My Beloved Lord,
It has been too long since I last wrote to you. Five years too long, if I must admit. I have missed you deeply. Just as deeply as I am sorry for having left you. My heart still longs to be by your side every day. I was a fool to leave you but I needed to find my independence. I needed to find and understand what it meant to be free on my own.
I'm writing to you now to tell you that I found it and that I understand it now. I have also learned that freedom isn't truly free, that it comes with a price. My price to pay was losing you. It is a price that pains my very soul. A painful price in which I do not find worth having lost you all those years ago.
I would like to come home to you, my love, if you'll still have and welcome me? I know five years is a long time, the chance that you would have waited so long for me only a slim one. If there is a chance, would you embrace me once more and love me as only you can? I have not known what home feels like since I left you. I have been homeless in heart, unable to be with another.
Independence and freedom are not worth having without you with me to enjoy them with. They are not worth having without you to grow in them with. They cannot make me feel like I am home, nor can they make me feel loved and safe. The only thing they have given me are lessons on how to be on my own and my own small fortune. Alas, they still aren't worthy without you. They could never fill the void that only you can fill.
I await your response, my dearest love. I hope I'm not too late.
Yours truly,
Rin
Leaning away from the table I was sitting at, I reread the letter I wrote in my mind once more before sealing it into its awaiting envelope. A sad smile crossed my lips as I placed the crescent moon emblem onto its seal, the memories slowly filling my mind. I can only hope that Lord Sesshomaru would accept me once more.
Kaede, and then Kagome after Kaede's passing, had taught me well in the art of healing when I came back to them for serious training. Kagome also taught me to read, write, and do basic math. InuYasha and Sango took turns teaching me to survive off the land, to defend myself, to set traps, and many other things. Miroku taught me how to negotiate at markets to get what I needed without getting shorted, as well as to conceal my intentions if I needed too. They had all taught me so well in these past five years. So did the other villagers. I know how to cook, sew, make pottery, paint, so many things.
Through it all, my heart ached for my Lord.