So this is my first fan fiction I've wrote, well actually I've wrote more, I've just never got around to uploading them, and then they got deleted. So here it is, enjoy!

*I DO NOT OWN ONE TREE HILL, THE CHARACTERS, SETTINGS, BRANDS OR MUSIC INCLUDED IN MY FAN FICTIONS!*

Just a side note: for the time being, anything in italics is what Quinn is writing in her journal. I'll let you know if that changes.

Quinn sat at the dining table, every so often taking a bite out of her sandwich, while writing in her newly-bought journal.

Dear Journal. Everybody has a past. For me, it's not such a good one. I tried to change my ways, not just for me, but for my family, especially for Haley. They all trusted me, they all loved me, but most of all, they stood by me. But I know for sure if they ever found out about what I did, they would be out the door in a second. And Clay… he has been so honest with me about his past, but I just can't bring myself to tell him. I love him. He would never forgive me for this.

She fiddled with her pen, worrying that eventually someone was going to find this notebook.

I guess I just really want someone to know, it would lift a huge weight off my shoulders. The truth is going to come out someday, I just don't know if I'm ready for someday just yet.

As she finished writing her sentence, she heard the garage door open. Quinn swiftly closed her journal and almost sprinted up the stairs into her room. She placed the journal carefully under her mattress, and sighed a breath of relief. She was definitely not ready for someday.

"Quinn? You here?" Haley called from downstairs.

"Yeah Hales, I'm just… uhh getting changed!" Quinn answered back as she fumbled around with her bedspread, trying to fix it up so it looked as if it hadn't been touched. As Quinn stepped out of her room, she glanced over to her bed, and then glanced back in front of her as she closed her door and made her way downstairs to see her sister.

"How is the recording studio doing?" Quinn asked her sister as she walked over to the fridge to grab herself a drink.

"It's doing fine without me. I feel really bad I can't help with anything, I just don't think I need anything else on my plate at the moment." Haley replied.

"I know it sounds stupid, or weird, but ever since Mom died, I've seen things in a clearer perspective. Me and Clay, you and Jamie and Nathan, I've just stopped taking everything for granted."

"Oh, Quinny, it doesn't sound stupid. Mom's death has changed us all, some for the better, some for the worse."

"Thanks Hales, well I better get back to Clays, he says he has a 'surprise' for me tonight." Quinn told Haley.

"Well I don't want to get in the way of love! Thanks for looking after Jamie today, he really loves you."

"I love Jamie so much. And you too Hales, I'm glad you're getting better." Quinn told Haley as she pulled her in for a hug. "I'll just go get my stuff."

Quinn went upstairs and grabbed her Gucci handbag off her bed. She then rummaged under the mattress of the bed and clutched onto her journal and placed it in her bag. As she walked down the hallway, she glanced into Jamie's room and looked at the sleeping figure in amazement. She had a lot to lose.

So what did you think? Rate and review my story with what you thought of it and any suggestions! If I don't get any reviews I won't keep writing, so even one review is enough for me to keep writing!

The next chapter will be more of Quinn & Clay's relationship, and will also include some Naley! I'll keep writing and get it up as soon as possible!