A/N: There, I finished editing…And I spell checked!
I'm gonna keep this the same as before.
*Achem * I normally do not write romances, especially not for Gundam Wing, so don't flame me too much. However one thing I am pretty good at is song fics, so it shouldn't be too horrible. Anyway, read on and please review!
Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing people! Or this song! Leave me alone ya stupid lawyers! Go on! Get! ::starts swinging Duo's scythe around at baka lawyers. They scream and run::
Tee Hee…! I'm so good at scaring people! ::Duo clears his throat behind Mercury:: Uh oh…Gotta run! ::Warner Bro.-esque cloud of dust as Mercury takes off::
Run To You- Part I - by ChibiMercuryDeathScythe
I know
When you look at me
"But…but why?" Relena Darlian asked the young man as she stared at the torn pieces of her invitation fluttering in the breeze on the ground. Heero Yuy walked by her, wiping her crystal tears away with his hand. He looked right at her with his deep blue eyes.
"I'll kill you." He replied, walking away from Relena.
Relena, now two years older, pushed back the tears as she drove down the deserted forest road.
He never did see everything about me, did he?
There's so much
That you just don't see
Heero tried so hard to be the perfect soldier he never did stop and look at what was right there in front of him.
Relena frowned at the thought, knowing all too well that she was right but wishing that she wasn't.
But if
You would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
The farther she drove past the tall ever greens surrounding the narrow road the more her heart ached. The knot of nervousness in her stomach was making her feel ill and she wished she could just do away completely with anxiety. She tried to get past it by simply putting her mind on something else. The past.
So many times I had the chance to tell him how I felt, but I kept hoping that he would just look in to my eyes and realize it, even if he was looking at me through the aim of a pistol…
"Those are torpedoes, aren't they? Talk to me, Heero!" Relena cried out, hoping to some how get the boy's attention. Heero slowly turned around to face the persistent blonde. Relena was shocked to see and almost bewildered and confused look on his face on Heero's normally somber face.
"Relena…" he trailed off, blinking a few times.
"Heero." Relena breathed, grateful for the sound of recognition in his voice.
Suddenly she found her self staring at the barrel end of his pistol. The stone cold stare of a trained killer had returned to Heero Yuy's face.
"You're in over your head, Relena…"
The words still rang vividly through Relena's mind as though it were only yesterday she had been confronting the suicidal Gundam Pilot on the sub off the OZ Marina Base and not nearly two and half years ago.
I was always acting so brave and strong then. Sick of my pampered life in the high society I was raised in, I threw my self head long in to the first thing to come along that happened to look just the slightest bit dangerous and what I thought was going to be fun. Of course that 'first thing to come along' had to come in the form of a tall, blue eyes boy with wild brown hair and a certain…untamed look in his eyes that made me fall head over heels in love…
Now I'm chasing this wild boy to the ends of the colonies and all over Earth just so I can do something I'm not even sure he wants to hear.
So much for 'fun', ne Relena?
Oh, a lonely girl who's scared sometimes
And isn't always strong
So am I really strong and brave, chasing after a trained killed for three years, nearly getting my self killed at every corner, living through the destruction of a space battle ship, and all the while never knowing if the next gun shot might just be coming from
him?"No. I'm just as scared and as weak as the next girl, and just as lonely, too." Relena suddenly answered aloud, pushing back stinging tears as she pondered on her eventful, yet still lonely life.
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone
Why can't you see how much it hurts me to have you keep running away like this? So many times I haven't even got to say good bye or try to change your mind. Another mission would await you half away around the world or out in to Outer Space, but not once did you ever give a thought to the girl who's heart you'd stolen away.
So I sit, half way around the world or down here on Earth while you continue to fight for peace and justice for a society that rejects your kind, and I continue to feel lonely and hurt…and scared you're not going to make it out this time.
Relena sighed deeply at the depressing thoughts running through her mind as she pulled the car on to a main road. A sign indicated food and rest in a place up ahead, and Relena decided it was time to get something to eat, if only to possible lose the huge knot tied up in her stomach right at that moment.
But, now that I think back on it, you never even knew that my heart was longing for you. You hardly paid attention to me, only when I became a nuisance or a liability. Yeah, sure once or twice you would listen to what I was trying to tell you. You even danced with me at my going away party. You were still the perfect soldier, though. You who were trained to be unfeeling, unsympathetic, and undivided by your feelings in order to help you survive war could never understand the heart of a woman, could you?
I still…know somewhere deep down in side your heart you were a kind and caring person, and that thought, that reassurance keeps me running back to you, not matter how many times you push me away.
I want to run to you
I want to run to you
Won't you hold me in your arms?
And keep me safe from harm
Relena watched as the green pines that stretched up in to the sky and reached for the heavens with their peacock branches gave way in to quaint little country houses with two or three acres of forest land each.
Heero, I keep having this dream about you. I finally find you somewhere and when you see me you don't run away. Instead you take me in to your arms and hold me there just like I've always wanted. I feel safe there. So very safe. I haven't felt very safe since my father died. I would so love to feel like that again.
I want to run to you
But if I come to you
Tell me
Will you stay?
Or will you run away?
But will that really happen when I find you out there today? Or am I just dreaming a naïve schoolgirl's dream again? Will you run away just like always? Disappear in to the shadows of the night while I'm not looking and take off to some far away colony, millions and trillions of miles away from me, just like you have always done before.
Oh, my little prince of the stars...why can't I be your princess?
Relena sighed for what felt like the millionth time. Her vehicle neared the city. The acres of forestland and little farmhouses gave way in to stout apartment complexes and cute little shops with town squares near by.
Little children ran gleeful laps around mothers caring bags, pointing to different things in the windows with a hopeful smile.
Relena felt a tear come to her eye when she saw a young couple around her and Heero's age walking hand in hand, admiring the many things the shops had to offer.
She parked her car and got out, walking to a coffee shop and deli she had seen. She wandered in just in time to catch a piece of a conversation going on in one corner of the coffee shop. Two women where discussing colony politics, particularly what Vice Foreign Minister Relena Darlian had just done.
"Have you heard the news from the L-10 colony cluster?" one asked.
"No, what?" her companion inquired curiously.
"Miss Relena Darlian finally got them to sign in to the World Nation."
Each day
Each day I play the role
Of some one
Always in control
"Really now? That Relena, so in control of her life. She so good at what she does. After all she was the one to declare the idea of the World Nation in the first place. It must run in the family."
"I suppose you're right. The Darlian's and the Peacecraft's are two very influential pacifist families. They have to have their head on straight all the time."
Those two only know the political side of me, though. We're just as human as the next, and I may have my head on straight when I'm out in debates and signing peace treaties, but in the rest of my life...that's a whole nother story.
Relena sighed and decided not to dwell on it. She ordered her food instead. What the woman had said, thought, continued to eat at her as she left the coffee shop.
But at night
I come home and turn the key
There's no body there
No one cares for me
Relena took her food to a near by park. She sat now taking slow bite of a small sub sandwich, watching little kids run around a beautiful fountain set in the middle of the park and letting her mind wander back to what the woman at the coffee shop had said about her.
"That Relena, so in control of her life…"
Yeah, of course it's going to seem that way to other people, isn't it? The news doesn't broadcast about my love life or my life at home. They know good and well to leave that alone. So the general public doesn't know that I'm swooning over a guy who half the time doesn't even know I'm alive...or doesn't care. So I go about my business like everything is fine, but does my job make my lonely heart content? As much as I'd like to believe that my job could make me perfectly happy and not want any one at all in my like that, I know the answer to that question is no.
Relena sighed deeply again and looked up to the clear blue sky, Heero's lovely face flashing before her eyes.
Am I just chasing something that's never going to be mine? I'm too far along to start thinking that now. I will not back down. I have never backed down from Heero Yuy, and I'm not about to start just because I think this is completely hopeless. I've got to get my act together and get this over with.
What's the sense
In trying hard to find your dreams?
Without some one to share them with
Tell me what does it mean
Relena stood with a look of total determination on her face and headed for her car, ready to face her fear head on and finally tell Heero Yuy how she felt.
There's no point in me living my dreams, being able to live in this time of peace like I have fought so hard and defended my views for when I can't even share this time with the one I have always longed to be with. I only pray that he is really there and that this all works out…somehow.
Back on the road again and closing in on her destination, Relena let a smile creep up on her for the first time that day.
Now that I think about it, I wouldn't even be living in this time if it weren't for that boy. He made sure I survived in order to bring the peace that he, too fought so damn hard for. I guess that can be one comforting thought that I can take back with me if this totally blows up in my face.
Heero did care about me, the way a soldier cares about some one or something he's protecting.
"But does that really make any sense, Relena?" she asked herself. The question caused her to laugh at her own stupidity.
"Of course it does!"
So maybe I was wrong. Maybe it does take some kind of courage to do what I'm about to do. I may not be brave like him or even the other pilots that he fought with, but confronting your fears does take guts. I guess I'm not weak after all.
Still…Ms. Noin had a point. I am the same exact person I was two years ago when it comes to this part of my life. I'm just as much the Heero-Yuy-Obsessed-Princess-of-the-Sank-Kingdom that I was way back then…
I want to run to you
I want to run to you
Won't you hold me in your arms?
And keep me safe from harm
"Relena it's useless!" Lucrezia Noin exclaimed while following Relena in circles around the room as the blonde princess grabbed things and quickly threw things in a suitcase, "Even if he really is at the Winner mansion, what are the chances that really be able to break down his walls? You know he's a trained assassin! Once uncaring and cold, always uncaring and cold. I thought you realized that when he took off for the millionth time!"
Relena spun around, a flowered skirt crumpled up in her fist.
"And I thought you realized I love him, no matter how much he tries to push me away and no matter how many times he runs away!" she informed Ms. Noin through clenched teeth.
"This isn't love! It's a crush that got taken one step too far! It's obsession for cryin' out loud! Just the way it was two years ago. Relena would you please listen to some reason for once!" Ms. Noin called out after Relena had turned away in a huff and continued her hurried packing. Relena stopped what she was doing for a moment and turned to the window with a dreamy look.
"Call it what you will, but I know what I truly feel in my heart is love, and I know it's right, too. He was the one that told me it's all right to act on your emotions. My emotions-no, my heart is telling me to fine my true love. So I will follow Heero's own example and find him, because that's what my heart is telling me. So please Ms. Noin, just give me one last chance at this. Give me this much. If it doesn't work out and I can't get through to him, I'll return and go back to work like nothing ever happened. Completely forget about him. But I have to try, just once."
"Oh Relena…"
"But am I going to do that? No." Relena once again spoke out loud. Off in the distance a large and stately mansion set at the foot of a green hill appeared.
Destiny was closing in, and fast…
"Here goes nothing…" Relena muttered with a sigh as she pulled her vehicle on to a dusty undeveloped road.
Heero, please be there. Don't make me wait a lifetime to say what I feel...
Curving and twisting her way along the dirt road, she questioned herself for the millionth time if what she was doing was right.
"Of course it is! Why do I keep asking my self these kind of questions?!" Relena exclaimed in frustration.
When she realized that she couldn't give her self the answer to that question, not a straight answer that is, she frowned deeply and chose to ride the rest of the way in mental and physical silence.
After what seemed like forever she finally came across a paved road leading up to a circle drive way that passed right by the huge wooden double front doors. When Relena parked her car near the huge doors she quietly admired the house.
And I thought my family over did things...amazing to thing that probably only five people live here now.
She sighed, knowing she was stalling in the worst way, checked her reflection in the mirror, and sucked in a deep breath.
"All right, this is it. Do you know what you're doing?"
Her reflection only stared back in response.
I know that it's now or never. If I don't get out of this car and go face my fears...well, the rest of my life is going to be very, very dismal.
A/N: Okay, I've fixed this part here. Thank you every one for your reviews! Oi…Kami…here comes Duo again…By-e!!!!!