Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha at all, that all belongs to Rumiko Takahashi

'He's off with her again...he left me to go see Kikyo...Ha it's so silly of me to actually think that'd he'd ever even consider loving me. His heart will forever belong to her. I have no chance.'

Kagome watched as the man she loved once again left to go see the woman he loved. Her friends didn't notice his absence, but that's probably because they have grown accustomed to it. He did it every time he would spot even one of Kikyo's soul collectors.

It was hard on her at first but eventually the pain of his loss numbed her to the point she hardly noticed the tears on her face. How could she not know that she wasn't even in league with someone like Kikyo...InuYasha made sure to remind her enough. "useless", "worthless", "Kikyo could've made that shot with her eyes closed", and so on and so fourth. But why does she still love him with all her heart when all he does is insult her?

It's because even in the slightest of moments he makes her happy. Even if its just getting to lay her head on his back when they are traveling. It's honestly the little things that make her happy. And it's those little things about her that makes her so pure of heart. She cares for others more than she cares for herself.

For example, the young kit that sit across from her laughing along with her other friends at something stupid that Miroku probably had done. He was her adopted son when his parents were killed by the thunder brothers so long ago. A full blooded youkai taken in by a miko. It was a strange pairing but she did love him as if he were one of her own. Feeding him and making him happy was one thing that he adored from her. She was a true mother he deserved to have, he only wished he didn't always feel guilty since his real parents were more than likely looking upon him and seeing how he calls her "mama" and she treats him as so. None the less he was grateful.

Then there was the taijiya, Sango. She was the sister Kagome never had. She had been very grateful for their journey together since she was before stuck with three males and her being the only female, it just felt much nicer having someone she could really talk to. The feelings were mutual from Sango since on many countless occasions she would bend over backwards to help her save her brother Kohaku from the hands of Naraku.

Miroku was the third and final male to have joined them on their quest for the Shikon jewels. The lecherous monk had always found away to make Kagome's skin crawl but he meant no harm. She knew that of course since his heart belonged to Sango the moment he laid eyes upon her. Kagome would go through large lengths to save him from his pending death of the wind tunnel in his right hand.

These were her friends. She loved them more than anyone, well maybe not her family, but they were absolutely second.

But there was always InuYasha...the man whom held her heart, yet always seemed to crush it in a moments time whenever it came to the dead miko. She did the most for him and asked for nothing in return. It had almost become a routine: they would fight off a demon, Kagome would almost die, they'd stop at a village to rest, InuYasha would spot a soul collector, run off leaving a pain stricken Kagome, he's come back and yell at her for being "foolish and worrying about things that aren't her business", and then the wheel would spin back around.
She risked her life for him everyday and never once did he display his gratitude. It was always "Wench hurry up bet Naraku isn't resting!" or "Make me some ramen!" Never was there a please or a thank you coming from his mouth, but since she loves him she aided to his wishes like the kind person she is.

'That's it...All I can be to him is a friend. Nothing more. Not like he'd want nothing more but I will just have to ton down around him. Maybe stay in my time longer and actually get school work done like I am supposed to be doing than going off on a wild goose chase for a man next to impossible to be found.'

Kagome promptly got up from where she was sitting alarming all her friends. "Guys don't worry." She started to shake her hands to put their suspicion to rest. "I'm just going to go for a walk. Yeah, a walk. A nice long walk..." She turned to walk out the door.

"Well ok Kagome, just come back before InuYasha or he'll throw another one of his hissy fits he likes do to when you're not with someone." Sango spoke before Kagome was fully out of the doorway.

The four sitting around a fire let out a deep sigh.

"I really don't see how Kagome deals with it...It's sad really. InuYasha is such an idiot to let a woman like Kagome suffer when he doesn't realize her feelings for him." Sango stared into the fire.

"Mama is too good for that bastard anyways. I really hope she can find someone who's love will be returned. Like Kouga?" Shippo spoke looking at the group.

"Yes, Kouga would definitely make sure our Kagome would be treated well." Miroku looked out the window behind him, the moon seemed to be bright that night. "InuYasha better open his eyes before she will lose her indefinitely." Turning back to his friends they all nodded. If not for their sanity but for Kagome. Someone as pure as she shouldn't have to suffer.

She walked a long ways from Kaede's village, she approached the Sacred Tree and looked up to see the barkless area that held InuYasha for that 50 years. It still looked fresh, no bark moved back over the spot. It left a reminder to many demons that tried to come to the village that their fate could be the same of that of the half-demon InuYasha.

Not far from the tree was the spot that took her to the Feudal Era, The Bone Eaters well. It was almost unbelievable that over a year ago on the other side of this well she fell down on her 15th birthday. Never would she of suspected an average girl as herself to be plunged into an adventure as this.

It wasn't as if she wasn't grateful to the kami's because she felt blessed to have been able to see her countries history, made friends that will last from this lifetime to the next, and finding what it means to love.

Shaking her head of all the thoughts roaming her head she walked towards the well with her backpack on her back and stopping as she stood before it. Taking one last glance of the place she stood she quickly jumped into the well. The glow of purple and pink transferred her from this time to hers.

It seemed like forever since she had been back in the Higurashi shrine. Stretching she walked towards her house.

"Mom! Souta! Grandpa! I'm home!" She yelled as she walked through the door.

Mrs. Higurashi walked from the Kitchen holding a bowl and stirring something. "Hello dear! Didn't expect you to be home so early. You and InuYasha didn't have a fight did you?"

"No mom...we didn't...but I was thinking of staying here for a while so I could go to school." She sat in front of their dinner table and looked at boyu who sat next to her.

"Was that Kagome that I heard?" Her grandfather walked into the room and looked around almost like couldn't find her sitting right in front of him.

"Yes, I came home for a while. School is important after all."

"Ah you sure you and that hanyou didn't have one of your fights?" His question made Kagome's eye brow twitch

"No! We did not fight! Is it so bad that I wanted to come home?" By this time Souta came running down the stairs to see his family in their dinning room, but he seemed to not hear their yelling a while ago.

"Did you and InuYasha fight again sis? You both are so stubborn..."

Kagome then slammed her hand on the table before getting up. "No no no! We didn't fight! There's nothing left to say! I just wanted. To. Come. HOME!" When she finished her rage she ran upstairs to and slammed her door shut.

"Well at least I can tell the school the cyst on her butt has gone away..."

"Oh grandpa...you're excuses..." Souta shook his head.

"Why do they always assume we fight!? Do I really need a reason to come back home? Am I a burden here too?" Tears started to flow from her eyes at that thought. "I'm a burden on InuYasha and now on my family...I can't win for losing..." She walked over to her bed and climbed in not even bothering changing from her dirty cloths into fresh clean ones.

"Stupid InuYasha...stupid stupid stupid..." She let herself cry to sleep the same way she has every time he would sneak away to see the undead love of his life...

A/N This is my first angsty story! I'm not sure how to feel about this first chapter since I started to think about how the next chapter should go. But a story has to start somewhere ne?

I feel like this story will go faster than my others.

Please forgive any spelling errors and/or grammatical errors. Those will be fixed in time.

Until Next Time!

dreammcatcher