Yullen Week 2014: Until the End I'll fight alongside you.
A/N: This is my first year writing for Yullen week so wish me luck and I hope you all enjoy!
Rating: Teen
Prompt/Theme #1: Halcyon- "denoting a period of time in the past that was idyllically happy and peaceful."
Kanda sat across from the white haired boy, scrutinizing his every move, and all the same, studying the boy intently. The urge of wanting to see the boy crumble beneath the facade of a smile, and being a 'savior' of sorts to bring out a true smile, conflicted inside him on a daily basis.
"Oi, Moyashi," Kanda noted to the boy, holding an index finger to the side of his lip, indicating for the boy to notice a stain upon his own face. Allen's eyebrows furrowed. "What?"
Kanda felt a migraine forming. "Che,", despite his rather annoyed expression and typical scowl, Kanda decided to help. Allen felt a warmth form inside, due to the older male's proximity. The older male leaned over, taking a light tablecloth in hand, and brushing it against the boy's lips. The moist yellow curry sauce, vanishing from Allen's porcelain skin.
Allen gasped a bit, feeling the rather gentle touch. Although as soon as it started, it was gone, he felt Kanda's long bangs brush against his cheeks as the older male leaned back. Allen's mouth opened slightly. The younger boy figured it was of no use, the blue haired male, brought his chopsticks to his lips, mouth full of Soba. It's not like Kanda was rather talkative to begin with.
The white haired boy pouted slightly, the two had been on missions practically non-stop. Kanda had spent enough time at the Asian Branch, much too much, for Allen's liking. Yet, now it seemed like, they finally had this time, and they kept acting like strangers.
There were so many thoughts lying dormant in the air. If Allen missed Kanda. If Kanda missed the Moyashi. What took him so long on missions? Was Allen's arm healing up since his last exorcism in Germany? Were Lenalee and Lavi still together? And how the hell did that girl put up with the rabbit for so long?
Yet, they said nothing. Well, Allen knew he'd have to begin. If he wanted to start anything with Kanda, and now was as good a time as any.
The white haired boy looked to the side, seeing several of the exorcists gazing at the two. Perhaps Allen could call the look off on the mountain of food before him, eaten in less than 20 minutes. Although Allen knew what they were staring at. This was the last time he confided in Lavi ever! All it took was one day. One day! And it seemed like the whole Order knew.
Knew that he…That Allen had…that Kanda to him was…
Allen groaned a bit in frustration, he couldn't even bring the words to pass. Who knew how long they could be together like this.
Well it's not as though they could even consider themselves friends…Kanda hadn't taken him into interest enough to be a rival. They simply were here.
The white haired boy looked to the side, Lavi and Lenalee eating peacefully at the table across the dining hall. Lavi imitated a whistling motion, two fingers prodded in his mouth, giving a wink to the boy. Lenalee simply smiled, knowing.
Allen groaned for the second time.
At the sound Kanda's attention was drawn, his face lifted up. He stopped his earlier motions and places down the utensils at his side. His eyes were focused solely on the boy, and in a rather dark scowl. One would have to know him well enough to see the bit of light, in his eyes, beneath all that darkness.
Kanda scoffed, sitting up abruptly, and grabbing the white haired exorcist by the wrist. "Come. With. Me."
Allen had little time to protest before being dragged out of the room by the older man. He could've resisted sure, but right now, he was in too much shock. Kanda usually left him alone, and hardly ever wanted to be alone, with him. Did he hit his head or something?
Lenalee and Lavi looked back smiling at the twosome as the exited through the corridors of the black order.
The long haired man, dragged Allen through the halls, his grip, on the boy's hand, loosening. It became more familiar, his touch, more like a comrades then an enemies.
"Here, sit," Kanda instructed letting go of Allen's wrist. The younger boy looked up, mountains of books, aligning the room. Some books were shelved while others laid there carelessly. Kanda appeared to be looking through some of the books. Kanda's eyes opened up as he finally found what he was looking for.
Thin fingers trailed across the shelf as they pressed, and pulled out the item. Kanda sat down across from Allen, his expression rather indifferent.
"Oh, right the mission.." Allen laughed a bit, that must have been why the older exorcist even bothered to sit with him at lunch.
Kanda smirked, "Don't get so down now Moyashi, what happened to your dedication of being a savior?" Allen turned to the boy, mouth opened slightly, did he really want to fight with him now?
"It's nothing Ba-Ka-n-da" Allen sounded off Kanda's name, in a rather mocking sing-song tone. He felt his cheeks fluster. Kanda had lightly brushed his own fingers past Allen's hand moving the book toward him.
When Kanda brushed off the small bit of dust off the cover of the book, the younger boy took notice. Allen's mouth went ajar, and his eyes widened. "Kanda...", the boy said quite fondly. The words read 'The Language of Flowers'.
"So is this so-", Allen began, Kanda scowled a bit of a flush shining upon his cheeks. Although in the swordsman's defense, it could have been a trick of light.
"Stop, Moyashi before I change my mind…" Kanda sighed, fingers brushing lightly against the boy's hand, this time it lasted a bit longer. Allen felt heat rising all across his body. Kanda opened the book, to a certain page displaying- "The Lotus! Kanda so this means-"
The older male groaned a hand placed over the boy's lips, encouraging him to keep silent. "You kept ranting this morning, all across the order's halls I might add, about how you know little to nothing about me. Asking again and again questions like; why the Lotus blossom?" Kanda began, Allen's mouth finally free and opening to interrupt but Kanda stopped again, continuing. "Why is it the only time we talk is during missions? Why am I so cold to you? Why can't we be friends? Why do you never get time to know me? And god dammit, why of all things do you, Moyashi feel the need to know me more? To know more about me." Kanda took a long drawn out breath, finger pressed against the boy's lips.
"So I thought this could be a start," Kanda mumbled his words, barely audible had Allen not been listening so intently. "At the very least, as teammates on this mission, we could become…more familiar.. I mainly just want to keep you occupied for a bit, so I can stop hearing that irritating Moyashi voice of yours…" the blue haired exorcist scoffed again, finger placed off the boy's lips now allowing him to talk.
"Kanda…thank you," Allen replied rather politely his hand grasping onto the older male's hand. 'He'll probably be disgusted with me for this but…I..' The white haired boy leaned forward feeling his bangs fall in front of his face. "I really" and Allen grabbed the older man's hand with his own. Kanda didn't react, which for Allen, was a good sign, and let him do as he pleased.
"really wanted to know you better…things have been difficult since I arrived here, and I hate the feeling of being a stranger to you or anyone here. We're supposed to be like family," Allen smiled up at the older man.
Kanda did not retract his hand, in fact he held tighter onto the boy's hand. A light chuckle, very foreign to Allen and Kanda himself, escaped the blue haired man's lips. "Heh, Moyashi …Of course there's going to be conflict, and it's just as idealistic as ever of you to think we can become a perfect family during a time of war."
The words had meant to discourage Allen, yet the boy seemed rather lost in thought. "I mean you act like we're living in the Halcyon for kami's sake!"
"Halcyon?" Allen prodded, the word clearly getting his attention.
Kanda sighed, "Yes."
"Isn't that like a name of photographer or something?"
Kanda groaned, a hand that had previously been holding Allen's own, now resting on his forehead. "No!"
"Or well isn't Halcyon some part of a card game…? Isn't Halcyon a type of bird or?"
"Moyashi."
"Yes."
"Please stop." Kanda sighed, feeling the headache form again. He wasn't sure why he came out here in the first place, or why he bothered. Yet, that unsettling feeling, swelling against his chest, began to form. Why this began he couldn't fathom, but since it started, he had trouble fighting it down. To think an Akuma could be slayed in an instant yet a young teenage boy, naive as ever would cause him distress.
"I'm referring to a period in time, the Halcyon period. Essentially a time where things are calm and peaceful." Kanda explained breathing in deeply, rather discouraged with himself, not being able to stay as angry at Allen's rather moronic state of mind. "Baka" was all he managed to spat out.
Allen attempted a retort of "Bakanda!", but it hardly had an impact. Allen's words held no real sting and Kanda wasn't in the quite the mood to argue.
The white haired exorcist, took another shot, moving his seat closer to the older male. His hand grasped the male's hand firmly. His eyes were sharp and holding Kanda's gaze. Then in a breath, Allen's face relaxed to that typical smile. One that irritated and worried Kanda all the same. "Well..I'm almost glad it's not a peaceful time."
"What?" Kanda responded rather baffled, "Are you a masochist now?"
Allen shook his head, "I mean yeah there's been a lot of pain in my life…some unbearable but had I not been born with this arm-" Allen motioned the gloved hand, not holding Kanda's and continued, "I would have never…never met Mana..or Cross. My friends at the Black Order," Allen paused, the older male was sure to be disgusted, well assuming that did not share the same attraction, yet he had to let him know.
"Had I not been living in this time, had we not been cursed to fight akuma day in and day out. I'd never have met you Kanda," Allen replied a soft smile as his face leaned in closer to the older male, a warm smile. He leaned back in his seat, grip loosening and preparing to leave.
'Kanda probably has had enough of me by now' Allen inwardly reasoned, before feeling a hand grasp around his wrist, tightly. Allen was pulled back down towards Kanda's level.
The man had a rather sinister looking smirk, on his lips. before he pressed them swiftly against the younger boys. Allen felt his eyes widen to a near impossible level, he felt his heart pounding against his chest, but quickly gave in. His eyes closed tightly for the few seconds of the remaining kiss. He wanted to feel this part of Kanda, and truly know him as well. The thought of Kanda actually doing something like this was beyond any scenarios that came to mind. He expected harsh rejection after admitting he wanted to know him more…and had he known he was gay, Allen was sure Kanda wouldn't react kindly towards his attraction yet-
"You talk way too much, Moyashi." Kanda broke the boy out of his thoughts, the heat upon Allen's lips still burning. His eyes seemed to show a more honest light to them, and Allen was able to see something beyond a scowl.
It wasn't quite a smile, but Allen knew, he knew he was making progress. The two sat in silence for a moment, looking at their intertwined hands. "So...does this mean you also may want to know more about me?" he asked, perhaps already knowing yet wanting to hear Kanda's voice again. Their faces were still rather close, noses nearly touching and he felt Kanda's breath against his lips.
"You're even a bigger idiot that I thought you were, Moyashi." The swordsman noted to the boy. Planting his lips, against the boy's forehead before straightening himself up and getting up from his seat, as if preparing to leave.
"W-wait Kanda!" Allen cried out, rather flushed. "Where are you going now."
Kanda looked back at the boy, waiting quietly. "Come on," he said motioning with his hand for the boy to follow. A smirk on his face as he noticed the boy reddened expression before hurridlly catching up to him.
There was still quite a lot Allen did not know about Kanda. One being as exorcists how much time they truly had, but for now, Allen could feel at peace. Such a troubling time, the next day they could be rushed into a war, but at least this time he'd be at Kanda's side, without guilt for how he felt around him. This time he was not alone, and he could find peace at Kanda's side. The way it should be.
A/N: So yes there were references made of my friend, Magic the Gathering, and another definition for Halycon. This was honestly the hardest prompt I've done as I couldn't think of anything for the longest time, but still quite fun. Looking forward to the 13 other main and alternative themes. Thanks for reading xoxoxoxo