A/N: Okay...I know this is kinda hypocritical of me but when I see flashbacks...I skip them so I advise you not to because this whole chapter is a flashback and if you do not read it you won't get my book.

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NikCul

Chapter 1

Bella = 15
Edward = 16

Flashback

"How long?" I asked.

"Give it five minutes Bella!" Edward laughed.

"You have been in England for six months. You are my best friend and I miss you dearly. I can't wait anymore."

"Do you want be to get in a car crash?"

"No!" I shouted.

"Then hold on." He smiled and hung up.

Hmph....

Edward was my best friend. I met him when I was three at pre-school. I here stories about hating him and I really only became friends with him when I realized boys didn't have cooties...when I was eight or nine but I can't recall.

My other friend is Alice, my age and he is also Edward's sister is my best girl friend. She keeps telling me that we should get together but then he went to England and I never got a chance to tell him I liked him. I'm not denying it.

He. Is. Stunning.

He had emerald green eyes and bronze tussled hair not to mention gorgeous. He is pretty tall too and when he smiles....

It's orgasmic.

I know he likes me as well. I'm no idiot like girls in other stories and me and Edward have talked about it before but he felt that it would risk our friendship and we should just stay as is. I liked him so much that I let my stupid self convince me of that.

I should just back off...

I heard a roar of an car pull up on my driveway and Edward in all his love and glory stepped out of the car.

I ran out in the winter cold and sprinted towards him to give him a great big hung. He was back!

He hugged me back and I lead him into my house to my room where Alice would come and join us later for a sleepover considering it was the break.

"Bella!" He chuckled and hugged me again. "I missed you."

I slouched against my wall and smiled and pulled him into another hug. "I missed you too."

He released me and then all of a sudden pressed a soft, lip in lip kiss on my mouth. My eyes widened then closed.

He let go. "Oh shit." He mumbled and began to pick up his stuff and walk away.

I was not prepared for this.

Before he could pick up his thing I pulled him by the front of his shirt and took his face in my hands and pressed my lips to his where he slammed me against the wall and the pictures rattled a bit at the force.

His hands slid tightly and securely around my waste as mine knotted in his hair gasping for air every time our lips parted.

We began to walk over to my bed and my back slammed against my bed where he laid on top of me.

His hands slid down my sides and under my shirt which mine traced pictured on his chest after I had taken off his shirt...what do you know? He has no chest hair...yumm.

He began to kiss me more fiercely as our breathing increased and then suddenly there was no weight on me anymore and my lips were burning and his things were gone and the door slammed shut.

He left.

It was a bad idea...

I waited for them to come back when I heard my mom and dad walking into the house and I ran downstairs.

My mom pulled me into a hug. "I'm so sorry Bella."

"Me too." My dad added.

Did they know? Did they secretly hide a camera in my room?

"About what?" I asked, oblivious.

"Don't you know?"

I shook my head. I didn't think I knew...

"The Cullens left town."

"What?"

"It was last second when Esme called the hospital. Edward said he made a huge mistake or something and couldn't show his face anymore or something because he was embarrassed...I'm not sure but they apparently understood. They left Phoenix." Said Charlie.

"What?" I began to cry. None of them said goodbye.

My mom pulled me in for another hug. "I know. I'm sorry this happened to you knowing it wasn't your fault."

But that's just it. It was my fault.

And now he is gone....forever.

A/N: Okay...we all know he isn't gone forever...duhhh

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Next ones will be longer

loving you

NikCul