Sora sighed as he walked through the streets of Radiant Gardens. It had been forever since he'd had the chance to relax. Leon was hounding him to help out the restoration committee. Normally he was happy to help, but recently, he had too much on his mind to do much of anything. Sora sighed again and sat under the shade of a tree, letting his eyes slip shut.
Being lazy again, eh Sora?
Sora's eyes opened again. He groaned at the internal voice he had come to know so well.
"No, mother, just taking a break." Sora replied. He heard Roxas laugh.
Yeah, you'll take a break, close your eyes, and fall asleep. And then you won't do your work, get yelled at by Leon, and be given even more work as punishment. Sora rolled his eyes.
"So what? I'll get around to it." Roxas sighed.
It really isn't fair…
"Hm? What's not?"
I gave up my body, my life, for someone who barely uses his own now that he has it back. The sadness that laced the words made Sora feel guilty. Roxas was right. He had given up everything he had just so Sora could wake up. He had died so Sora would live. Well…sort of died. When they became one, Roxas was supposed to disappear. But that obviously didn't happen. Sora could still hear Roxas. At first, it was just when he was about to do something stupid. Roxas would warn him, talk him out of it. Sora had mistaken it as his own conscience. But the more he heard the voice, the more he realized that it wasn't his own. Sora looked down at his hands.
"I know, I'm sorry. But you really didn't have a choice, right? It was gonna happen one way or another. Somehow you would've rejoined with me, whether it was of your own will or not."
Yeah, I guess…You don't get it, though. Ever since, I've been seeing everything through your eyes. Hearing your thoughts. You have no idea how it feels to…not feel like yourself anymore. Sora buried his face in his palms and gave an internal answer.
I know you don't like it. I know it's not fair. And I know it hurts. And if I could make it any other way, you know I would. Roxas rolled his eyes.
No you wouldn't. You would much rather keep me where I am out of fear as to what would happen to you if I disappeared. Sora brought his face out of his hands and glared slightly at nothing in particular. After all, he can't glare at himself, but hell if he wouldn't try.
But you were supposed to disappear! Your consciousness was supposed to be engulfed my mine! How in hell we're actually sitting here having this conversation still confuses me! Roxas smirked and chuckled.
So you want to be rid of me? Sora sighed.
"You know that's not what I meant. I'm glad you're still alive. Not so happy about the fact that we share a brain, though…" Roxas laughed again.
What, you got something in here you don't want me to see?
"What? N-no! Of course not!"
Haha, don't worry, I won't look. You're usually empty headed, anyway. Sora smiled thankfully before realizing he had been insulted.
"Hmph…"
Aw c'mon, don't hmph at me. You had it coming! Now Sora laughed.
"Yeah, I guess I did." He sighed heavily. "I wish I had met you for real. I bet we would've been great friends. I mean, come on, I don't even know what you looked like. Namine said you looked a little like Cloud, but it's really hard to imagine…" A lightbulb popped up over his head. "NAMINE!" Roxas raised an eyebrow.
Hm? Namine what?
"Namine! Namine's a witch and stuff, right? Maybe she can think of something!"
You mean to get us separate? Sora, that's the most idiotic thing I've ever heard.
"Well at least I'm thinking! You're mean, you know that?"
You think I'm mean? I'm not mean, AN ANGRY LEONHART is mean. Look up, stupid. Sora growled at Roxas before looking up and seeing a fuming Leon towering over him.
"Is there a reason you're sitting here talking to yourself instead of doing what I asked you to do?"
"L-Leon! I was…just…taking a break."
"Riiiight. Well, break's over, Sora. C'mon, time to start working." Leon held a hand out, which Sora grabbed. He pulled himself up and followed Leon towards his office to help with damage reports and such.
.o.O.o.
"Ughhh, my hand is broken…" Sora complained as he walked toward Cid's garage. Roxas raised an eyebrow.
Two hours of paperwork and your hand is already cramping? Lightweight.
"Hey, I did a lot of writing in those two hours!"
You finished four reports to Leonhart's fifteen.
"Yeah, but Leon's a workaholic!"
Well, can't argue with that. Guy really needs to relax and get himself laid. Where are you going, anyway? Isn't the castle the other way? Sora turned pink at Roxas's blunt language.
"Yeah, but I'm going to Cid's place and borrowing a gummiship."
So you're really gonna ask Namine about this?
"Uh huh. What's wrong with that? Don't you want to be separate from me?"
Of course I do, but then what happens to you? When we were separate before, you were unconscious. You didn't wake up until after I rejoined you. If I leave…
"I don't care. You hate being stuck in my head. It isn't fair. You deserve your life back." Roxas sighed. Would he even have a life if he was separate from Sora? He could feel emotions now because he was one with him. Sora's heart was his heart, too. That's all he had wanted before. But would he have an actual life? With friends? Axel was gone, and as far as Roxas was concerned, no one could replace him. Axel had died for Sora, and also for Roxas. Axel knew that he was still alive somehow. Roxas had watched through Sora's eyes as Axel disappeared. And Roxas had cried. Sora sighed. "You will have a life, because you'll always have me. And I know you miss Axel. I do, too." Roxas sighed now, too. He had forgotten that Sora could hear his thoughts. The brunette grinned. "Yeah, think of it like that. If we're separate, I won't be able to hear your thoughts anymore!" Roxas smirked.
Yeah, I can freely think insults about you.
"Hmph! Well I never!" Sora said, putting on an exaggerated face of offence. Roxas groaned.
Aww, you know I'm kidding. Sora smiled.
"Yeah, I know." The brunette walked casually through Cid's open garage door. "Mr. Highwind!" No answer. "…Cid?"
"Up here, smallfry!" Cid yelled. Sora followed the voice and saw Cid hanging his head out of an open panel of one of the various ships parked in the garage's landing bay. He gave Sora a two-fingered salute, losing his balance and falling out in the process. The blonde in question landed straight on his ass and muttered out a string of profanities, some of which Sora didn't even recognize as English. He stood and rubbed his ass. "Damn that hurt like a bitch…" As if he remembered the brunette's presence at that moment, he blushed and scratched the back of his head. "Uh, ya didn't see that, got it?" Sora giggled.
"Right, didn't see anything." Sora replied. Cept you falling flat on your ass. He internally added. Roxas chuckled.
You sure it's safe to fly the stuff he built?
As sure as I am that Leon and Cloud are gay for each other.
But nobody knows that for sure yet.
Exactly. Sora looked at Cid, who had gotten on the task of figuring out how to get back up to where he was without using very long ladder. "Hey Cid, is it okay if I borrow a Gummiship?"
"That depends on where the hell yer goin'."
"Going to Twilight Town to see Namine."
"Twilight Town, eh? Sure, ship's all yers. BUT, the silver haired punk has to drive." Sora shuddered at the thought. If Riku had to tag along, then he would have to explain to him what they were going to be doing. And knowing Riku, he would not be very happy with the idea of Roxas and Sora being split again.
"Why can't I fly it? You taught me how yourself!"
"Yeah, I did, but yer goin' pretty far away. Sorry Sora, don't really trust ya with drivin' one of my babies fer that long."
"Aww. Why Riku though?"
"What can I say, smallfry? That little punk and Chocobo-head over there are the best drivers, besides yers truly." Cid gestured to the part of the garage where Cloud kept and worked on his motorcycle. "I can't take ya, and he's too busy bein' dragged along with the girls to do too much of nothin' right now, so that leaves yer buddy." Cid pulled out his phone and dialed Riku's number. Sora continued to grimace at the idea of Riku flipping out when he finds out what they're doing.
What's the big deal? Does your friend hate me or something? Roxas said, eyebrow raised.Sora sighed.
S'not that he doesn't like you. He does, cause without you I never would've woken up. I just don't think he'd be too fond of the idea of us being separate again. He doesn't like uncertainty. Roxas shrugged his shoulders.
Life isn't life without a pinch of uncertainty here and there. Sometimes you just have to take a leap of faith. Sora groaned.
Yeah, if only you could tell him that.
But since I can't, you gotta tell him for me.
He doesn't know that I still hear you. No one does.
And why's that? Afraid they won't believe you? You think they'll toss you in the loony bin? If they really were your friends, they would believe you. And you already belong in the loony bin with how hyper you are, even without sugar or coffee. The brunette sighed. How did Roxas do that? How was he able to make perfect sense when Sora couldn't even begin to figure it out? For two guys who were supposed to be the same person, they had more differences than Sora could count. But he didn't mind. He liked that they were so different. It made it so Sora never got bored with their internal arguments. Sora heard Roxas scoff. So glad I amuse you. Sora chuckled softly.
Don't take it the wrong way, Roxy. I just think our conversations are really funny.
Roxy?
Yes, Roxy. Roxas growled at the brunette. Sora laughed as quietly as he could. Cid was still talking to Riku. Since you can't smack me for it, Roxy, Roxy, Roxy, Foxy Roxy. Roxas blushed and growled again.
If Namine separates us, you are so getting strangled.
Ha! As if! I'm like your twin, you can't hurt me!
The hell I can't!
It isn't nice to hurt those you care about, Roxy.
It's a good thing I hate you then, isn't it?
Ooh, that's cold, man.
Grr, I'll show you cold you little- Roxas shut up when he heard Cid close the cell phone and slip it back into his pocket.
"Alrighty smallfry, Riku's comin' here in a few minutes to take ya to Twilight Town. Just get in the ship and wait for em'." Sora nodded.
"Kay, thanks Cid."
"No problemo, seeya later smallfry. Don't get yerself into too much trouble, got it?"
"Yezzir Mr. Highwind sir." Sora said with a giggle. Cid rolled his eyes and got back to the task at hand of figuring out how to get back up to the panel under the ship. Sora walked into one of the Gummiships, plopping down in one of the back seats. He yawned and stretched.
So, what do you think things will be like if we do get separated? Roxas asked quietly. He was still a bit concerned about what would become of them. Would Sora fall unconscious again? Would he never have emotions again? Roxas wasn't sure.
I dunno exactly. Best case scenario, we get separated and live as our own person, with our emotions and memories in tact. Worst case scenario… Roxas and Sora cringed in unison. Sora didn't want to lose Roxas. And much to his chagrin, Roxas didn't really want to lose Sora, either.
Let's just hope Namine can do something about it. She brought us together, who's to say she can't cut us apart, too? Roxas said with a solemn nod. Sora laughed.
You're making her sound like a matchmaker. Roxas just shrugged.
I think all girls have an inner matchmaker just waiting to find two of their friends to pair up. Now they both laughed. Sora heard footsteps coming towards him.
"Hey Sora, you ready to go?" Riku yelled.
"Yup, all set!" Sora replied, smiling. Roxas sighed.
Yeah, we're all set. Question is, set for what?
