When I first saw Graham, it was one of the moments when I thought to myself

"Wow that guy is cute, but it's not like he would ever actually talk to me". Especially since he went to a different high school that was on a completely different side of town that I was on. But he was just so cute! He was playing a ukulele and was talking to another girl from his school whom just so happened to be my friend as well. Anyways, this all happened at choir camp. I tried to convince myself many times to build up the courage to talk to him but I never had the guts. So after a week of admiring from afar, I left choir camp empty handed.

When I got home, I started adding all of my new friends from camp on Facebook. After adding a couple, his name popped up on my "People You May Know" list and I was shocked. But since I never actually talked to him, I debated whether or not to add him. I felt reeeeally creepy. Even though it was about midnight, I texted my best friend Grace to ask for her advice. Of course, she knows how I am always too scared to talk to guys I like (Which is why I was eighteen and had never been kissed) so she really convinced me that I had nothing to lose if I just clicked the send button. Still, I was so nervous that I could hear my own heartbeat.

Basically when I finally decided to send the miniscule request, I did it wincing and with my eyes closed. I think I even went so far as to close Facebook and open a new site (shocking, I know). I don't know why I even had any hope that he would respond right away because it was about 1 am, but I was a wreck. All of the sudden there was a slight bloop from my computer. He accepted it?! Right now?! Wow.

Now what? Stalk him of course! Hmm let's see. He's from Minnesota! No wonder he's so tall. That is sure a long way from Texas. Aw he plays guitar! I love musicians. He has one little sister in middle school. Cute. Dang his dad is a pastor. That's intense. Gosh he is so cute. Ugh I wish I would have talked to him. Why do I have to be so darn chicken? He seems like such a nice guy...

Well, why don't I just talk to him. The chat button is right there. All I would have to do is click it. And say what? Hi? I don't even know him at all! But what if he's really cool? Or what if he's a douche? Ugh I read way too into things. Back to Grace for advice again. She tells me to do it! Ugh why Grace? Now I'm conflicted. Actually I've been conflicted. But now Grace is pressuring me! I hate letting her down because of my chickeness. Ugh just do it! You have nothing to lose. He's goes to a different high schooland y'all are both going to be seniors so y'all can be mature about it. That seems logical. Okay, here goes.

Me: Hi (:

Wow I am an idiot! Why would he ever talk to me? He's tall, I'm short. He's white, I'm hispanic. He goes to a higher class high school, I go to a middle class high school. Ugh there are obviously a billion reasons why we would never work out anyway so why did I even try? Regret regret regret this.

Him: Hey :)

Ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh. Am I getting somewhere? I can't believe he replied. Keep it simple. Ask what he's up to and just talk like you've known him for a while. Breathe. Don't be weird.

We talk about random things like Netflix, Starbucks, and even high school stereotypes. Good thing he's a little strange just like I am. He's really funny and actually laughs at my jokes too! Our conversation consists of random capitalized letters for emphasis and we both poke fun at each other in a friendly manner. Is my flirting actually working? Ha! That's a first. I was getting a little sleepy and realized it was getting close to 4 am! Even though I really liked talking to him I decided to make my exit. He seemed bummed that I was going to sleep and said goodnight sweetly.

He also gave me his number.

This is big. I am captivated.