A present for my loveable best friend Panda. Her request was "Sexy Ed."

Disclaimer: Are you retarded?

"Mom! Mom! Look what I can do!" A five year old Edward Elric beamed, before quickly drawing in the sand before his mother's feet. His mother was quickly swept off the ground and found herself on a bench covered with roses and lillies and daffodils.

"Happy Mother's Day, mom!"

The real sixteen-year-old Edward Elric jumps awake, drenched in sweat. He tries and tries again to go to sleep
- but the dream repeats over and over and over - replaying enough times to make one insane. He had shot out of bed so many times, he eventually decided just to stay awake.

And that's how he had wound up here, at three AM, in front of his mother's grave.

It just wasn't fair.

There were so many children in this world without mothers who survived fine and were strong (unlike him) and - who didn't try the forbidden to bring them back, he added - sweeping one hand over the smooth gravestone.

Amazing how everything always happened to him.

"Some karma there is in this world.." he mused, playing with a petal from the flowers he had just put down.
"Makes you doubt there's even a god anywhere..." he chuckles slightly - like he's going insane.

First his father had left and then his mother had died and the Al had lost his - Ed shook the memory from his mind.

There were so many kids who don't care for their mothers and here he was - at age sixteen, no less - wanting a mother more than anything else in the world.

So pathetic...

He's had a lot of adventures in his life - but nothing compares to his childhood in that old country house - he glances far down the road to where only a few ashes remain.

Amazing how there's even ashes there after all this time.

He wanted to rewind time to back when he was littler - to that that mother's day before she died - when he was so small and scared of thunder and his mom would let him sleep with her. And then after snuggling for three minutes he would get up and declare "I'm too old for this!"

And here - right now, he wished he could have stayed at least 5 seconds longer.

So he could have told her - Happy Mother's day, mom. I love you.

He opens his mouth to say that now, but nothing comes out. He settles with just turning on his heel and walking away.

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