FREE THINKING
BY SARAH SMITH
SEASON/ 4TH
SPOILERS: SET AFTER 'ABSOLUTE POWER'
SUMMARY: SAM'S THOUGHTS
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Sitting alone in her lab, Sam contemplated recent events. Daniel's deceased wife's son
had only left a few hours ago, but his words to her, continued to plague her mind.
She thought she had dealt with the feelings that had been 'left in the room'.
She was wrong.
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'The mind is always free'. That's what the boy said. What did he mean?
All I did was tell him I had been tested before; how could he possibly know what
happened?
Was he just spouting a random wise saying?
But he looked me in the eye as he said it, as if he knew.
Knew that I had confessed and then shut it away as if it never happened.
I didn't even let myself think about it, and I am always thinking.
Maybe I should have, maybe then I would know how to get on with my life.
I've felt disjointed, disconnected. Like something was missing. Now I realize that
something was - my heart. I let my mind and my body perform the tasks that were
required, but I left my heart in that damn room.
'The mind is always free'—Maybe he was telling me to let myself deal with it and move
on. There is no crime in 'thinking' about someone, in dreaming of what could be.
Imagining or fantasizing about a man breaks no rules or regulations, as long as it stays
within the mind or in the heart.
It is not wrong to care for someone, only to act on it. No actions will be taken; I won't let
them.
So, free the mind, heal the soul, listen to the heart and ignore the body and all will be
fine.
At least I hope.
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BY SARAH SMITH
SEASON/ 4TH
SPOILERS: SET AFTER 'ABSOLUTE POWER'
SUMMARY: SAM'S THOUGHTS
*-*-*-*-*-*
Sitting alone in her lab, Sam contemplated recent events. Daniel's deceased wife's son
had only left a few hours ago, but his words to her, continued to plague her mind.
She thought she had dealt with the feelings that had been 'left in the room'.
She was wrong.
*-*-*-*-*-*
'The mind is always free'. That's what the boy said. What did he mean?
All I did was tell him I had been tested before; how could he possibly know what
happened?
Was he just spouting a random wise saying?
But he looked me in the eye as he said it, as if he knew.
Knew that I had confessed and then shut it away as if it never happened.
I didn't even let myself think about it, and I am always thinking.
Maybe I should have, maybe then I would know how to get on with my life.
I've felt disjointed, disconnected. Like something was missing. Now I realize that
something was - my heart. I let my mind and my body perform the tasks that were
required, but I left my heart in that damn room.
'The mind is always free'—Maybe he was telling me to let myself deal with it and move
on. There is no crime in 'thinking' about someone, in dreaming of what could be.
Imagining or fantasizing about a man breaks no rules or regulations, as long as it stays
within the mind or in the heart.
It is not wrong to care for someone, only to act on it. No actions will be taken; I won't let
them.
So, free the mind, heal the soul, listen to the heart and ignore the body and all will be
fine.
At least I hope.
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