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Preface: The past

A New Life, A New Love

Preface: The past

April 2007

What am I doing? All I ever wanted out of life was to make all my dreams come true. I sit in my bathroom and cry my eyes out. How did my life come to this point? When I had everything I ever wanted out of life. I had my family my career, friends and most of all love. How can I have everything and for it to be torn away and ripped apart? How can a heart be hurt so many times before it can't take it anymore?

I always ask this question not so much lately. There is only one question I keep asking myself now.

"When is it my turn."

I say as I cry my heart out and can't stop. Most of the time I try to put on a happy go lucky face for everyone but these past ten months it has been a lot harder. The past four months have been the worst. I lost my mom as she finally lost her battle with cancer. However that is not the only thing I have lost. Last month I lost the only person I ever thought I would marry to someone else. He married and that is what brought me to where I am right now, sitting on the floor in my bathroom crying my eyes out. I know I shouldn't cry for a man who has Brock my heart over and over again.

Even till this day after being married a month he still calls me. He tells me it is just to check up on me. I don't believe him. I always know when he was lying to me even over the phone. I think of him as my best friend one of the few people I can count on when I need them. He had always been there for me even after all this time of us not being together. He was there after my mom died when my best friend had to go back to where she lived

I have known him for the past eight and a half years and I knew him as he knew me. We where so connected to why would he not want me. I was his everything. I never once told him no. I did everything for him. It was like we where married but I was not that lucky. Then one day the bubble popped and I was no longer his. Well not officially.

The past five years I was still there for him and him for me. I was the girl on the side but I didn't care I had my love there and I hoped that one day he would get his head out of the clouds and see what was right in fount of him. Then about three years ago he got with a girl and she didn't like that I could come and go I pleased. That was the start of how we started to go our own way. I stopped talking to him for about a few months and then his best friend called me. His friend said he wanted to see me and so I agreed not knowing that life was about to really change for me.

He wanted me to help him come home so because I never told him no I did. I also go up the never to tell him that I wanted him back and if he didn't want me then that was it. I wouldn't do anything else to him. He didn't believe me till the first time I told him no. It is wired how one little two letter word can change your life. It took him from me and put him in the arms of now his wife.

I sit here thinking that now is the time to let the past go and move own with my life. I finally have made up my mind and take my best friends offer and move to where she is at. So for the second time in my life I am moving away from home and starting over.

Chapter One: A New Start

January 2008

I was finally here and just about to drive up to my new apartment. The drive was not too bad and I was grateful to my best friend and her fiancé. They where helping me move into my new place. What a way to start the New Year off with a new place a new job and a new town. My past was behind me now and I couldn't wait to get my new life started. It has been a year since my mom pasted away and it has been a very trying year for me. I have learned to let go and finally know now that I have no control over what happens in life. That life is not always the way I planed and that sometimes it just has to happen in order for you to be happy.

It took me a while to realize this but now I'm ready to take on whatever life will trough at me. Yes I Isabella Marie Swan has a new lease on life. My past is my past, the present is now and I can't wait to see what my future will be.

I drive into the parking lot and park right in front of my new home. It was not much just a two bedroom house. My dad helped me get it. I didn't want to live in apartment and I wanted it to be mine and only mine. I wanted to start my life out new and fresh. I know that it would be better that I live in a small apartment but then I could do anything with it. My best friend Alice, who have been there for me since we meat as roommates back in college, helped me pick out this house and the good thing about it was that she only lived a few blocks away from me. She lives with her fiancé and I love him as if he was my brother. Alice is like my sister considering I don't have any bother or sisters at all so she is like my sister.

"Bella come see what I have done." Alice's sweet sing song voice called me as I got out of my Chevrolet truck.

"Oh Alice please tell me you didn't do anything to out rages." I called back at her. Knowing her I'm sure she did. After I have told her that time and time again that I wanted to make my house my own.

"Oh Bella you will love what I did to you house. Everything is here and you don't have to worry about anything I took care of it all. I'm so glad that you took my advice and sent everything before you came. Well everything but your clothes but don't worry about that because once I get Jasper and Emmett to get them out of your truck I'll take care of that too.

"Alice is you ever going to let me do anything at all." I know this was a losing battle but I still complained. Alice always got her way not matter what you say or do. It was the say way when it came to shopping which I didn't like to do but I got use to Alice and her ways. I had to admit even if it was not to her that I did love her taste in everything she picked out. She just knew what was right of the person. She taught me to dress that would better go with my body type and style that I felt good in. She taught me how to put makeup on that was not over doing it. She was the big sister I never had and glad that I found. She might not be much older then I but she was like a big sister to me.

"Jasper. Emmett. Bella is here." Alice said as she hugged me. I was so glad that I have someone I know here it would be so much batter in this new place with her around.

"Alice? Who is Emmett?" I asked as I pulled away from her. She just smiled at me as Jasper who was six foot three inch tall honey blond hair ocean blue eyed guy came out. I could never think of how these two so opposite could have ever found the love that they had. Alice was only four feet ten inches her self and very thin. She was my little pixie girl and I loved her to death even with her black hair spiky cut hair. That was a new thing that she was trying out. It would never look good on me but for her it worked.

"Bella is it so good to see you again. I'm so glad you are here Alice could wait till you got here to help you unpack." He came up to me and picked me up into a big hug. He was the brother I never had in away. He would protect me no matter what happened to me. As he hugged me he dropped his voice to whisper in my ear. "She has had me her all weekend movie everything around and getting everything perfect for you so you wouldn't have to worry about unpacking.' He put me down and just smiled.

"I'm sorry she did that to you." I gave him an apologetic smile.

"Oh it is ok at least I had Emmett to keep me company." When he said this I saw a very big muscular almost like a weight lifter guy who had curly brown hair behind Jasper. He was taller the Jasper but not by much. If I have to guess he would about and six foot five inches. "Bella this is Emmett McCarty. He is my cousin's husband." He put out his hand to mine and I put mine out to shack it.

"Nice to meet you Bella Alice has told me and Rose so much about you." He gave me a big smile that gave him dimples on each chick. His hazel eyes sparked when he said his wife's name. I could tell that he loved her very much and that he was happy.

"Well it is nice to meet you too and thank you for helping Jasper and Alice with everything. I would have been here to but I'm guessing you already know Alice can't wait." I smiled back at him.

"Oh yes I know that and it was my pleaser to help them. The good thing about it all I finally get to meet the fames Isabella Swan." He winked at me.

"What do you mean by that?" I was confused there was nothing special about me.

"It is just that Alice always talks about you." He was laughing at my statement.

"Oh" I tuned to Alice because she had garbed my arm and started to pull me toward the open door.

"Come on Bella come see what I did." Alice pulled me all the way into the house as I stepped into the house I couldn't believe what I saw. It didn't look anything like the way I thought it would at least from what I remember of Alice's place. I really thought she would decorate it the way she did her place. I was so wrong.

Everything was very modern and suited to my liking. I couldn't believe that Alice was so in tone with my needs. She took me into all the rooms. Each room had its own identity and color. She then turned the extra bedroom into a library for all my books that I had. I couldn't live with out them. It also was going to be my office so I could write if I got around to it.

"Alice I just have to say that I love what you did to my place. Thank you from the bottom of my heart." I told Alice as I was look at how she organized my books. It was in the same order that I had them at home. Not a single out of place and not a single one missing. My books are my pride and joy that is why I majored in English literature. I had books from Classical to the latest best seller.

"Well I'm glad you like it." She smiled at me as she watched me.

"Alice Emmett is hungry do you want to go get something to eat?" Jasper came into the office to ask her.

"Yeah Bella you want to go?" Alice asked me.

"Okay since I don't have to unpack. Well except my clothes but I'm sure we can do that after we eat." I smiled at Alice. I was hungry because I didn't eat anything before I left my dads house.

"Great we can go to my favorite Dali." Alice said as she turned to walk out of the room. "How does that sound Emmett?" She asked as she exited the room. Jasper was right behind her and me after him.

"That sounds great to me let me see is Rose wants to join us." He said as he put his cell phone to his ear. "Hey sweet heart we are going to go eat at Jim's Dali did you want to go?" He was silenced as she answered him, "Yeah she will be there and you can meet Bella too." Another short silence "Ok then we will meet you there I love you. Bye sweet heart." He then closed his phone and tuned to us. "Ok she will meet us there in fifteen minutes." He smiled at us.

So Fifteen minuets later we were in the restraint waiting on Rose after we had just order.

"So Bella tell me why did you finally want to come here? Alice told me that she has been trying to get you to come for a long time now." Emmett asked me as he took a sip of his cook.

"Well let me just say that I need a change. It was just time to find myself and I figured that this was the best way to start over." I hated to talk about my past.

"Oh well what better way to do that then a new town and a new house." He smiled at me. I just smiled back at him but I saw Alice out of the corner of my eye. She looked concern so I tuned to her and just gave her a smile and a wink to tell her I was okay.

"Sorry I'm late but Jane had a little trouble with her car so I was helping her." A Tall blond said as she came up to the table. Emmett got up from his seat and put an arm around her waist and kissed her deeply. That is what I call love and I wished that they would stop it. I turned my head to look out the window that we where sitting at. I hated watching couples out in public. It didn't make me sick but it made me think about other things.

"Sorry guys. Rose this is Bella. Bella this is my wife Rosalie." Emmett introduced us. I turned to look at the blond who had her hand out for me to shack and I did.

"It is nice to meet you Rosalie," I said softly.

"It is nice to meet you too Bella." She said with a smile.

The lunch was very enjoyable. As I got to know Emmett and Rosalie I found out that they too meet in college just like Jasper and Alice did. They had been married for almost two years. Well it would be two years in June. They loved each other so much and it was as if they where made for each other. They had the love that I always wanted, the love that I would read in books.

I would watch the four of them as we finished our meal and I felt so left out of having what they had. Their lives where just starting and they had everything they ever wanted. Then I remembered that I had made a promise to myself that I wouldn't look for love. If I was meant to have love then it would find me. Secretly I was really hoping that this move to Seattle would help in finding love. I just was not getting my hopes up.

The day went by fast after lunch. Rosalie came over to my place to help me with unpacking my cloths. Jasper and Emmett went off to go met up with Emmett's cousin. In one afternoon I found out so much about Rosalie. She didn't like to be called Rose very much. Only her husband, cousin and close friends could call her that. "You can call me Rose if you want to. I'm sure we will be very close considering you are Alice's best friend."

"Thank you Rosalie but for now I think it will be best to call you Rosalie." I smiled at her.

"So Bella I really didn't get to ask you about yourself during lunch."

"Well what do you want to know?"

"Well like how old are you. Where you're from? What do you enjoy doing? And what kind of work will you do here?" She asked.

"Well I'm twenty-eight years old and I was born and raised in Forks. As for what I enjoy doing. I like to read. I have a full time position at the University in the English department."

"Oh really" Rosalie was very surprised by this.

"Yeah Bella is a book warm. She has her Ed.D with a specialty in English. Really Bella is a Dr." Alice said over excited about it all.

"Only a Dr of Education it's no big deal," I said

"Bella it is a big deal." Alice said trying to convince me. I just surged it off. It was not like I was going to use the title in classes.

We order pizza and had it delivered since I didn't have any food in the house yet. The guy's were having a guy's night so we were on our own. I was glad that I had some one here with me. I really didn't want to spend my first evening alone here.

"So Bella do you have a special someone back home?" Rosalie asked me as we where eating.

"No," I simply said with a little venom in my voice, "does anyone want something from the kitchen I'm going to get me some more water?" I didn't wait for them to answer I just got up and walked down the hall to the kitchen. When I got there I leaned against a wall and clamed myself down. Once I did that I got my water and started back down the hall to the living room. As I came closer I could hear voices.

"I'm so sorry I didn't know." Rosalie's voice came in a soft voice. I think they where trying to keep quit so I wouldn't hear them.

"It's okay Rose you didn't know and I forgot to tell you." Alice's voice sounded sad. "She does not like to talk about it. That is the main reason why she came here to get away from it all. I just wish she would let me set her up with someone. I have the perfect guy in mind for her but she won't agree to it."

"Am I thinking of the same person you are?"

"Yes I think you are. However he is the same way he won't let me hook him up with anyone either."

"You know how stubborn he is."

"Yeah I know but the thing is she is just as stubborn as him. I know they will meet eventually I just wanted to set them up with a date. I'm sure the two of them would get along great with each other. They have some much in camion it is not funny."

"They would make a cute couple." Rosalie said with a little of an amused voice. Ok I have enough of this. I walked back to the kitchen and started over again so they didn't' know that I was over hearing them.

"So Alice, Rosalie I was thinking of having all of you over Friday or Saturday for a dinner party. You know just to celebrate my new life." I said this as I came down the hall so they know that I was coming.

"Oh that sounds great." Alice said in a cherry voice.

"Oh I know Emmett would love that. He loves food and he loves to eat." Rosalie laughed and so did Alice.

"Okay good then. What day?"

"I say Saturday. I think Jasper has made plains for us on Friday." Alice said.

"Yeah Saturday will work for us too." Rosalie agreed.

We heard a cell phone ring. Alice pulled out her phone and answers it. "Hey honey you home already?" She was silent for a bit "Yeah I can do that." Silent again "Okay I'll see you in a little bit. Okay I love you." She closed her phone.

"That was Jasper they are back form guys night out. Oh and Rose I'll drop you off since it is on the way. Just so Emmett does not have to come back."

"Oh okay sounds great." Rosalie said.

"Okay. Bella we are going to go now. If you need me just call. Don't matter what time." Alice said with a smile.

"Okay Alice thanks." I walked them out the door and to Alice's car. We said goodnight and they each hugged me. I watched them drive away before I turned to walk back inside.

As I turned I noticed that the lights next door where on. There had not been anyone home all day that I could tell. I saw the curtain close as I looked at the house. Man do I have a nosy neighbor or what. I shrugged and walked inside. It was getting late and I start my new job tomorrow. So I went in and got myself ready for bed.

I laid down hoping that the day's events would let me sleep but like always my mind started to wonder back to the past.

"Man can't I just have one night when this does not happened?" I asked myself out load. It was a habit I had, talking to myself when I was alone. I sighed and turned over trying to find a comfortable spot. No matter what I did nothing helped.

A few more minutes went by and then I heard something. It was sweet and lovely. It was the sound of a piano. However, I didn't recognize the song. I laid there and let the sounds of the sweet music slowly drifted me off to sleep. I didn't dream at all that night the first in a long time.