Confessions In The Rain

The rain splattered against my window as I watched. I always liked the rain. It calms my moods and the gray sky looks beautiful. On a raining day like this, everything is quiet and peaceful, just the way I like it. On occasion, when my parents argue like there's no tomorrow, I like to shut out everything and listen to music. Or sometimes I leave the house, just so I can't hear the yelling and screams of my mother. I know that my father hits my mother and vice versa, but I can't do anything about it. I don't know when they'll turn their anger on me but I know that it'll come. They'll start blaming things on me and hit me. Or if that doesn't happen, they'll have a divorce and I'll have to move in with my grandparents, no way am I going to live with either one of them.

I hear the door shut loudly. I know my father was home and that means trouble. Any minute now, their will be yelling. Deciding enough was enough, I ran down stairs to confront both of my parents. They already were at each others throats.

"Stop it!" I cried out, "Stop it! Stop arguing!"

They didn't hear me.

Fed up, I ran towards them and threw my mother's vase onto the floor. They both jumped at the unexpected noise and turned to see me in tears.

"Stop it," I sobbed, falling onto the floor, "Please. I don't want you two to fight anymore. Please."

"Haruhi," my mother said my name softly, as if she never saw me there before, "I'm sorry." She hugged me but I didn't feel comforted. Instead I got out of her embrace and got to me feet.

"I'm leaving to grandma," I said, "I can't stand the fights anymore. I won't be coming back until you two either divorce or get along again. I want us to be the happy family I remember before you two started arguing. Like the old times. This is goodbye."

I didn't wait for their reply but ran out the door, into the pouring rain I love so much. My grandparents live in another town but I didn't care, as long as I get away. I didn't want my parents to divorce but I now that there were too many regrets for them to ever get along again. I just hope that they stay together to work out their problems. I love my parents very much and I know that they still love each other. I don't want them to separate.

I took the train to my grandparents' house and stayed there for 2 days before my parents came to take me back. I know they were pretending to get along so I would go back home and so did my grandparents. I wouldn't listen to their talk and walked out the door.

I went to the park to think. No one was there so it was quiet. It was around 8:00 when I went back to the house. My parent weren't there. I was disappointed. My grandma told me that they had gone home earlier when they couldn't convince my grandparents to let them take me. I was both glad and disappointed at the same time, glad that I didn't have to go home and disappointed that my parents are still not getting along.

The next day was my 17th birthday. I didn't want to celebrate but my grandma insisted so we had a little party with friends and family. My parents didn't come. I guess they forgot.

I stayed with my grandparents for 3 months after I heard that my parents were seeing a counselor to fix their marriage. I was very happy that day. I finally went back home after 5 months of being away. But 1 month later, problems started again. My father lost his job and started drinking. I ran away again during another fight. But this time I didn't go to my grandparents. I stayed at a friend's house instead.

It was raining that day when I went to the mall with friends. We got in a car accident. Of course my parents blamed one another for the accident. They said they it was his or her fault that I ran away in the first place. My grandma was crying because I was in a coma for a week till I came to. My friends were alright too. I was glad but not glad to see my parents.

In the end, my parents got a divorce and I was adopted by my grandparents. I see my mother once in a while but my father had died from his drinking. I couldn't go and live with my mother because of the adoption but I was kind of glad that she was free from my father's grasp. She started to smile again and she seems happy after meeting this nice guy from her new workplace. I still stayed with my grandparents until I went to college. I don't like the rain anymore because every time it rains, I always remember my horrible past.

I'm 30 now, married to my high school sweetie, Suou Tamaki and with two 7 year old twins, Hatsuharu and Kiyoko. My grandparents died two years ago. I couldn't stop crying for a week. They were like my real parents. I still miss them.

My mother married the guy she met and now I have a little brother name Ryousake. He's so cute. He, Haru and Kiyoko get along very well, which I am very thankful for. I don't ever want to see so many violence any more. I've had enough and never want to experience again. I'm glad my life turned out for the better. I don't know what I would have turned out if I was to stay with my parents. I'm very grateful.

The End