Ok this is realy depressing. It's from Jacobs percpective. I put some stuff that actually happaned in the books all the way up to Renesmee's actual birth. i hope you like it. i almost cried while i was writing it because i thought of all the depressing things about Jacob and Bella. oh well. please read and review

When she looks after his retreating back you want to hold her close and make her look at you that way, with all that love. But you don't. That would make it worse for her, harder.

She tells you that she loves him, you can't tell her. She smiles and laughs when she thinks you're happy so you make yourself smile as much as you can while inside you crumble.

She isn't perceptive. You should be glad. You can stay next to her and keep her warm while she sleeps in the cold and she will never notice your silent tears.

When she sees you all of her lights up with happiness and you think how unfair it is. Like she's teasing you, showing you what you can't have. But you won't tell her how it hurts. It'll just make her feel awful when she can't even understand your pain. Then she might tell you to go away and to find someone better.

You would be healthier if you could leave, but you never cared much about that anyway. You always made yourself a second priority compared to her. But she would hate to know that she was more important to you than anything when she already has someone to fill that spot for her. It isn't you.

So you sit there with your arm around her and watch her kiss him and see their silent looks of love while something else breaks inside you. You've tested the theory and it's true. The heart is the only organ that can still work after it's broken.

You give her all you have, she gives you smiles and hugs you close instead of telling you to leave and never come back like you need her to tell you. She won't let you go though unless you tell her how much pain you're in.

But the pain is better than leaving. So you stay quiet as she kills you from the inside out. With a pretty smile on her face and no idea what she's doing. Your pretty angel of death.

hope you liked it. please review i appreciate it more than you know. :)