Ok, something I wrote some time back. If you are reading my other story, The Benevolent Empress, then it will give you a little insight to Michael's character. Michael is my favorite character on SGA and I'm looking forward to seeing more episodes involving him.
Why me?
Why me? Why is it I that was chosen of this experiment? The Atlanteans ruined my life as they are now destroying my people, well the Wraith, since I will never be accepted. I have so many questions.
How are humans better than Wraith? The wraith rejected me on a whim, yet the humans rejected me, the thing they had created, after I had saved their worthless lives. In my judgment, I would choose the wraith over the humans. Telya said that humans show compassion and mercy, character traits I have not seen in either race.
Who was I before? I wish I could remember. I know I was a scientist as I am now. But was I just a scientist, or was I something more? Did I have a mate and a family? Did I sleep with the queen and care for her? Am I a father missing the lives of my children? Was I a leader who should be there guiding my people? I wish I knew even though it would hurt. It would be better than the hole left by not knowing.
What I told Shepard was true. I would prefer death. It would be better than continuing on brooding and feeling the pain of rejection. But I will not take my own life. That would be cowardly. So I continue on working on my research to busy my time.
One day I wish for revenge. Revenge on the Atlanteans. To watch as they bend beneath my will as they made me. To use their own virus against they changing them into what they fear most. I hope for acceptance. I doubt I will ever receive it. I dream of finding some way back into the wraith community. I dream of rescuing a queen and, as a reward, her acceptance of me. I miss my people. But it is better to be alone than with them and hated. I enjoy my brief moments I spend with them gathering my supplies. I enjoy the brief conversations with my brothers. Maybe one day I can be fortunate enough rejoin them.
For now I spend my time as I can working on my experiment. Sometimes I play with unsolved formula of theories anything to keep my mind from wondering back to my questions