When he wakes up, it's in juddering starts.
His eyes are the first to open, each flutter of his eyelids becoming progressively slower as an invisible weight bears down on them.
The world he sees in between each blink is scarcely better than the darkness behind his eyelids. Everything is a mess of muted colours blending into a dull grey at the very edges of his vision.
He hates it.
His body is tight, like a sack of Jello squeezed into a sausage skin. Gelatinous, shapeless and completely unresponsive.
Yet every hard-earned shift sends enormous feedback through his fucked-up skin. The slightest brush of his jelly arm against whatever surface he's lying on immediately transfers the sensation of something incredibly soft, hell, he can even feel the individual fibres pressed against him.
'what the actual fuck-!'
He stops wriggling, stops moving because he can hear a certain something coming, the blob of white on white that always approaches when he's getting hungry, the odd humming that swims into his ears even through the pressure clogging them up.
He doesn't make a peep, knowing what's going on this time, like always, some kind of fucked up routine.
He screamed the first time
They're feeding him according to some kind of schedule, whatever it is knows what he is, always talking to him, feeding and moving him, he remembers the bending they did to his legs, they were testing his jelly like reflexes? He doesn't know what they want, did they turn him into this? What is it for? And he can't even ask because he doesn't even understand or even properly hear what they're saying- how is he supposed to respond to their questions, what do they want?
He's terrified He's furious
The "feeding" is over. At least the chow, even if it's a liquid diet, is good.
The blobby mass leans over him and puts him back in his cage? Enclosure? and tightens the soft restraints on his body.
He can feel his stupid fucking body sink into unconsciousness.
Fuck thi-
The darkness swallows him down.
Author's note:
So, new Haizaki-chan is having a very bad time right now. Constant fear is very bad in the developmental stage you know~