Title: Ethan

Author: SneetchesToo

Rating: Teen (language)

Pairing: Ethan/Rox

Summary: She wanted the colonel. A very specific colonel. And no one else.

Author's Note: After watching 3.12 I just had to do it. Spoilers for that and 3.10/3.11. There may be more than one chapter. I have a plan but I don't know if my muse will cooperate.

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"Ethan." His name left her lips before she could process anything. "Ethan?"

She woke up and he wasn't there.

She called his name but he still wasn't there.

Rox wasn't scared of much. But in that moment, she was terrified.

"Ethan." She gasped out again. Her throat was on fire. She felt like there was an elephant on her chest. Her head was pounding. She could barely move her arms and legs.

"Ethan!" She tried shouting. But it came out as barely a whisper. She felt tears spring to her eyes as she turned her head from side to side. She hoped he was sleeping in the chair next to her. That maybe he had stepped out for coffee. That maybe he was just taking a leak.

"Ethan!" She tried again. This time her voice must have been louder because a young woman came rushing in. Checking her vitals and saying something about getting the general.

She wanted to scream. She wanted to kick her feet and flail her arms and throw a toddler sized temper tantrum. She didn't want the general. She wanted the colonel. A very specific colonel. And no one else.

"Ethan." She whispered again. She closed her eyes as the tears poured down her cheeks freely. She tried to stop them. She willed them to cease. But they just increased the longer she laid there without him by her side.

She had screwed up. Royally. She had pushed him too far. Pushed him too hard. And now he was gone. She knew she should have backed off. Given him his space. But she was so hopelessly addicted to him that she couldn't help herself. She didn't want to lose him, so she had tried to save him.

And it had failed. Epically.

"Ethan." She sobbed. She could feel her whole body starting to shake as a wave of panic took over her.

She didn't know where she was. She didn't know what had happened. And none of these people looked familiar. They were all in uniforms, not scrubs. These weren't her people. This wasn't her home. Her family was nowhere in sight. She all of a sudden couldn't breathe.

"Ethan!" She didn't know why the only word she seemed capable of saying was his name. But she needed him. Her whole body ached for him. Her heart pounding in her chest. She just needed him there.

"He's not here." She heard a gruff voice say from somewhere in the room.

She knew that had to be a lie. He wouldn't have left her like that. He couldn't have. He had to be there somewhere. She didn't understand why they were keeping him from her.

"Ethan!" She tried to sit up. Her eyes snapping open as she shouted his name.

"You need to rest." A different voice. Another that she didn't recognize.

"I need Ethan!" More than one word that time. Progress.

But they ignored her. Instead, they inserted something into her IV. And then they left the room without another word.

She felt her eyes getting heavy. She felt like her body was being filled with cement. They had drugged her. Those bastards had drugged her just as she had woken up.

"Ethan." She whispered softly. Her eyes closing as a few stray tears made their way down her cheeks. "Where are you?"

And then everything became quiet. And everything became dark. And she let the pressure take over her body as she nodded off.

And the only thing she saw behind her closed eyelids was him. Her best friend. The man that she had wanted to hate so badly. The man who had worked his way into her heart. The man that she couldn't help but love.

Ethan.

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