Chapter 1

It was a sunny winter day, children played outside in what was left of the snow and grown ups had get together with their families and neighbors. But what was I doing on this day? I was drugging myself so I could see her is the answer. I took the syringe and injected it into my left arm. I closed my eyes waiting for the drug to take effect. When I opened them there she was in front of me. Her strawberry blonde hair swayed everywhere as she moved towards me. She smiled at me and sat next to me. My heart started to beat rapidly as I watched her inch her face closer to mine.

"Huey.." I could hear someone calling me, It was a males voice. The voice caused Jazmine to fade back into my memories.

"Huey!" The voice called again. It felt like my heart was about to jump out of my chest.

"I'm calling 911!" I heard the voice say before I blacked out.

I woke up in a white blank room and it felt like my head was going to split open any second now. The IV connected to my arm made me realize that I was in a hospital room. I looked over and saw Riley siting in a chair and looking out the room's window. He finally turned to me and spoke.

"Are you stupid?!" He shouted.

He had every right to be mad I left him to take care of our unstable grandfather alone.

"I can't watch you and Grandad all at the same time. Huey you need to stop using drugs! Shes not coming back get over it nigga!"

I looked away. He was right she was not coming back not after what I did to her. I closed my eyes and thought about the day she left me. The way she looked at me with those eyes. The beautiful emerald eyes I loved so much reflected so much pain in them.

"You need to stop thinking about her." Riley said in a normal tone of voice. He looked out the window again and then back at me.

"You need to stop doing drugs just to see her. Grandad could be dying any day now and you're just doing LSD all day so you can hallucinate and see Jazmine."

I looked at the floor until I noticed someone come in.

"Hello Mr. Freeman, may I speak to you?" A midlled aged man spoke to my brother.

Riley should not have to be going trough this and yet he is because I'm a selfish bastard. I'm making my little brother who just graduated from high school take care of not only our sick grandfather but of me aswell when I should be the one taking care of him. And all this because I can't forget her. I can't and I will not try to. She was no scratch that is the only girl that I will ever love. Riley walked back up to me.

"The doctor said you had a heart attack."

Riley sighed before looking out the window again. I could tell he was exhausted. He had dark circles under his eyes.

" He also said a therapist should be coming to see you so he or she can sign you up for rehab and talk to you." He added.

I nodded and closed my eyes, maybe I could see her in my dreams.

"Huey look!" Jazmine said with a bright smile on her face. She had dragged me into a pet store.

"Aren't they cute?" She pointed to the dogs.

"I want one." She added.

"What's the point on paying all that money when they are going to die soon." I said.

Jazmine slapped my arm.

"Don't say that." She looked sad but got over it after a clerk asked her if she wanted to pet the puppies.

I watched her play with the golden retrievers. She was seventeen but still acted like a twelve-year-old girl.

"I'm going to ask my daddy if we can get one." All of a sudden her eyes popped like she had realized something.

"I have an idea why don't we get a dog and it can belong to me and you. Of course it would stay at my house since Mr. Freeman doesn't want an animal running around his house."

"No thanks." I said with the normal scowl across my face.

"Aww come on Huey it would be fun and besides it can be practice for when we have a child."

I blushed. How could this girl all ready be talking about kids when we have only been dating for five months. She just looked at me with a smile. And the truth is I could not resist that look that's why I agreed to her little idea. She went home and asked her parents and of course they said yes since Jazmine was their only child and little girl. The next day we went back to the pet store and bought one of the golden retrievers.

"What should we name him?" Jazmine asked as she held the puppy to her chest.

"I don't know choose something." I said as I carried all the supplies the puppy may need.

Jazmine placed a finger on the corner of her lips and made a humming sound.

"What about Huey JR?"

"What no way." I said looking at her like she was crazy.

"Aww come on. You're the one that said I could name him."

"Jazmine we are not naming your dog after me."

"Our dog." She corrected me.

"And fine since obviously I can't pick the name what do you want to name him?"

I thought about it for a while and then spoke.

"Lets name him Haki after Haki Madhubuti."

She looked at me and then at the dog.

"Say hi to Momma and Papa Haki."

I rolled my eyes and kept walking.

I awoke from my sleep and looked over to my right and saw Riley sleeping on the chair. I wanted to stand up and walk around for a little while. I looked up at the clock on the wall that read 3:45. It was 3:45 in the morning. I looked over back at Riley he probably left grandad under Tom's care. I unhooked the IV from my arm and then the heart monitor from my finger. All of a sudden the heart monitor went flat and about five nurses and the doctor came rushing into my room. Even Riley jolted up awake and ran up to my bed side.

"He is fine everyone." The doctor pointed out the obvious.

"I just want to take a walk." I informed them.

"I'm sorry but you must stay here for tonight. Tomorrow you may go for a walk but for now rest." The doctor informed me. Everyone walked out the room but not before they made sure the IV was back into my arm. Riley looked at the clock.

"I should be going. I can't let Tom stay over all night. I'll be back in the morning." He said as he grabbed his book bag and walked out the hospital room.

I closed my eyes and wondered what Haki was up to I missed him as well, Jazmine had taken him with her after she had moved out of her parents house. We were supposed to go and live together but we could not, not after what I did to her. I closed my eyes and thought about that day.

"Huey how could you do that..." She had tears in her eyes.

"Why would you do that to me? After all these years of me being by your side you would cheat on me with Cindy, My best friend! And you possibly got her pregnant!" Hurt flashed into those beautiful eyes.

She fell down on her knees I tried to help her up.

"Don't touch me!" She yelled as she swatted my hand away.

I watched her cry into her palms.

"I'm-"

"Don't fucking say you're sorry! Sorry can't fix this Huey, I feel betrayed by you. We've been dating for three years and you do this to me!" I never saw Jazmine this mad.

"Jazmine I was drunk. Please forgive me I only love you!"

"Bullshit! You fucking bastard I hate you!" She said as she punched me and ran into her house.

I woke up from my nightmare. Thinking about how I lost her always managed to make me depressed. In the end I was not the father of Cindy's baby, some guy named Paul was. But I still lost Jazmine. It was day time now and I looked over to see if Riley was siting on the chair but he wasn't. I heard a knock at the door and the doctor walked in.

"Your therapist should be here any second so be patient for a few more minutes, I promise after you meet and talk with her you can get up and walk around."

I nodded and he walked away.

After what seemed to be forever my therapist had arrived but I did not turn to face her I was still focused on the window. The only reason I knew she had arrived is because of the clicking sounds her heels made as she walked in. There was a moment of silence and I wondered why she had not spoken for an entire minute, usually therapist would talk to you and try to get you to talk to them. As I turned my head towards her I noticed her curly strawberry blonde hair and her Emerald green eyes. My face went from a bored expression to a shoked one. It could not be her could it? It could not be..

"...Jazmine..."

AN: So this idea came to me randomly, pretty much I was doing nothing and i tought about this chapter and since i felt like it was pretty good I had to write it and share it with you guys so here it is. Please tell me what you lovely readers think about it and if i should post the second chapter.