Chapter 1 – You're alive

"You're telling me she is turning?" I looked mad at Meredith. "You shouldn't have done that. You ruined her life…" I was so mad.

I never wanted this curse for her. I never wanted her to turn into a vampire. Even though I and Stefan wanted to have her for eternity none of us wanted her to turn. We both hated being vampires.

"You weren't here, Stefan wasn't here, Alaric is running his own show and Jeremy was alone with her. What? I should've let her die?"

"Where is she? I have to see her. I have to see her." I knew she was going to be sad and mad with the entire world. I knew Meredith never meant something bad, but I knew Elena was going to hate her.

And it was incredibly unbelievable. Elena a vampire? She hated when Caroline turned, she hated the thought that we couldn't live a normal life being vampires. She hated me for feeding on humans. But, if only Stefan fed on human blood he could've saved her.

I didn't even know how it happened. Meredith only told me she drowned as Matt's car fell from the Wickery Bridge.

"Where is Stefan?" I asked Meredith.

"He brought her here and said he had to get Jeremy. He should be back by now. Alaric is dead?" She asked me.

"Yeah, he is… He died in my arms." I said more calmly. "I watched him die and I thought of how he was my only friend, I thought of Elena dying."

"Where is she?" Jeremy yelled.

"Stefan, I have to tell you something." Meredith said.

"Yeah…Jeremy, you have a vampire sister." Damon looked mad at Meredith.

"What?" Both Stefan and Jeremy said together both being shocked.

"How? She was dead when I pulled her body out of the water?" Stefan said just a little bit excited Elena was alive.

"No, no…She can't be a vampire." Jeremy was even more shocked than I was or than Stefan was.

"I am sorry. She was worse than I told you. I lied. I gave her vampire blood to heal faster since you two weren't here."

"One of us should've stayed." Stefan whispered.

"No, you should've saved her, brother!" I yelled. "You could've saved her, but no…Tell me what happened exactly."

"She didn't want to be saved. Rebekah broke the deal since Klaus is dead and she was in the middle of the bridge. Matt drove and Elena asked for his phone. He didn't see her and when he did it was late."

"And you couldn't just get her out of the water?"

"She didn't let me, Damon. She wanted me to save Matt."

"Right and you are so obedient like always. Great, your obedience just gave you a vampire girlfriend. Go ahead. She chose you. Go and see you." I pushed him.

"Hey, fighting we are not gonna resolve a thing. You two have to help Elena now, control and stuff."

"Go first, Jeremy." Meredith said.

"I can't. I don't know what to tell her. I…" Tears came from Jeremy's eyes.

"I will come with you." Matt said appearing in the hall way of the hospital.

"You shouldn't be up." Meredith said.

"What? You gave him vampire blood too?" I yelled madly at her.

"Hey, she just saved her. If she didn't give her the blood Elena would be dead." Jeremy said.

"Well, I prefer her dead! I don't want her to go through all the stuff the two of has been through. It's a fucking eternity that is not worth living."

Jeremy and Matt entered Elena's room when Meredith showed them where it was.

"I could've saved her!" I kicked the wall. "Why didn't I let you drop Klaus's body?"

"It's my fault, Damon. It's my fault."

"Yes, it is!" I yelled at him. "And she still chose you. She still chose to love you and not say goodbye to me."

Jeremy and Matt came out of the room fast.

"She's crying and I don't know what to do. She won't say a word." Jeremy said crying.

"It will be okay." Stefan said to Jeremy.

"No, it won't!" Matt yelled. "She doesn't deserve this. She doesn't deserve to live like this."

"Hey, hey….Shut up, lost boy. You think we don't know that?" I said as I saw Stefan enter Elena's room.

I was so confused. I didn't know what to do. I could just cry. I didn't know what was happening to me. I couldn't do a thing.

I saw Stefan enter the room and he ran to hug me.

"I am sorry." He whispered crying. "I am sorry."

"I am changing, right?" I asked him. "You gave me your blood? Or was it Damon? It couldn't be him, he's far."

"He's here, but no…It was Meredith. Your bleeding was worse than she told and she gave you vampire blood to heal you."

"I hate her. I hate her!" I yelled.

"Hey, hey…Calm down. Please, calm down. Everything will be fine. I will help you. I promise."

"How can you help me when after 160 years you still can't control the urge for blood? How can you? Leave me alone. Leave!" I yelled. "Get out, Stefan!"

"Elena…" He touched my face and I pushed him away.

"Go, Stefan. I don't want to complete the transition."

He got out of the room without a word more.

I didn't want to complete the transition. I didn't want to be a vampire. I didn't want a misery of eternity. Damon controlled his urge, but Damon was different. I was nothing like him. I could never control. I was like Stefan, I guess that's why I loved Stefan, because we were similar.

"Get out!" I yelled as the door opened, but then I saw Damon enter and then I just looked at him. "You're alive!" It was great to see him. Since I thought I'd never see him again I was excited to see him.