up. When she was done she rested her head into the door trying to feel stable.

"Olivia?" Casey had followed her into the bathroom. Olivia sighed." Yeah Casey?"." Everything ok in there?" she sounded a bit concerned. Olivia sighed again and she got out from the toilet to find Casey looking at her worried.

"Everything's fine Casey….I…I probably got the flu or something…Captain's right I'm gonna go back home and get some rest."

"Are you sure it is only the flu, Olivia?". She didn't like the way Casey highlighted the word flu.

"Well yeah…and now if you'll excuse me" she made her way towards the door but Casey stopped her.

"Olivia" her tone was very serious. "Olivia are you pregnant?"

Olivia made a step back looking taken aback "Casey! What would make you assume that?"

Casey sighed and look her in the eyes." About three weeks ago one night I happened to pass from your building. You and Elliot where outside, kissing. You seemed pretty drunk, both of you. Then I watched you getting inside and heading upstairs .And then about two weeks ago I noticed that you started to seem sick, dizzy, moody… and I couldn't help but wonder…So I am asking you…Are you pregnant?"

Olivia groaned. She tried to pick her words carefully

"It was just for a night. We were pretty drunk as you said but sober enough to agree that it would be only a night and nothing more. But…obviously something went wrong and now…yes I am pregnant"

"I knew it" Casey said trying not smile

"Casey! Anyway…If you have noticed that means that everybody else noticed too…" Olivia said worryingly

" Don't be so sure. They may be detectives but are still men, don't give them so much credit… they surely bought everything about the flu" Casey said a bit sarcastically "And from this I take it that you haven't told him yet" she added.

Olivia nodded." Yes I want to straight things out before…"

"Ok then you have my word that no one will hear it from me" Casey said with a smile.

"Thanks Casey…" Olivia sounded relieved… After all it felt good for finally someone to know…

So this is my first story ever...Please review and tell me what you think!