Azarath Metrion Zinfois… Azarath Metrion Zinfois…
I have to stay calm... always… otherwise people will get hurt. I'm not allowed to feel anything, love, sadness, happiness, anger… none of them… it's not fair!
Calm… centre… tranquillity…
Azarath Metrion Zinfois… Azarath Metrion Zinfois… Azarath Metrio- what?
That's my chant…'Azarath Metrion Zinfois'. Whenever I need to meditate I say those words, concentrate only on those words and my breathing. It helps calm my emotions.
Yes I know, why do I have to meditate? Why do I have to stay calm? You wouldn't believe me if I told you.
Try you huh? Fine I will.
My mother didn't want to have me. In fact the whole idea of me was forced on her. My father, Trigon is (get ready to laugh) a demon.
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You're not laughing? Why? I'm serious (I always am... because of my wretched heritage).
My father immobilised my ability to feel emotions. I have powers, telekinetic powers, I can move things without touching them. I can also sense others emotions…kind of ironic really. A trick of my fathers'… I can't feel emotions but he lets me have 'tastes' of emotion from others. It isn't fair!
Oh great…the window just cracked…must calm down…
Azarath Metrion Zinfois…
Where was I? Oh yes my powers. Well my powers are driven by emotion. The more emotion I feel the more power I unleash. Not a good thing. Things go 'klabamo' when they get unleashed, to put it in the words of Beast Boy.
It isn't fair (I'm calm), I'm trapped. I'm like a Raven (oh the irony) wanting to be free, to fly. My soul wants to fly freely and feel everything like normal humans do.
But I can't.
I never will.
So there's no use dreaming about it.
I'm a trapped soul, clichéd yes, but I'm stuck. I can never escape. I never will. So no use wishing for something that is never going to happen…
Azarath Metrion Zinfois… Azarath Metrion Zinfois… Azarath Metrio- do you mind? I'm meditating here…
Calm…concentrate…centre…
Azarath Metrion Zinfois…