There wasn't a single thing I could do when that tornado tore through the heart of Arcadia Bay.
No amount of turning time back would save it; the same with preventing your death. Oh, universe, why must she die?! After everything we went through, after every reversal, I end up at the same result. There has to be a way out of this!
But, anything short of me dying...
You wouldn't let me die willingly. You're the kind to stubbornly refuse, again and again, if it wasn't to be her own way. I only wish you wouldn't... Die, all the time.
So, here I sit, the bench where I had confessed knowledge of my powers to you. Right here, where you comforted me no matter how weird it was for me to be spacing out. Maybe there's a lesson in all this, watching you die and die again...
The gun in my lap is forever becoming more and more tempting. One bullet is all it takes to kill someone. All the time, all the damn time! And yet, I believe I can find a way to bring you back, or to stop you from dying... Should I really die like this? Maybe this is the only way, maybe this is all I can do now that my time has run short.
What if I found another photo, and went back to then? Could I even find a way to accomplish this?
Maybe if I went back, and I died... You, and all of Arcadia Bay, wouldn't have to suffer this fate. The winds rip and tear at my clothes, and my chest feels so heavy. I want to give up, I want out of this cycle. Oh, Chloe, why must you always die?! I... I cannot take it anymore! I'm so sick of seeing you die all the damn time!
What if... What if I went back, and decided to keep in touch with you? Would that change anything? O-or, somehow befriending Rachel, so that she also did not have to die? So many things I want to do, and yet, all of them are denied, again and again, as though I don't have a choice in this all. I never had a choice in any of this.
Oh, but my head hurts. It hurts so bad. I just want you to come along and erase all this pain with your presence. I want to be able to go to your house, and go to your room, and be able to know you once and for all! 'Til death does us part... But I can't let go. Not now, I'm so close, I'm sure of it.
One last... Try... To stop the inevitable. Chloe, won't you live on with me?
I have to do this. I have to try my hardest to just... Push through! I'll go back so far that this tornado won't even occur, I'll find something, I'll find a way! Though, for now...
I guess I should get up and have breakfast.