I don't own it, but if I did things would be different...
This fic born in ver "strange" way. I was talking with one of my friends in the CJ board Online (great place btw) by MSN ...and she make a funny comentary on how get Woody and Jordan together...haha...and we ended with this fic...Hope the you like guy's ..this is my first fic ...oh well here in and anacharlie(she is the one with the funny idea...and my co-writting) help as well
The tittle is in Italian...you would know why soon...It means "My sweet Isabella"...
Chapter
1: Figlia del Vento (The Wind's Daughter)
"Oh,
my God!" Jordan swallowed hard staring the small object on her
hands. She looked around trying to find some reason to believe it was
a dream.
A
bad one actually. But no. It wasn't a dream. Jordan was sitting in
her bathroom with a pregnancy test in her hands. Her positive
pregnancy test.
"How
did this happen?" Jordan asked herself "Stupid question!
You're a grown woman and a doctor. You know how girls get pregnant.
... Ok, just breathe."
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St. Ines Church
Jordan
kneels at the confessionary.
"What
happened?" Paul asked.
"I'm
pregnant." she said a little louder than a whisper.
"Come
again!"
"Pregnant,
Paul." Jordan repeated "I'm pregnant."
"Ok."
the priest took a deep breath "Who's the father?"
"What
am I gonna do? I'm having a baby!" Jordan yelled desperate
"Who's
the father?" Paul insisted "He has the right to know."
"He
doesn't want me. Or the baby" Jordan shook her head.
"Have
you told him?"
Jordan
lowered her eyes.
"Do
you plan on telling?" She didn't answer.
"Who's
he?" Paul asks with urgency.
"Why
does it matter?" Jordan tried to get away with not answering it.
"Whatever
you say to me, I can't tell anyone." Paul reminded her "You
know that."
Jordan
sighed. "Woody."
"As
in 'Woody Hoyt, Homicide Detective'?"
"Yeah.
Is there another one?" Jordan asked sarcastically.
"You
should tell him" he said
"Not
in a million years" Jordan responds fastest
"But
Jordan…"
"I
don't came here, to you tell me what to do" was the sarcastic
reply.
"Aja?"
Paul raises an eyebrow in incredulously.
"Okay
maybe I come for that…but one thing is certainly I'm not going to
say a word to Woody."
"Can
I ask why?" He said
"He
has moved on, have a new life with woman who loves him…and if what
I hear is true …is planning a wedding…is not official yet…"
Jordan voice faded
"A
wedding!" Paul said shocking
"I
hear the he bought a ring like…3 weeks ago" She replied with
whisper…this wasn't easy for her.
"I'm
sorry…"
"Is
my fault…I pushed him away…and now is too late…" Jordan tried
to smile, she failed miserably
"He
wouldn't change his mind…even for the baby?" Paul asking
"I
couldn't that!" Jordan said immediately "push him to be with
me...because a baby?...never…I'm going to make sure the this
baby have all what he needs"
"How
about a father?" Paul said serious, but with a little angry in his
voice..."Are you think about it…how this baby is going to grow
with out him?...How are you going to denied who's his father
is?...I mean is genetic Jordan…" Paul said; believe the maybe
scientific facts can make her to say to Woody the true.
"I
know I'm doctor" Jordan replies…"that is because I make a
decision…"
"And
what is that decision?" Paul said not sure about hat except for an
answer
"I'm
not going to be here"…Jordan said softly
"What!.."
Paul starts to feel a huge panic in his heart.
"Is
not what you thinking" Jordan said when caught Paul gaze…"I'm
not going to be in this country…I'll ready make some calls…I'm
going to Italy…." Jordan finish
"Italy!...what
on earth Jordan!...be serious…." Paul couldn't believe it
"I'm
serious…very…" …Jordan said quiet
"You
are going to run…like always…that isn't fear for that creature
you have there; it not only below to you…it below to him as much as
you…"
"Oh
and what I'm going to say to him" Jordan yelled angrily…"Oh
you know Woody….sorry the I have to ruin your plans to live happily
ever after, but I'm pregnant - and you're the father."…she said
with a sarcastic grin "how does that sound, Paul?"
"Dam"…He
suddenly remember the this was church "Well I think the you are
right at some points"
"It
isn't easy for me either…" She avoids his gaze, focus her eyes
in the wood of the confessionary…
"Do
you love him...are you?"
"What!...Me?...Of
course not…" Her voice sound strong and secure, but her eyes
showing to him a complete different story.
"Look
at me Jordan Cavanaugh" Paul command"and say that again" this
time his eyes were focus on hers.
"I
don't…." Jordan starts …but she couldn't lie…not about
this..
"You
do love him…that is the real reason I can see it…you don't want
to do this, because you love him…
"I…I
don't know what to do…Paul…"
"Well
why if we don't walk for the park…I don't have service today…"
"But
if I do that…you can tell to…"
"I
won't say a word ...I swore…"
"Even
the he treated you with a gun…"
"Ah
well….under that circumstances…"
"Paul…"
"Okay,
I swear"
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"It
is a beautiful ring" he thought "I sure the she would say
yes"….He look again to the simple ring with one diamond in
the center…simple but sophisticated, that was the lady in the
jewelry said…"Nothing to fancy sir, that is the best
option…something simple, so everyone would know the you and her are
engaged."…the voice of the woman sounds in Woody's head.
That was 3 weeks ago…and he still having the ring…still wasn't
in Lu's hand…
"Why,
Why in the name of God I still don't pass the ring to her" He
yelled for himself. He buy it for her…to married her…to live with
her for the rest of his life. "Is not what you want? What you
always want?" He asked desperate to him self…
He
look to the window of his office…one thing get his attention…a
family, Dad, Mom and a little girl…she probably didn't have more
then 2 years old…and was laughing to her Dad, who was making funny
faces to her "Mommy, Mommy, Daddy's bear!". The woman just
smile softly to her daughter at the same time the she toke her
husband hand…
They
were happy as a couple can be….together, with all their life to
enjoy it….Soon he would have the same….a pretty wife and maybe a
couple of kids…and with luck so lovely's as the little
girl…small, with blue eyes and a curly chestnut hair. His fantasy
hit him then, it was no way her daughter ever have that hair…because
Lu wasn't brunette, she was blonde. It was only a memories game,
something old…they it never would be true.
"It was my own decision…I have nothing to blame about it" He told his self, looking to the ring again…a diamond…her birth stone…she was a very rare diamond, a flower who's as grow in the adversity and for that she was the most beautiful of all…probably you would never found another one…ever. One night…that was all what he have to remember…but that night meant nothing for her…he don't want to be a rebound guy….so he start to date with Lu…and after 4 months he was asking to her to married…maybe was a little rush….but he wants security…something the he never have with Jordan…Jordan….she was acting more than weird now…she have suspicion…maybe?. Woody shook his head…"No…No one knows…but then why the suddenly change"…she doesn't even look to him now…she "literally" runs every time the she saw him….Something was wrong…something…not their relationship was the best after the "Inn"…but…why she suddenly change…
"Hey
you're self! I was looking for you"…Lu said entering in
Woody's office "You promises to take to…" she focus his gaze
in Woody's hands "What is that!" she said a little expecting
pointed to the box in his hands.
"This?"
He tried to say cynically "Oh nothing….just a box" "Just a
box…nice move you dumb ass" He thought
"I
know is a box….but is an especial box Woody…" Lu said still
keeping her gaze in the box.
"Oh
well…you think?" he said teasing her…but it was a little
sarcastic.
"Is
a ring box Woody….are you playing with me?" Lu smiled to him
"Yeah...that
is exactly what I'm doing…wanna look what is inside?" Woody
said with a grin
"Did
I have to response to that?" She said given to him her best seduced
gaze at the same time the her hands were going to..
"Haha"
Woody take the box in the precise moment…"you have to wait…"
No
fear…let me see…" She reaches for the box…having a little
struggle with him…Woody laugh to Lu frustrating expression…but
then she caught the box..
"Aja!...that
is because you laugh at me!..." She opened the box and…"Oh my
God Woody is beautiful!...Yes, I say yes!
"Did
I have to ask you first?"
"Oh
well…I guess so" Lu said a little blush
"You
wanna marry me?"
"Yes…yes
of course!"...she wrapped her arms over her neck and kisses him…
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"So
that was what happened…" Paul said after hear the entire story
"Yeah
most off" Jordan said …she was having a headache…..something
very common for her now
"What
do you mean?" Paul asks suspicion…"it was something more?"
he thought
"Nothing"
was Jordan immediately replies
"Hmm….so
then you slept with him…and nothing happened between you two,
because he don't want to be the rebound guy….right?" Paul said
"That
is the picture" Jordan said …it was hard heard the same words of
her mind….so brutal
"Someone
must kick his ass…" Paul said …a little furious to say the true
"Be
my guest…" Jordan said with a grin…a sad one
"Are
you going to be okay with this?...I mean the trip, the baby…a
least you are going to tell to someone…" He wasn't sure... how
Jordan can pass over this…yes she was a strong woman …but…
"If
I open my mouth….sure the entire morgue would know it in half of
second." Jordan cut his thoughts
"What
about your grandma?" Paul suggest
"You
serious?" Jordan asks incredulously…"probably she would try to
put Woody in jail…"
"Yeah"
he chucked "I forgot the after all she is like that…So…nobody,
except for me?
"Yeah…sort
off" Jordan said
"And
if I wasn't a priest…you would tell me?" Paul know the answer,
before the Jordan opens her mouth
"Probably
not…" She said sincerely
"Jordan…."
Pau voice sound like a huge warning…
"I'm
ve' honest" Jordan replies
"I'm
not agreeing with what you are planning to do but"…He said softly
"I hope everything work well."
"Thanks'
Paul" She still feel some relief to talk to someone, the worry
about her…."I gotta go now…I'm on call this night"
"But
the baby…" He start to argue
"I'm
pregnant not invalid…Paul" was Jordan practically answer
"Yeah"
He wasn't 100 convince "but what the doctor say…about this can
be dangerous for you...because of your age…and that was one of the
reason you discover the pregnancy so late…"
"Well…true…but
the doctor also said I'm healthy…and the bay is strong as a
horse…so only have to take care of my self a little more then what
I just t do…" she smiled to him and start to walk to take a taxi.
"Jordan"
Paul calls her
"What?"
She said turning his face to him
"Take
care of your self" he said "and the baby" he pointed to her
tummy
"I
will" Jordan smiled before to catch the Taxi.
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"Someone
knows where Jordan is?" Garret ask entering in the autopsy room
"Nope…sorry
Doctor M" Nigel replies
"She
is in call" Garret said
"I
know that Garret…" Jordan replies from behind
"Oh
well you are late…" Garret start
"Sorry
…traffic…" Jordan said distracted
"Okay
here" He pass a file to Jordan
"What
is?" She asks
"Male
body, single shot on the chest. Woody is waiting…"
"Oh
….sure…" Jordan said a little embarrassing
"Nigel
go with her…." He command
"I
can go alone Garret….is not the I'm going to beat Woody" Jordan
start to arguing
"Is
not for that" Garret replies…".you look pale and tired" he
said pointed to Jordan's exhausted face.
"Oh….I
just don't rest well last night" She said "Nauseas are the
worst thing in this world" she thought
"Better
then….finish the job and go home…" Garret said
"But
I'm on call" Jordan said
"Yeah
but you don't look like you can pass the night there….finish the
job and go home Jordan"
"Okay
boss" Jordan said and let the room with Nigel
"She
just accept my orders Lily?" Garret asks to Lily
"Apparently…"
Lily said surprise
"That's
weird. Something is wrong here." Garret said worried…
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"Hey
Nige….ah Jordan" Woody said looking to both ME's
"Hello
Woodrow...what do we have?"
"Male,
single shut …it looks pretty clear isn't?" Woody said "Excuse
me"….and he lives to talk with a new witness
"Suicide…."
Jordan said softly...too softly
"Lov'
are you okay?...you look pale…" Nigel has the fear the Jordan
would fall to the floor right away
"Who
me?" She said cynically…I don't work "I'm fine… just that
smell" she said
"Hmmm?
The body's?" Nigel replies
"No…the
one from the kitchen…My stomach isn't good …that smell make
feels a little sick…" Jordan said…now feeling really bad.
"Why
you don't wait outside?" Nigel said with a complicit smile
"What!...I
can't let you do all the work" Jordan arguing
"Come
on lov'…is not really "too much' work…" Nigel played
"Okay
Nige…I own you one…" she said grateful…she knows the she
can't stay there one minute more with out….well almost make a
Technicolor in the floor.
"Hey
Nige ..so" Woody said backing to body
"Suicide…..but
it would be clearer in the morgue" Nigel says, preparing to put the
body in the bag.
"Perfect…and"
He looks around …"Where is Jordan?" he asks
"Out
side…she doesn't feel good…" Nigel say distracted
"Why"
Woody asks again…"Jordan Cavanaugh out form a body…no way"
he thought
"Her
stomach …she said the eat something" Nigel say still focus in the
body
"Oh…ah,
so if there nothing the I can do so….I'm going to see her…"
Woody said trying to sound relaxing
"If
that men as forget her…I eat a chair" Nigel thought as he
looks Woody walk out to he house.
"Hey….is
a little cold here…." Woody says staying behind Jordan
"Oh"
she was surprise by his presence …"is not bad…actually the
fresh air makes my feel better…" Jordan say
"You
eat something bad?" Woody asks worried , she look really pale…and
so tired.
"It
seems" she replies "But is another" thing" there what make
feel sick"
"Are
you taking something for that?" Woody said
"Yeah…is
nothing to worried about it…just little nauseas" Jordan said
unfocused
"Nauseas?"
Woody rise an eyebrow…
"Damn"
Jordan thought "Yeah….you knows that how call the things the
makes you want to throw up"
"You're
been sick?" He said worried
"Just
a little" Jordan say trying to give the idea it wasn't serious
"You
should be in bed then…not here...in the cold" He said…."let
me take you home…Nigel can take the body to the morgue" He
offered
"No…really
isn't necessary" Jordan say…"it could be dangerous" she
thought shivering a little "My apartment certainly would give a
lot of clues of what is going on'
"What
wrong Jor? You are shacking" Woody said noted Jordan body's
reaction
"I'm
just cold" She said fast
"Here"
He said, taking his coat and putting in her shoulders
"No…Woody"
"Save
it…if you don't feel good, you shouldn't be here…I'm going
to take you home…don't argue…I'm going to tell Nigel." He
said and back in the house to talk with Nigel
"This
is not good" Jordan thought
"Doctor
Cavanaugh, are you right?" One of the police officer, who was in
there, ask to her
"Oh
yeah…" Jordan said strangely
"You
look pale…" The officer say worried
"Why
every body is telling me that!" Jordan yelled
"Because
is true Lov" Nigel said from behind
"You
too…" She said turning her face to him
"Lov'
what is wrong?…you heard the rumors..?" Nigel asks to her
"What
rumors?" Jordan said surprise…looking deep in Nigel
face…something wasn't okay…
"Oh..nothing"
He trying to lied…"I'm going to"
"Nigel!"
She grabbed his arm..."What rumors?" Jordan asks urgent
"Lov'…well
is not official yet" he hated hurt her like this, cursing is mouth
…"but I heard the official talk about it…"
"About
what?" Jordan feels a huge pain…and she wasn't even sure of hat
"The
Woody and Lu are enga…" Nigel said softly
"Don't…"
she cut him off…she don't want to her the complete sentence.
"I'm
sorry love" Nigel said taking her hands, trying to catch her eyes
to say how…
"Take
me home Nige" she said keeping her eyes in the floor…"please"
she played
"Sure…I
think you needed" Nigel said softly given to her a hug.
"There
you are guys…Listen Nigel I'm going to.." Woody says backing to
them
"No"
Jordan said strong and cold…"Nigel would take me…"
"But
Nigel has to go to…" Woody stammered….something was wrong
...the tone in her voice…
"I
can let Jordan in her place first…is not a problem Woodrow" Nigel
said trying to keep way Jordan
"Yeah"
she said sarcastic…"beside…Your fiancée can think things
are not….Goodnight Detective Hoyt…" was her last coolness
sentence
"Detective…she
never calls me Detective….not even when we meet for first
time"…well sure he deserve it …try to be a gentleman when
he have a fiancée. ...between Jordan and he was nothing, not
now not ever…and it was his own decision…he can't do a damn
thing…
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Jordan
look into her place…."Woody has a fiancée. He is going
to married for Christ sake…married"
The
pains overbold her. Nauseas ere nothing compare with that…they say
you don't feel anything when a bullet gets in your heart….
She
knew it, she always knew it…ever since he start to date with
her…and now…was true…Jordan want just to run ….far…when
nobody can see the darkness in her eyes, the pale of her face…the
shacking hand the tried to calm his sobs….
She
cried all the night, she cried for Woody and his baby…she cried for
they life the she never would have with him, she cried over her
baby's future. She cried until there were not more tears to
burned…she cried all, to never have to cried for that again…to
never have to cry for him …ever.
She
took the telephone on her nightstand…and discard a number in the
she have in her agenda.
"Hello,
Travel Agency, I'm Martha, may I help you?" a female voice said
"Hey,
I'm Jordan Cavanaugh…I want to buy a ticket to Italy…" she
said low…and slow
"Tourism?"
the "happy mode" woman asks
"No"…Jordan's
face closed up. "one to never come back…."
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