Okay, so this is kinda like a little one-shot from when Cammie returns from her summer away. It's about how I think she feels and yadayadayad. This is Christina Perri's song 'The Lonely'. There, the story is disclaimed. I advise that you listen to the song as you read, it helps set the mood:)
Enjoy:
Two am; where do I begin, crying off my face again. The silent sound of loneliness Wants to follow me to bed.
Summer me has taken over my life. I can't sleep. I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most.
She won't let me train to be the best spy.
I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well.
I am not the same person as I was before, nowhere near the same.
Dancing slowly in an empty room, can the lonely take the place of you?
I am completely alone.
I sing myself a quiet lullaby. Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again.
I won't let anyone in. If I do, I'll just hurt them. Too afraid to go inside for the pain of one more loveless night. But the loneliness will stay with me and hold me 'til I fall asleep.
No matter how alone I get, it's for their safety. I have to protect the ones I love. Isn't that why I left in the first place? I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most.
I will probably never be as good as my dad. I'm not good enough.
I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well.
I will never be the same again. That's a given. Dancing slowly in an empty room, can the lonely take the place of you?
I'm isolating myself from my friends and family. I'm being engulfed by the loneliness.
I sing myself a quiet lullaby. Let you go and let the lonely in to take my heart again.
Its better this way. Everyone is safer this way. Broken pieces of a barely breathing story where there once was love now there's only me and the lonely.
I'm not really living anymore; I am just plain old lonely. And that's all I'll ever be. Until I decide to change.
So, there you have it:) I hoped you liked it and please review!
Xoxo
CherryRedLips