They Don't Know
'I love you...and nothing in the World matters to me anymore. All that matters is that I'm always gonna be right here by your side. Words or whatever it is...I say this from my heart.'
So he says he says it from his heart. Yeah...I believed him. Like any fool who claimed to be in love. But it was different, I was in love. Maybe until now, I still am. I loved a man who I thought loved me in return. And for once, I didn't feel that rejection that I felt before. That hurtful feeling that kept me thinking.
Thinking...that a day without him, I couldn't get by. Who was this guy? I sound stupid just remembering the things I said. I made it seem as though it were just another trivial matter that I, Quistis Trepe stressed over. The way I let things break through to me. I had said all I ever wanted was to be his Big Sis.
Which was even more of a lie. I said that, my lips did...but my heart didn't. There I was, again, in that same empty spot. Standing there alone for the second time. It could have been worse, yes I know. But to go day by day seeing the man you had said you cared about with another woman...a friend...it hurts.
And I moved on...I had to move on. Left with no choice, I found what I claimed to be love. The word that I so much dared to speak, to feel. It hurt more than the first time...a million times more. Every word that he ever spoke to me, was lies. Lies that I took in, seriously. It all proved itself...with time. Time...time wasn't what I had anymore.
I didn't have time to wait around and think about it. I didn't want to wait around. So I kept it out of my mind. So you say I'm cold-hearted to act the way I do. But if anyone were in my place...they would think the same. Rejection, acception and deception. It sounds different, but one thing it has in common is that it is all felt with the heart. 'Words or whatever it is...I say this from my heart.'
If only he had really said it from his heart...mines wouldn't be broken.
I FELT AS THOUGH I WERE DREAMING. MAYBE I STILL AM.
NOTE: Okaey...ehhe..That was my first intro to the whole story. I knoe it sucked and was depressing. But more into the story, you'll actually understand why this is there to start with. WeLL, hope you can stick around to the next chapter at least. Short huh? Sorri..Tankies!
'I love you...and nothing in the World matters to me anymore. All that matters is that I'm always gonna be right here by your side. Words or whatever it is...I say this from my heart.'
So he says he says it from his heart. Yeah...I believed him. Like any fool who claimed to be in love. But it was different, I was in love. Maybe until now, I still am. I loved a man who I thought loved me in return. And for once, I didn't feel that rejection that I felt before. That hurtful feeling that kept me thinking.
Thinking...that a day without him, I couldn't get by. Who was this guy? I sound stupid just remembering the things I said. I made it seem as though it were just another trivial matter that I, Quistis Trepe stressed over. The way I let things break through to me. I had said all I ever wanted was to be his Big Sis.
Which was even more of a lie. I said that, my lips did...but my heart didn't. There I was, again, in that same empty spot. Standing there alone for the second time. It could have been worse, yes I know. But to go day by day seeing the man you had said you cared about with another woman...a friend...it hurts.
And I moved on...I had to move on. Left with no choice, I found what I claimed to be love. The word that I so much dared to speak, to feel. It hurt more than the first time...a million times more. Every word that he ever spoke to me, was lies. Lies that I took in, seriously. It all proved itself...with time. Time...time wasn't what I had anymore.
I didn't have time to wait around and think about it. I didn't want to wait around. So I kept it out of my mind. So you say I'm cold-hearted to act the way I do. But if anyone were in my place...they would think the same. Rejection, acception and deception. It sounds different, but one thing it has in common is that it is all felt with the heart. 'Words or whatever it is...I say this from my heart.'
If only he had really said it from his heart...mines wouldn't be broken.
I FELT AS THOUGH I WERE DREAMING. MAYBE I STILL AM.
NOTE: Okaey...ehhe..That was my first intro to the whole story. I knoe it sucked and was depressing. But more into the story, you'll actually understand why this is there to start with. WeLL, hope you can stick around to the next chapter at least. Short huh? Sorri..Tankies!