Just...Breathe
Danielle's thoughts at the build up to the Masque scene...
Well here I am, in this carriage with my mother's dress on. And her shoes as well...the ones I sacrificed my father's book for. All this fabric and I still feel naked. But this time it's because he isn't by my side. Henry...my Henry. Who promised me the world only yesterday and must now find out who I am...really am. Here I go, waving at the gate, I can't see their faces clearly but I'm sure that they are smiling. It's a good thing they can't see the apprehension in my eyes...
Will he accept me? Will he? I've known him for only a few days and now I am dependent on him to know how to live my future. I can't comprehend how I fell for him. I mean, he is so wonderful. But I still can contemplate where my plans went awry.
Were getting closer to the palace...why must this ride, one which is not anticipated, take so quickly? What should I say to him...how could I say it to him? The way I always have, with strength...or loyalty? No, but I have already broken that by lying to him of who I really am...although I never told him I was a noble woman. Oh, why is this so complicated? All this frustration and anxiety because of a name. One which is not even mine. I would love to hear say my name though...Danielle...just to know that he would acknowledge me for who I really am is all that I hope for.
The carriage has stopped. Here I am, outside the palace, with nobody around. I could disappear right now and no one would ever know. But I can't. Henry deserves to here the truth, from someone who loves him.
I'm on the stairs now, slowly ascending. A few steps more and I shall be in clear view of all at the masque.
3 steps left...
Here I proceed, with all my hope, my life in his hands and my heart on my sleeve.
2 steps left...
I want him to forgive me... I need him to forgive me. I need him to accept my for who I am, not what I am.
1 step left...
There's no turning back; here I place the rest of my life in the hands of the only man who can destroy it. Have faith Danielle and all shall fall into place...
He loves you...he told you he loves you...
At the top of the stairs...
You've done all you can Danielle...the truth must make itself known...
'Breathe...Just Breathe...'
If I just breathe…
Let it fill the space between
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe… every little piece of me
You'll see everything is alright
Everything is alright
If I just breathe… breathe
~ Breathe – Michelle Branch ~