The first and the last

The rain started falling as we kissed at our last moment.

This was meant to be the end of our friendship, but it just made it harder for me to leave. Soul society had decided to make us leave and let the substitute shinigami take care of all.

Three days ago

"Hey, Kuchiki!" a man called me.

"Hey, captain!" I greeted back bowing.

"Always so former… leave that for your brother Rukia. I need to tell you something that may be hard for you." Captain Ukitake said seriously. I had been recently given a seat in his squad.

"What's all about?" I looked at him again and took a hint of what he was talking about. "What's wrong with him?"

His eyes closed and he opened his mouth to say something but then closed it. Then he finally said "We've got a new order from central 46. There're two options. Killing the substitute shinigami or leaving him alone forever in Karakura Town however this takes you to take his place on the strand, and he would take your place protecting the city."

I was shocked.

"Wh- You can't do that, and since when we got another central 46?" I cried out.

"Sorry, can't talk about that to low ranks, only captains know about that. I know he is your friend, but orders are orders, and you were chosen to do that mission. If you want, we can send Captain Hi-"

"I'll do it. I involved him in this, and I'll take him away." I said lowering my head so the shadows would cover my tears. But Ukitake taichou noticed anyways.

"You're doing the best Rukia. I know it's hard for you. Just let him go. He is human, you're a dead soul. We need to leave him live his life alone." Ukitake said and left me alone.

"Yes. But is harder now to let him go. Harder because I love him." I murmured to myself. I pictured him, and I blushed.

I went for a hell butterfly and made my way through the senkai door.

While I was walking, I wondered, what the real reason for giving him my power was.

I didn't know him really well. I made him a lot of bad things; I almost killed him the night that my brother and Renji came for me. And if I told him that the decision was from soul society, he would come again for me. And for worst, he would win.

So what option did I have?

I wasn't even good for him. I wasn't enough for him. I was a little rabbit against one hundred hunters.

What could I do?

No second options. No second thoughts.

The gate came to an end and my stomach started hurting me. Was it by the end of my mission, or the fact that I would see him?

I didn't know really. I started making my way towards his house. The house once I called home.

Our happy moments together, flashed through my eyes, with numerous places. But then I saw one very special. The road in the city where I first saw him. The place where I saved him.

Then I kept walking. Finally I reached his house; it looked the same as one week ago. I also remembered here, the day I gave him my powers, and the day I condemn him, I damned him that day.

I felt guilty again. Just one second and a tear started running down my face. Two seconds and my eyes flooded with tears. Three second and the wind started blowing. Four seconds and started raining. Five seconds I watched his window with the light on. Six second I watched his window with the light off. Seven second and I watched his closed window open. Eight seconds and I watched him yelling at me to go with him to not get wet. Nine seconds he was out in his shinigami form. Ten seconds and he was using shunpo. Eleven seconds and he was next to me. Twelve second and his hand were next to my face. Thirteen seconds and his finger touched my eyes and wiped away a tear. Then the time stopped.

My heart pounded each time faster. Every time stronger than the last. I shocked my his hand caressing my face.

"Rukia, what's wrong? Why are you so sad? Did something happen?" He asked, his honey eyes cutting me like a thousand knives.

"Is not something that already happened. It's something that I'm about to do." I said my voice breaking at the end.

"What… are you talking about?" he said getting near to me "The last time I saw you like this, was when you… were… about to…" he stopped and took my hand with his. My body tensed completely. "You're not leaving right?"

"I'm so sorry. It's me. I can't watch you hurt yourself and suffer everyday by the things I did to you. I damned you." I said between sobs.

"But, you wouldn't be like this. Rukia, I know you very well, or at least that I think. I know you're strong and you don't cry by a thing so simple." He said his face close to mine.

My face getting hotter as he got too near, then I answered "Soul society gave me two options Ichigo. One: I'd leave you alone, and every shinigami would leave Karakura to your hands. Or two: Kill you." I said.

He panicked, he shocked, but even in that he'd pulled my face against his chest. He caressed the back of my head.

With the rain we were both really wet. But this was how it should happen.

"I know it's a hard choice Rukia. But we can fight. I fought once and I could-"

"You do not understand Ichigo." I interrupted "There is no second one. They got many problems when you attacked, and now they got the vizards down. You're the only vizard left, and if I give you to them, they'll use the same Kidoh that they used to kill all the other vizards."

"But…"

"But nothing. Sorry, but you can't go anymore to soul society for your own good. Please think about your family, you can't die trying to make me stay. You know that wouldn't be possible. Please stay and don't make things harder."

He pulled me away from the embrace and looked me deep in the eyes. "I'll do whatever you want, just promise me to visit."

"No. I can't come anymore to Karakura, I'm about to be reassigned to a new town with lot of hollows." I didn't say all the truth but he didn't notice.

He didn't reply. He just stared at me. He was so stupid. So hard headed.

He made everything so difficult and yet I loved him. I would die for him. I would sell myself for him.

My heels stopped touching the floor as I tried to take his height. Our faces were next to each other at the same height. Our lips were so close, so close that I felt his breath all over my face. I inhaled his sweet scent as I was near him. I stared deeply at his honey eyes, his perfect face, his perfect nose, and his dainty and gorgeous lips.

Our lips were about to touch but I decided to pull away.

Then I turned around and gave my back to him, I was too embarrassed to look at him. I could feel his eyes staring at my back.

"Why you pulled away?" He asked.

"As a Kuchiki I shouldn't kiss a-"

He cut me off "Do not act in front of me; you do not convince me with your Kuchiki mask."

"I…" I couldn't say it loud.

"Rukia, next time you come, I can swear I'll still love you the same." He said, full of hope that I would come back.

"That's the problem. I won't come back Ichigo. This is the last time you will ever see me." If you don't see my lifeless body later. I omitted the last part.

"What… are… you… trying… to say?" He asked afraid of what I said.

"I chose to leave you all. But for the price of my own."

"No… no… NO! I won't let you leave! You promised!"

"I promised to take you away from problems like Aizen. That was the promise I made last week. And I'm not breaking it." I said coldly. "Good bye, Ichigo Kurosaki." I said and turned around. Senkai door already open waiting me to go through.

He used shunpo in one second and stood in front of me. "You won't leave." He said and then crushed his lips on mines. We made our kiss as long as we could. Each other knew that we loved. Sparks flied, or at least that I thought, I was like electricity.

But we couldn't contain our necessity. I pulled away from the kiss. His eyes stared at me like a lover that hadn't seen his love in one thousand years. I almost died as I forgot how to breathe with his loving stare. He got closer, and I felt I didn't wanted to be anywhere else more than here. The time stopped again and it was like everything was frozen. He moved and embraced me, only to freeze the time again. Nothing mattered more than this.

When he kissed me, my senses came alive. No guys before made me feel like this. I never kissed anybody and never felt the necessity. His embrace made me feel so secure. I don't know if he noticed that I lost my focus. I've never felt something like this. There was no point to fight this.

"They're waiting me. I've got to go." I said breaking the lovely moment and coming back to the present.

"I love you Rukia." He said.

"I love you too." I said smiling faintly. I looked at him "Sorry, this will be our first and last kiss Ichigo. I won't come back."I said. With one last tear on my face, I turned around and walked through the door.

"The first and the last." He repeated.

My smile faded away as I reached soul society.

Everybody got their happy ending.

Inoue had gotten Uryuu.

Chad found his grandfather in soul society.

Tatsuki dated Renji.

Matsumoto dated with Gin.

Momo dated with Hitsugaya.

Mayuri got a collection of arrancars for his experiments.

Everybody except me and Ichigo.

If I wasn't so blind, I would have seen Ichigo's love for me and I would have done something before.

But now it was late and there was nothing more to be done.

All the captains and vice captains were formed, at the end the Commander Yamamoto waited for me. Sword in hand. Renji and Byakuya weren't present.

"Kuchiki Rukia, what did you decided?" The commander talked.

"I'll die for him. Let him alone." I said.

"Then you know what happens to you right?" He asked

"Yes, and I agree. Please proceed."

"Such a noble sight." He murmured. I kneeled in front of him. He put the tip of the sword in front of my heart. "Any last wish?"

"Don't let him know that I'm dead please." I said begging for my wish to be done.

"We will." He promised and his sword pierced my heart.

My vision started to blur and my body lost its strength. My eye lids became really heavy, so they started closing. I looked everywhere. I looked at every captain. And with my last breath I said "That would be the first and the last kiss we ever had, Ichigo. Sayonara, don't forget me." My eyes closed and everything went dark. I floated all along the dark and I became one more particle of Soul society. A very violet one.

As I watched everything in soul society I saw my body disintegrating and every captain and vice captain crying or their eyes wet.

That was the last thing I saw.

The last thing.

So that's the end people. Please review.

You may have noticed some errors. please let me know about them, so I may learn 'cause my main language is not english. I just like writing in english xD