Hey, so this is my first Vampire Academy fanfic. I've started it out strangely (at least to me its strange) but I hope you guys like it. Please Please Please leave me a review, good or bad. If this story really does suck I can't fix it if no one tells me.

His dark hair was the first thing I saw when I opened my eyes and sat up. There was no mistaking that head of hair for anyone else, as much as I wanted it to be anyone else. It couldn't be. It was Dimitri. As I stood up I realized this had to be a dream. ignoring the fact that I was wearing a white princess dress, there was just something dream-like about all of this. Everything seemed to glow a bit, there were no shadows, no darkness. Lissa was far from my mind at that very moment, all that mattered was sifting through the tall grass and getting to Dimitri before he vanished again. After taking a few steps towards him he seemed to feel my presence. His whole body twisted to face me. That smile ,that use to make my days complete, teasingly spread across his face. His eyes beckoned me closer, faster. Walking seemed like an arcane practice to me at that point and I broke out into a sprint, My hand reaching out to touch him. As I came close a voice stopped me dead in my tracks.

"Little Dhampir, he's not really there." Adrian's voice fit in well with the dream that was fading quickly around us. It was soft and gentle, but the sun had began to drift away. the bright moon replacing it as Dimitri faded away like smoke in the night. Fiting I suppose given our lifestyle. Begrudgingly I tore my eyes away from the void of empty space where Dimitri had been and looked at Adrian, who seemed to have broken his promise not to sneak into my dreams. "After all this time Rose?" He looked at me completely baffled and I couldn't say anything. Out in reality I protected Lissa with my whole being, I protected all of the best I could, but here, here was different. I couldn't let go of my mentor, I couldn't let go of Dimitri.

My silence seemed to be the only answer Adrian needed.

"He left you." his voice was harsh and demanding, so unlike the Adrian I had grown to tolerate. "Where is the badass Rose I met so many years ago. Why is she still pinning over a man who did not see her worth? He's not worth it, Rose." I didn't want to do this, not here not ever. That's was why I kept this stuff to myself. I didn't have to answer to anyone but me. And I thought I was doing a Kick ass job for myself and everyone else.

Around me I saw the scene place out. Dimitri in his Guardian getup, strolling over to Lissa and I right after that attack. The Strigoi that tried to wipe us all out. his words cold and calculating as he told Lissa that he would be working for Lord Tarus. And then he left, without a good bye or even talking to me. It was a blow, one I did not want to relive now with Adrian watching.

"I'm still badass Rose. I'm not pinning for anyone." I said harshly, trying to push all of my feelings aside. this was supossed to be my safe place. and Damn it Adrian had just ruined it. I focused all my energy on pushing that son of a bitch out of my dream. he wasn't allowed here to judge me.

"Prove it."

I woke abruptly, his words still echoing in my head. I didn't need him or anyone else telling me what to do or how to feel. I was Rose Hathaway, the Queen's Guardian and I would do things however I damn well wanted to. my feet hit the cold wood floor as I jumped out of bed my anger welling inside me as the invasion of privacy i just had to endure. I was so beyond ready to tell Adrian off, when the mirror on the door distracted me.

My hair was getting long enough that it was becoming a hazard. I reflected back on why I didnt cut it when I graduated and then remembered the conversation I had with only with my rage I snatched a pair of scissors out of my desk and before i knew it, most of my long hair sat in a pile at my feet. It wasn't a pretty cut, but honestly the jagged look just added to my fierceness. Cutting my hair wasn't enough to quell my anger so I continued on with my journey to bitch out one spirit using jerk.

Lissa stood shell shocked just outside my door. Her blue eyes stuck on my hair, the poor girl was like a deer in the headlights. "Lissa, Lissa." I said loudly snapping my fingers in her face when it didn't work. she came to suddenly, shocked expression still on her face.

"Rose. He's back." She said gently touching my arm. "Dimitri is back."