I never put much thought into how my life would turn out. Letting my mind drift into the hand of peace. Never to be moving at a high pace. Always to be tranquil. I had planned it to be symmetrical with the picture I had painted in my near enough empty head, easy going and living life. Was this to much to ask for. Apparently it was, even for me.

My heart thundering. The indescribable pain surging through my being. As if sending me into eternal darkness wasn't enough, The pain that accompanied it was excruciating.

I realized that this must be the end. As all thing must end, it is the way of life. But why me, why now. I stopped that thought Immediately. Not allowing it to manifest itself. only to create more pain of it being ripped away from me. I tried to let myself be consumed by the pain and let the already nearing end come. that's all I wanted now. Slowly I let the pain take me.