I'd just like to mention that this is way different from my usual writing style and way different from what I'm used to writing. I just thought it would be nice to change things around and try something new and I thought it would be nice if I started out on FF in a different way. I really don't think that this is my kind of writing, nor do I feel comfortable writing this. It feels different. I can't explain it exactly, but it's just not right. It just doesn't feel right-the way the words flow. And also, I've been writing in third person quite a lot these past months and I haven't written anything in first person for ages. I used to be very good when writing in first person, but now I've adapted into writing third person and it feels weird writing like this again. I guess this must be one of the things I've changed while writing this story. Another thing I've noticed is that I'm used to writing from a PERSON'S point of view, not a POKEMON'S... so I guess that makes another difference...

Disclaimer: I don't own Pokemon, never have, never will.

[EDIT - 12-25-11]

Now I bet you're tired of my rambling... I'll shut up, for now, and NOW LET'S GET THIS STORY ON THE ROAD! (:

I looked around the forest. Perfect. Nobody's around. But I should keep my guard up, just in case. Who knows what might happen right? I do not want to be seen by anyone.

I walked on. Trees... grass... bushes... green... and more Pokémon every once in a while. That's all I see these days for the past month. But I can't help but admit that sometimes, the other Pokémon are quite friendly and keep me company once in a while. Other Pokémon's company is okay, just not humans. Oh gosh, anything but humans. Humans are annoying, selfish and cruel - I mean why are they using us to accomplish their dreams? Why are they making us their slaves? And why are these Pokémon letting them do all that? Also, how are we supposed to be trusting those people who capture us for their own needs? Betrayal. I don't talk to them, just wild Pokémon. Pokémon that are actually happy in the wild, roaming freely without having anyone telling them what to do-those are the kinds of Pokémon I admire.

I am one of those. I am a Luxray who will not be become any trainer's Pokémon. I will not do anything they say. I am never going to obey a human. Never. Ever. I will not. Absolutely not. I will never let them capture me for their own selfish reasons. It'll be that way forever and always.

Sure other trainers have tried to catch me, but failed. Wimps-that's what they are. They battle me, I defeat their Pokémon, they run away. See? Cowards. And that's another reason why I don't want to be owned by a Pokémon trainer. Nor seen by one. They're going to try to catch me, and I have to waste my energy on them. They're all weak. I can train better by myself and become stronger than ever without their help. They're just slowing me down. Trainers blame their Pokémon for being so weak and powerless, but in reality, it's their fault for not training them correctly.

The bottom line is, trainers... they use us. That's it. They use us for their selfish purposes and to fulfill their dreams. But what about ours? Do they ever think about us? Do they ever think about our needs? No. Never. And when they're done with their dreams, they'll most likely abandon us and pretend that we've never meant anything to them. I've been down that path and I vowed to not let it happen to me again.

Where was I again? Oh yeah, trampling through the forest. Nothing in sight, just green, green and more green. Oh look, a green Pokémon. Another green thingy! According to my calculations, it's a Budew. Green, small little bud on top, and a bright smile below.

The cheerful thing waved at me with a bright smile, greeting me happily.

"Luuxray." I responded with a 'hi.'

The Budew smiled brightly as it turned towards me. "Buuddew!" Something about the weather, I presume. I'm not very good at Pokémon talk. I've spent my life way from Pokémon and people alike... I avoid them and try not to make conversations with them. So, I can't really blame myself for not being able to understand anything these Pokémon say to me. I don't quite understand other Pokémon language. Just my own and several other ones, such as other Electric Pokémon. She seems to understand me with no difficulty though.

"Lux." I agreed nevertheless.

"Buuud!" Energetic fellow. She, yes Budew's a girl (don't ask me how I know), said if I was having fun hanging around in the forest-or something like that.

I am an Electric Pokémon if she didn't notice! I don't have fun in forests. It isn't my ideal domain. "Luxx..." I shook my head.

"Buuudewww?" She's curious... too curious. I'm not going to translate this one. She asked me another question, after I've deliberately ignored her first one.

How does she expect me to answer why I am an Electric Pokémon? Before I could make up something good, she started giggling. Flirt.

"Luuuxray." I don't mean to be rude or anything, but I tried to ask her politely if she had anywhere else to go instead of staying here, "flirting" with me.

She shook her head and added, "Budddew!" Great, another person with no life.

"Luxrayy." I told her she wasn't bothering me at all, since she looked unhappy. Strangely, I don't mind her company, although this is getting strangely uncomfortable. Budew was now sitting down on the log, asking me to sit too. I refused.

She smiled anyways. "Budewwww?" She asked if I have a trainer... wait what? If I understood her correctly, then she asked if I have a trainer. Oh no. This isn't good. I don't like being reminded of this stuff! I am a free Pokémon! Free! I won't have a trainer telling me what to do.

That's exactly what I told her. "Luux Luxxrayy!" She nodded understandingly. She's one of the very few who actually understands me. Other Pokémon I talk to along the way just walk away and say nothing, or just tell me I'm wrong. She listens.

I ask her the same thing back.

She nodded eagerly. "Dew!"

Great, another one. Another Pokémon with a trainer. How is this possible? She finally gains my trust, getting me to think she's nice, wanting me to become her friend, but all of a sudden, she tells me she has a trainer. Anger. Despise. Traitor. Betrayal. How can that be? But as much as I want to walk away from her, I can't. Her innocence is getting to me... somehow. She's smiling at me. And I can feel myself smiling back. Ugh, this is confusing.

"Buudew Buud." I think she told me to give humans a chance. Most of them are actually quite nice. Her trainer is exceptionally nice and powerful.

"Luuuxraaaaaaaaaaaaaaay." And so the argument begins. I told her that if her trainer's a strong one, then why hasn't she evolved yet.

She just laughed absentmindedly. "Buuuuuud!" And she tells me that it's not something I would understand. The nerve of her.

"Luux?" I disagreed with her earlier statement, asking her why and questioning her motive.

"Buudewww... Buud." She said that she wants to remain strong this way, become powerful this way, become who she wants to be this way, and help accomplish her trainer's dream with her, this way. She also told me that you didn't have to evolve to be powerful. It just depends on what you have inside and if your trainer is willing to train you or not. "Buud..." she added at the end and got up.

This is just way too confusing. Fortunately for me, I didn't have to give her reply since she told me that she had to get going and her trainer is expecting her back.

"Luuxray." I waved goodbye and saw her disappear through the trees and bushes. Quite a strange little Pokémon. I sat down and thought over the things she told me. I had no idea if the things Budew stated before were lies or not. It must simply be her beliefs since I never understood why anyone wouldn't want to evolve. Evolving is a wonderful feeling, and since I have been through the same thing twice already, I can say that I speak from experience. Other than that, it brings you wonderful power and precision. It's just a feeling an indescribable feeling. I'm not too sure what she's talking about though; evolving is not something anyone would deny. I wouldn't... that's for sure.

I'm confused beyond belief right now. I don't know how long I've been sitting here for, but thinking about this is really giving me a headache.

I sighed to myself before walking around aimlessly, less aware of everything around me. I couldn't keep my mind into doing that though. All I thought was the meeting. Why, why, and why? I have too much questions and things going on in my head I don't know what to think.

BAM!

Owww. At first, I felt pain spread through my body as I rebounded and fell against the earth. It took me a while to realize that I crashed into something. I opened my eyes slowly and looked ahead into the blurry world. Oh look, something else green and fuzzy. Fuzzy! Ooo! I think it's a tree. Oh! The tree looks so human. I blinked a couple times before realizing that I had bumped into a trainer. A girl to be exact. I backed away with a jolt. Just back up.

She seems different, but a trainer's a trainer. They're always cruel. Cruelty! They shouldn't be trusted. Never ever! She looked at me with fond smile. "Well hello there! My name is Emily!"

She's a cheerful trainer.

To make matters worst, she was also wearing green! Green shirt, green hat, green shorts, green shoes, green jacket, green scarf, and even green backpack! A fan of green. I see... someone up there must really hate me. Don't take me wrong, I don't hate green or anything, but green is all I've seen this month. Nothing else. You can say I am lost in the forest, and to be honest, I am.

I didn't reply. She continued to smile before leaning down towards eye level. "You're a Luxray right?" No duh. I couldn't figure out that one either, Miss Trainer. "You seem to be a bit lonely."

I don't like her already. I looked away, wanting to walk away from her more than anything. However, something stopped me from doing so. I'm not quite sure but the one thing I seem to be doing right now is looking away. "Aww, come on! Don't be like that," she cooed. I stubbornly turned away. "Are you a wild Pokémon?"

Why does everyone have to ask me that! Seriously! Noisy people. I don't like that question. "You're quite stubborn aren't you," she blabbered, looking at me. This time, she sat down on the floor, hugging her knees towards her and she looked at me with curious eyes. This is getting uncomfortable and annoying. I bet all she wants to do is lower my guard down and catch me for her own desperate needs. She doesn't need me. She just wants to use me, and her the rest of her Pokémon to accomplish her dreams. And after her dreams are accomplished, she'll most likely abandon all of them anyways. Trickery and deceiving-that's what all trainers are known to have done to their Pokémon.

All trainers are like that. How do I know that? Well let's say I have history that I don't want to talk about. I don't even want to remember it. Anyways, back to reality.

"You look pretty strong for a wild Pokémon," she concluded thoughtfully. She found out I'm a wild Pokémon, but how, I will never know. It's probably just a guess, I concluded. Whatever she decides to say, I really don't care. "You know, I was wondering if you wanted to battle with me. I would sure love a challenge."

I know her intention. Battle me, weaken me, trick me, or just catch me, then I'll be stuck with her for eternity. That's not good. And that's not right either. I am so not going to enjoy it. And so, I shook my head furiously.

"Aww come on!" she begged.

I refused. There is no way I'm battling her! Or any other trainer. Who knows what they're going to do if they defeat me! They might catch me and make me their Pokémon. Then, I'd have no choice but to obey her. I shivered at the thought. She looked at me again before standing up. "What can I do to get you to battle me?"

This time, I responded. "Luuuxraaaay." I told her that nothing would get me to battle her and to go chase a Meowth.

She huffed slightly. "Is there something wrong?" I don't know how, but she's a mind reader. It's almost like we have this ability to communicate telepathically.

I ignored her. She came up to me and started to pet me. Oh I know what this is! I think she's trying to win me over, that's it! She's trying to win me over and battle me in the end. She's trying to get on my good side. Of course this is what that is, why else would anyone be so nice to me? I mean seriously, all humans have ever did to me was destroyed my home or abandoned me. I'll never trust them again, but somehow I feel different about this trainer. Something's telling me to believe her, trust her, and listen to her, but I won't. I don't want her to turn on me; well, I don't want anyone to turn on me. I backed away slowly, but that didn't help, she followed me slowly as well. I sighed to myself. I give up.

The girl interrupted my thoughts by asking, "Are you hungry?"

Being the stubborn person I am, I shook my head. In reality, I haven't eaten in days. I almost got away with my lie but my stomach betrayed me. It growled. I hate you stomach. She giggled to herself before taking out her backpack and setting it close to my legs. She then unzipped it and took out a brown little package out. She opened it and took out poke block. She then poured some on her hands and shoved her hand in front of me slowly. "Here," she offered. I tried not to get too tempted, but the smell drove me towards it.

I wanted to turn way, I really did, but I leaned in anyways and started eating it slowly. I couldn't help but wonder if this is a trap or if it is poisonous; however, my thoughts were lost when I bit into one. She makes good poke block... very good. Or maybe it's just the fact that I'm really hungry after not eating anything in SUCH a long time. Yeah, it must be that.

I can't help but wonder why she's being so nice to me, and why I'm actually listening to her. I looked up at her cautiously while chewing one carelessly. The trainer smiled at me fondly, nodding at me to go on. If I hate trainers, then why am I trusting her all of a sudden? Why are there so many things I cannot understand? Remember what happened last time when you trusted a trainer? Oh yeah. Curse you poke block for making me forget.

I backed away slowly after eating half of the poke block on her hand. "What's wrong?"

I looked at her with warning. Again, I couldn't see how she could do me any harm, but it's better to be safe than sorry. Once again, she tried to approach me. When she did she stepped on my front paw. I yelped in pain and did what my natural instinct first told me to do. I attacked her and she fell backwards, trying to avoid it, but of course, she didn't succeed. She got crisped by my Spark attack; the young trainer got what she deserved right? But how come I feel weird inside? My senses finally got me to think otherwise.

My paw still aches, but I pay little attention to it. This is what I get for trusting trainers. I examined her with my eyes. She seemed hurt, but I could care less (or at least I tried not to). I don't like her, nor do I like anybody else. She hurt me, on purpose I suppose. And she even made it look like an accident! Well I'm not easily fooled. I walked away, but turned around. Now, she got up slowly and looked at me. She didn't look mad at all. She was more concerned and worried. Shouldn't she be angry at me and start to chasing me around or call out one of her Pokémon to battle attack me or something? But no. "Are you okay? Sorry 'bout that," she muttered loud enough so I could hear.

Maybe she didn't do that on purpose. I'm starting to regret attacking her - wait... what did I just say? Never mind that, I just want to know why she's so calm after what I did. She's making me feel horrible. Oh joy. I turned around and nodded to her. It's my way of saying I understand. She eyed me and said, "I'm quite clumsy; I trip and fall a lot, and I don't watch where I'm going. I'll try to be more careful next time." After her speech, she grinned widely.

I'm not going to forgive her that easily. Now, she was starting to stand back up and succeed. Again, the female trainer walked toward me, smiling affectionately. Okay, I've learned one thing after that Spark attack. She's weak. I didn't really plan to shock her that much and so I limited my attack to half the power, yet she is hurt pretty badly from it. I guess I don't need to be that cautious of her - I just need to keep an eye open, just in case she plans something. She's not that strong, so she probably wouldn't be able to tackle me or something. Pathetic girl. Another reason why I don't want that weak trainer to catch me. I'm reasonable... I have my reasons...

"Luxray..." I'm not sure if she could understand me, but I told her that if she knew what was good for her, she would back off and leave. I still kept a good distance away from her.

Emily shook her head. "I just want to know what's wrong with you first of all. I want to help you." Oh so she does understand me. I don't know if I should be angry or delighted that she knows what I'm saying. We're lacking communication. I'm quiet around humans, while she's just blabbing all sorts of weird things that I can't respond to.

"Luuxrayyyyy." I'm not going to let her help me. Besides, I don't need help. I'm managing fine on my own. I'm not sure what's keeping me from just getting up and walk away... after all, I am mad at her...

"I know you need help. Don't deny it... I can help," she offered.

I looked at her strangely as if she was stupid or something. If she is part of the reason why I'm like this, then how does she supposed to help me? Oh right, she doesn't know. And it should stay that way.

"What's wrong?"

I shook my head impatiently. She is literally impossible. She won't give up any time soon, will she? Well two can play at that game; I'm not going to give up either.

"I can help you. I promise, there's nothing to fear." Psh, the only thing to fear is you in the first place! "Your hurt aren't you. About something. Why won't you let me help you?"

I accidentally blurted out, "Luuxrayy Lux..." I don't think that was a good idea. Bad me. I just confessed to her why I feel so uncomfortable and peculiar.

Emily looked hurt and disappointed. "You still don't trust me do you?" I don't know why she's getting to me, but the thought of her hurt displeased me and made me feel uncomfortable beyond belief.

Wait, still? She knew? She knows? But how? This is getting creepy - really creepy. Or she could've been able to guess through my actions. No duh! Anyone could've guessed that. I am being quite stupid today.

"I'll just have to deal with that later, not that I'm happy about it or anything. But now, can you please have a battle with me and my Pokémon? If you win, I'll leave you alone from now on, but if I win, you have to tell me what's wrong, okay?" She looked at me pleadingly.

Oh this is going to be easy. I'll probably beat her easily and then leave her sobbing/weeping on the floor and she won't bother me again. But then, if I lose... who am I kidding, I won't lose! I've never lost a battle since my last trainer abandoned me. Talk about over confidence. I nodded in agreement and she grinned in delight.

"Alright... and to make it fair, I will only use one Pokémon." I nodded. Fair enough. Usually, I have to beat a whole team of Pokémon, but this should be easy, especially when I only have one Pokémon to beat. Pathetic trainers.

Secretly, I was delighted since I wanted to see if she was really what she said she was... a good trainer I mean. She does not seem like a very good one, but she acts as if she is. She looks a bit smug when I agreed to her deal. I cannot wait to cream her and leave her sulking on the floor.

We walked together to find an open field. At last, we found one and we both took our positions. I went over to left and she went over to the right. I stepped into the field, waiting for her to send out hers. Emily took a white and red poke ball out from her pocket and clicked the center button to enlarge it. "Time to shine, Budew!" She spun around once and threw the poke ball over her head. The poke ball floated in the air and started spinning. It opened up and bright light came out, along with a green cheerful little Pokémon.

I gasped. No, it can't be...

YAY! CLIFFHANGER! LOL I know you hate those, and I know I hate those too, but not when I'm the one responsible for it. -insert evil smile here-

Anyways, PLEASE REVIEW! (:

With love,

Lily.