Sometimes she wonders how this all started, and whether this thing they're doing is dysfunctional or not. It doesn't break Air Force regulations, they're the same rank but they can't really date like normal people, not when their lives are in danger on an almost daily basis and the fear of losing one another is growing even stronger. She wants things to be simple and easy but knows that life is never like that. Instead, they're simply themselves. Living almost like each day is their last, clinging to each other in private with words unspoken. Spending more time having sex and reassuring each other that they're still alive, than sleeping or talking.