The finger
"Cath, have you got a minute?" Gil Grissom asked from behind his desk as he saw the redhead glide past his open office door. Stopping in her tracks she paused in the doorway and leant casually against the frame.
"Yeah?" she replied "What's up?"
Gil shifted uncomfortably in his seat. He could list her a dozen things that were currently bothering him he just wasn't sure he would be able to put it into legible sentences.
To start with, the minute he had saw her drive off with Logan his heart had flipped, he felt it fall into his stomach, and he couldn't fathom what she was doing. Why would she go out with this man?
The second he heard her phone ring on the side of the road his heart flipped again. All of her belongings she had just left behind, not at all like her. His mind was racing, countless possibilities.
It was only an hour later that his heart had stopped thudding in his chest quite so violently, when Sarah appeared bearing news in the form of the severed finger, that he started to calm himself down and think more rationally.
All sorts of words were flung around, one standing out more than the others; 'kidnapping', to god he prayed that she would be alright, if something were to have happened to her, he didn't know what he would have done.
His eyes flicked up and met those of the woman's standing in the doorway "I just wanted to make sure you were alright?" he asked her
"I'm fine" she replied "Pissed that, that bastard could fool me so easily, but otherwise I'm fine" she smiled lightly at the end
"He had us all fooled Cath" Gil said calmly. He wasn't feeling calm inside, his chest was raging, his heart was aching; too long he felt this way about her. Potentially her life could have been in serious danger, and that was all it took for his feelings to come bubbling back to the surface. Keeping them locked down hadn't been easy to start with, but it had grown into something he was comfortable with, or something that he could at least put up with. Gil Grissom was hardly a man that shared his feelings anyway. It hadn't been too hard.
But now.
Now it was something else. He wanted to take two large strides across the room and envelope her in his arms, never letting her go. Vowing to keep her safe, promising her everything would be okay from now on.
But he couldn't. She wouldn't reciprocate his feelings. However much he hated it, there was nothing he could do that would stop her falling for guys like Eddie, and instead choosing men, more like himself. He could hope, but he knew that his hoping would be in vain.